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271st post

2009-12-17T10:29:00.002+08:00

So it's a few days until Christmas.
It's just unusual how this year's about to end.

Hmm. Our Xmas break has begun today, but I still need to head to school later for our Sportsfest.
Go Seniors!

RTFTW:

We lost. It's just that I feel like when I join something I never win. Nevertheless, our voices weren't loud, I did my best in projection, but apparently some did not. I think they said we even placed 4th. Either way, luckily I got out of my depression state yesterday in the afternoon LOL-ing at our shooting for the Jose Rizal movie thing. From the beat boxing (c/o Charm) to the funny incidents and stories plus gift opening with Nix, I've recovered much :)
I got a total of 5 notebooks! Wow. And I got a lot of necklaces. my jewelry box is like, full. xD
Excited to shop & have a mini photo shoot w/ Nix on Saturday, Dec. 19 :) Woot. Maybe, just maybe, I may finally have a post for lookbook :) LOL.
I'm still undecided whether to spend my savings on those flat boots from Zara, or the band vest still from Zara or to buy mary janes, a beanie, lace tights and tops instead of the above mentioned Zara items. Aaaaaah.
I want a Canon Powershot for graduation! xD
I think I'm too materialistic. It's just that I wanna look good in Dubai xD
and for all the days of my life xD
Anyways, it's Xmas Break! WOOT.
You're so useless.

MY CLOSET
I just bought super lots of stuff since the end of November until now.

Topshop Dark Vio Cardigan
The Ramp suede violet booties
MNG Xbody bag
BAYO red sailor-ish dress
Giordano full-length semi-glossy leggings
St. James Bazaar sequined ponytail
St. James Bazaar vintage heart necklace
St. James Bazaar violet wavy headband
168 Mall Harajuku Lovers bag
168 Mall grey & black striped knee high socks
168 Mall gold wired star necklace
168 Mall Eiffel Tower clock necklace
WTC Bazaar fake Ray-Ban clear lens wayfarers
WTC Bazaar grey braided headband (I love this!)

MY DRAWER
Stuff I bought that are not pieces of clothing xD

Teen Vogue December/January
St. James Bazaar scrapbook paper
WTC Bazaar mail box coin bank (super vintage. super legit!)

THANKYOU
I opened some gifts the past few days. 2 left under the tree. HAHA. Sorry, I'm kind of..old already so my siblings have more gifts than me xD

Silver detailed bangle from Jean
Anna Pashmina gold crumpled wristbag from godparents
Golla case from godparents
Crabtree & Evelyn Jojoba Oil Soap from godparents
Elle B/W bag from godparents

THANKYOUFRIENDS
I got 5 notebooks FTW!

Scribe Plain Notebook from Sarah (my next journal woot!)
Personalized Spiral Paisley Notebook from Ellie (superrrr cool \m/)
Eiffel Tower organizer (FUNctional xD) from Jenyap (thankssss)
Moleskine mini autumn red color (set of 3) from Charmosaur (exchange gift TYVM!)
Moleskine baby aqua blue (set of 2) from GeGe (super cute)
Eiffel Tower necklace from Yunini (aaaaah!)
Heart & guitar necklace from Joyce :)
Chef Tony Popcorn from Joca (lolness)
Cute socks, cell charm, cute pen & bracelet from Nix
Super cute alien cell charm from Tin
Squishy sort of thing from Alvin
Cell charm from Mang Jani
Starbucks necklace from Jenyap (Kris Kringle)
Cake towel from Lynn (Kris Kringle)

I forgot the others xDDD But thanks!

I still have a lot of things to accomplish this Xmas Break.

Off to do my list!
xo

It's really a fact that I love making lists. xD

New perspective

2009-11-22T07:45:00.002+08:00

I can say that the littlest of things can alter an entirety of myself.
Not for bragging purposes, but I'm glad my hard work paid off. Finally.

It's a different Sunday for me today, opening the laptop at 7 in the morning. What happened to me lol. Anyways, I'm hoping I get a lot of shopping bags today >:) I'm paying half of it tho ;D

Nope. Nothing to write.

Playlist:

Careful - Paramore
Turn It Off - Paramore
Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore
Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
New Perspective - Panic at the Disco
Drop Out (The So Unknown) - Jack's Mannequin
The End Where I Begin - The Script
All At Once - The Fray
Pasko Na - Bukas Palad
Fireflies - Owl City
The Bird & The Worm - Owl City
The Saltwater Room - Owl City
Tip of the Iceberg - Owl City
Cave In - Owl City

To see nothing in the light.

2009-11-21T23:25:00.002+08:00

I have not updated both my Gazette & this blog. Is that bad?

Despite the fact that I do want to update my life and make it memorable 24/7, if I am lazy, I AM lazy. I'll deal with it.

On the brighter side, I've been enjoying these past few days (: Even if I thought wrong.

I wasn't ecstatic I got honor, but I wasn't sad either, so that's good. Okay. Fine. I'm glad I did get in the list. If I didn't, I'd ditched Third Qtr. Promise.

Anyways, other things that have occurred this week:

Choir Practice - I'm no singer, but I can sing, that's for sure. Batch choir for Xmas Chorale Contest. I've got my fingers crossed! People there are interesting I guess. Even if, well, I don't want to see some of them. They're okay. I don't hate practices all of a sudden anymore :)
Batch Play Auditions. Considering I was the #3 I was one of the firsts to perform. I'm crossing my fingers!
Card Distri Day. The day when I was shocked to know I got in. I'm happy I suppose :)
Oh, I bought a dress awhile ago. WOOT for that! From BAYO. a red one. awesomeness \m/ Can't wait to post looks on lookbook.nu when I find the perfect shoes for it!

Well. Random.

Oh, yeah, the other day I tried not eating after 6. And my stomach erupted. I dreamt of someone before I woke up with a squealing stomach. What a weird dream T___T

I'm off now (:

Don't get shocked if I will keep writing about fashion stuff and random thoughts about it. I've been sketching once again, I love it! Might study fashion after college.

xo!

I am not myself

2009-11-12T14:39:00.002+08:00

There's something about this layout that doesn't convince me or persuade me to write an entry here. Which is...weird.

Certain times in my life I've felt this. Like some kind of demon enters through me, and despite all the productivity I've had so far, my head hurts, my mind wanders, I get some kind of weirdo memory loss and I turn berzerk and later on, I don't get to study well.

I am done w/ Chinese & Math, though. But I need to brush up on Chinese.
I still have Physics, and the Don Quixote script + puppet drawing.

Talk about my life.

I really don't like to be the leader for the nth time! I am sick of it. But what the heck can I do. Oh well. Maybe it's a way of saying I need to work my butt off since I've been emoting for the past few days like hell- as you've noticed, reading the entries below.

Luckily I got ahold of myself, I hope. I'm currently telling myself to hang by the moment and not fast forward too much. As much as I'm pretty ecstatic to watch New Moon, go Xmas shopping for C, L & B (cardigans, leggings, boots & other items!) , celebrate Christmas, post on LOOKBOOK and turn 17, I still need to know that there is such thing called SCHOOL.

And all the drama that goes with it. It's one hell of a ride by all means. New seating arrangements have been done, tomorrow's the beginning! I will miss my seatmates :( And all the randomness. On the bright side, I've been placed in the middle row, 2nd seat! YAY. I know I should groan, but if I want to be productive, I need to sit there.

So that's all for all the info. I have yet to do other things. Gah.

Oh yeah I have a playlist now. New one! It's a mix of pop rock & electric.

Fireflies - Owl City
The Bird and The Worm - Owl City
Turn It Off - Paramore
Meet Me On The Equinox - Death Cab for Cutie
Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore

Just those. lol.
See ya!

8 days till New Moon.
42 days till Xmas.
62 days till I'm seventeen.
(:

Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

2009-11-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
Cool. New "term" - Yuletide (Xmas) Seventeen (bday) \m/
It's so ironic I like using \m/ lol. I'll get over it soon :]

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
CLOTHING EDITION

Suede Booties
Topshop dark vio cardigan
Body bag ('cause my Zara one faded out)
Minidress (lots of weddings next year. 5 i think.)
Nerdy glasses (4B nerd theme please!)
P O L A R O I D
In short, I'd love to have a shopping spree :]

PERSONAL EDITION

2nd honor
Closure w/ people
Spend time w/ D A S 'cause I've been missing them!
Have a fun Xmas.
I would actually love to go to HK.
Be more open to things and accept life.

Notes to self + Goals this Xmas

2009-11-08T11:56:00.003+08:00

Avoid buying graphic tees. I have too much.
Buy more blouses, and shoes, and as always, hoping for the cardigan Y_Y
Never think to myself that I suck. (@charm_next_door)
Post looks on lookbook.nu starting next year, hopefully I'll have an updated closet
Enjoy every second of 2009 before it's gone

I am blank. Haha.
To be updated

Patience is a virtue

2009-11-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

13 + 48 + 67 days!
New Moon. Xmas. Seventeenth.

I can't wait 'till the Eighteenth!

Moving along, I'm in the present now, regardless of all those future things I am not sure will happen. gah creepy x___x

Anyways, as if I live a good life! I'm practically drowned in my own thoughts, locked in my own world, trying to escape from things I dislike the most. Which is very, very psycho of me. Like I don't know myself or who I am or to what is my extent in life.

I need a psychological analysis on my life.
Or I may be psychotic in afew

Things I've accomplished

2009-11-05T10:27:00.001+08:00

~~Win a contest outside school, I don't care what & how much I will win.~~
~~Visit a Papemelroti store, and admire the quotes, drawings & paper products.~~
~~Get my cousin to buy a Wacom Penable Tablet PC Pen in amazon.com or wacom.com from the US of A and give it to us when he gets back.~~
~~Watch UP in theaters August 26.~~
~~Make friends with new people 'cause time is just short.~~
~~Spend a day with my best friends F4L and shop & have a meal together and talk about the randomness of life :)~~
~~Get tons of Green Tea bags in the grocery and have an infinite supply of tea > I drink tea EVERY DAY. So much for being a health buff xD~~
~~Learn to overcome my shyness in school ('cause I'm only "wild" when I'm with my circle of friends)~~

the bittersweet life

2009-11-05T09:57:00.002+08:00

My mood right now is sort of up and down.
I am so weird ;DD

Prepare for a random entry today.

I would like to procrastinate right now.
15 days until New Moon!
50 days until Xmas!
69 days until I'm seventeen!

One thing I wish for this Xmas would be that I'd celebrate it with joy and happiness (: Despite the presents. I still want my cardigan-minidress-boots outfit though. xD

Oh, right! I am so dead. I pinky swore w/ my siblings that I'd join them in opening the gifts exactly on the evening of the 24th. lawl x)

I feel good listening to Owl City. I guess?

Last night I gorged on some Parmesan pop corn from Chef Tony's :> I hadn't eaten any merienda since I stayed for the choir thingy. Which was weird. Unfortunately I'm on a low cholesterol diet (I need it) but fortunately it IS low in cholesterol and I am learning to eat healthier again! Yay.

Record: haven't eaten chocolates, eggs, and any fried food for...3 days. What the :))

It was hard writing his letter last night. I had nothing decent to write. As in blank.

Speaking of last night, my aunt gave me a notebook she bought from Shanghai. Not the best and most legit quality, but, I like.

I would want to collect notebooks from all over the world :]

And I'm stoked to use the TeNeues planner next year!

I'm excited to turn seventeen!

I don't even feel sixteen now. I feel like...I should be older (I really think a lot. maturely T_T)

I miss summer despite the boredom.

Sometimes I have awful suicidal attempts. Horrible, I know.

Oh! I better check my T I WANT TO DO that I listed down months ago. Will see if I finished some already.

:)

I've never been so random in my life.

because there is time and i am bored

2009-10-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

[unedited. will add photos later.]

The most random ideas pop in my head at this second. Unusually, I am in a point in my life wherein I'd like to quit living and pause for a while.

As if I could do that by all means.

I've had massive mood swings this week x_x

So this week's agenda was really full. Let me highlight some good parts - and bad ones, a lot of bad ones I suppose.

10/25
Philippine Fashion Week

PRO: front seat @ Sassa Jimenez's show. She was awesome, hands down.
CON: I feel inferior and regretful for not wearing fashionable clothing. I felt like a freak x_x

10/26
Outreach @ Malacanang Palace

PRO: saw the palace before I'd leave SJ! took lots of pictures, ate lunch there, bonded w/ friends while repacking rice, felt good helping people through our volunteer work.
CON: since I carried, tied and packed rice as quickly as I could (and I don't know why) my arms were so sore after the morning activity - in the afternoon we had a sleeping session. hah!

10/27
Brother Sun, Sister Moon

PRO: Took lots of pictures! My shobe was sooo cute - Caryll Tiu :) Had the fighting spirit to win the games.
CON: I had to ask people to sign the attendance, including unwanted people T_T It was super hot, super tiring. Super sleepy after lunch.

10/28
Northedsa w/ Nix

SUPER FUN! That's what I could say about it. We walked from SM The Block to Trinoma, then to North Edsa then back again. Imagine that :) Fitting room vanity + foodtrip + notebook shopping = best bonding everrrr!

I bought a TeNeues 2010 planner - Jenny Frean, a great textile & pattern maker. WOOT! Goodbye Starbucks planner. I was supposed to buy Gustav Klimt and Monet but I ended up with the contemporary one :]
Also purchased a Rolling Stone shirt from People Are People.
Saw a lovely cardigan and a petite mini dress from Topshop. I was broke that time so I wasn't able to buy :( And it was quite expensive. Will save up for December/January (Xmas/Birthday)
Found my dream ankle boots! Without the cowboy thing x3 @ Wade, P1000+ hello Xmas Wishlist!
Ate Red Mango woot :))
FUNctional is a great brand for notebooks - the cute ones. Fully Booked - hands down \m/ we stayed there for more than an hour just looking at notebooks. HA HA.
Kimono Ken for dinner. Super loaded but delish.
New Moon hot posters! Love :))
We were there for 6 hours!
LOLNESS 24/7 :]

Best gimmick so far. I had sooo much fun!

10/29
1% LUCKY DAY

PRO: none.
CON: woke up late, found out I had super high cholesterol. The range was 150-200 and I', 198. GREAT. Terrified me, ate lunch super late because of it. Problematic about it. Well, that's life. Full of problems x_x Headed to Jean's and got pissed, went to some more places and still got pissed, and still pissed right now because I wasn't able to do things I wanted to do today that I should've done hours ago.

Oh well. One day you're ecstatic, the next you're all emo.
And I have not updated the Gazette because I feel frustrated updating it.

Right, have I mentioned I got low grades in the PTs this quarter? When the heck would I get honor, I don't know. Whatevs. I worked my effin butt off >_>

Anyways, my agenda for tom:

Go to cemetery with mom ( I want to see dad x( but we're going to visit my great grandparents)
Start a drawing inspired by Owl City ? If I have time.
Derma.
Buy Wii Fit Balance Board.
Hopefully I'd update my Gazette.

Until my next update! Check my tweets they're much more accurate :))

See ya!

in reverse

2009-10-21T14:46:00.002+08:00

Minutes before now I was really pissed off at life.
And I'm hearing "Strangers Like Me" played on TV (Tarzan on Disney) and I get all alive. Haha.

I still don't find the logic between my existence and everyone else's. Okay, very weird thought but I've always thought whether there's more to life than what I live in right now. Of course there is - but I don't feel that I'll get there as well.

*WTH I'm writing nonsense!
Be back later for another decent entry.

T2DO this P.M.

do PS collage (as ordered by panini)
oh, and make paninis! haha!
finish vintage drawing? puhlease.
I want to do a Halloween drawing if it's possible :))
review chinese history.
sleep if possible.
enjoy the rest of the p.m. :D
LISTEN TO NEW MOON! Hah. I'm lazy to get the cd.

LTNU ! [randomness]

2009-10-19T19:05:00.003+08:00

I hate having LTNU portions in my blog and my journal. It just makes me feel less interested to jot down the very details of my existences for those particular days. Call me weird but, I happen to like writing every bit of information about the things that are happening, obviously because they are not coming back the same way again.

So... Long Time No Update! It's Perio Week, I'm currently at the state of post-Filipino mid-English as I'm typing. That means, I'm almost done studying Filipino and midway in English. Cheers to that :) I thought I'd end up studying for forever (well I think I will. haha.)

Physics & BW today was so-so, was it just me or the Physics perio wasn't as hard as the reviewer (which apparently had so much typographical errors)?

Anyways, life is pretty crazy and I'm glad to say that I fulfilled ONE thing in my wishlist!

I got myself a copy of the New Moon OST.

which...I haven't listened to yet. But I was ecstatic 'cause there's a poster inside wee :3

Moreover, other than that there's a new gadget living in the house but is still inside the box = Wii! I know it's like, so late but my bro asked it from my aunt for his birthday & xmas present. And me & my sister get the benefit :> Will go look for a Wii Balance Board soon! ~

Speaking of bro's birthday, it was FUN I suppose. Then again, I'm not in the mood to elaborate on the days that have passed by. It's been a week since! And lotsa things have happened.

Err...Calculus PT? So-so. Studied! Physics? let's hope! Math & History (Chinese) are my concerns right now :(

Another random thought: last Saturday we headed to my cousin Jean's house for dinner + PBB watching w/ Jenina (cousin. haha we kept going up & down the stairs just to watch the nomination night! hello Dear Darla Yellowcab :D) ++ saw some flyers for debut thingy. Haaaaaaaaaaaah. You heard it.

DEBUT?
It's still going to be in 2011 - long way to go.
But I'm still going to list down some Pros & Cons + Plans (like where, what theme etc etc) maybe during Sem Break. I'm ecstatic! I hope :D

Err anyways, what else have I been pondering on? Oh yeah, me wants a POLAROID :( Next year if we go to HongKong.

I feel like having a RTFTW :))

I'm broke in Pet Soc and the Halloween Specials are awesome! Will earn money tomorrow. Aww.
I feel bad spending my P450 on New Moon OST. But I want it. WTH :))
Supermarket shopping @ Landmark Supermarket last Saturday was AWESOME! w/ mom & bro, yay for SoyMilk + Special K ++ Chef Tony + lots of food. Super loaded @ home though x_x
I so want this week to end! Pt Week is terror.
T2DO is also used by Joca. Wahahaha. I'm such an influence >:)
Post-it is so much better than Stick-on (a cheaper version)
Nix & I are still undecided whether to go to Serendra or Eastwood mall for notebook shopping. Suggestions?
Awhile ago an earthquake occurred. Which was...creepy.
And yesterday there was a holdup in GB5. Creepy still.
And next sunday is my DLSU Test.
GREAT. I have not studied for that yet :(
That night I'll be heading to SMX to watch a fashion show for Philippine fashion week. How cool is that? :))
And 2 days after that night is SEM BREAK!
Hello Wii :)
Why do I feel happy about things that are not yet happening?
Why don't we have halloween parties? I want oneeeee. :(

I am so weird. I admit it.
Well, have a good life! Gluck to everyone tomorrow ;)

because your real life is tragic

2009-10-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

Yeah you built up a world of magic.

x

Anyways, as ironic as it seems, I had a good sleep last Wednesday night despite my 2 a.m. insomniatic approach (I did have a 2 hr nap) and for the past night I have slept undertime, meaning 5-6 hours of restless dreaming about TLE and Accounting.

Hah. What the heck. So I survived today TYVM to my aunt :) And a couple of good things happened today, I guess. Free period! And I didn't sleep. What a shocker :))

So much for that, I'm procrastinating and lazy to study Calculus and Li Shr, and I hate being lazy. But it's the wrath of Blogger, Twitter, Facebook and Pet Society that BIs me, really.

I have to change that for goodness' sake x_x

Needless to say, my life is pretty much back in shape from all the chechebureches that have happened. I'm hoping that it stays this way, and no more unexpected phenomena please. My life's too dramatic - and not to mention, I forgot that I haven't been journaling for a week, and have not been touching the TwilightJ (well I just got stuck with it over the 1 week break, so yeah, no Twilight or New Moon ATM, wait till November!) since classes began again.

Saturday tomorrow! TGIF :)

Happy Birthday Clarence! My brother's turning 8 this Sunday and I have not found a gift. Wow. What a greaaaat sister :))

*will now go back to limits of a function*

awake and alive.

2009-10-08T01:34:00.001+08:00

It's 11 minutes after 1 and I am shocked that I am fully alive and not dead.

So much for sleeping a heapful of two hours when I got home. I didn't feel like studying so I felt like taking a rest and closing my eyes to see the world in the dark. What the heck am I saying o_o I'm such a freak.

On the other hand...I am not! I finally got a neat skin courtesy of Blogskins.com with me doing the rather minor edits in the about me sections and all the title stuff. It's quite black and white, and if I have time I might turn the black into brown (hello vintage freak) :)

I have a clean slate so far, nothing too much hard to handle (except Speech PT next week) and tomorrow's a Thursday FTW :) Oh wait, it's already Thursday hahaha.

I've got nothing on my mind to turn emo, and I've been having a blast with my buddies, so I guess it's all good.

First it's T2DO (things to do) now it's time for...

RTFTW (random thoughts for the win):
xD

I just tasted Butterfinger today in my whole sixteen years of existence. And it was good. Thanks Joca! So much for a peace/piece offering :>
Telephone calls suck. I hate answering them 'cause it's not for me.
The Bear Brand logo is white and the mascot is brown (according to Joyce. lolness.) so what's the point?
"I say Sarsarap, you say sarsaya!" still from Joyce :D
I thought of having a Corny Meter. OMG so corny. Hahaha. Idk if me or Joyce would win, we're both sort of fair with that :))
5000 coin count in Pet Society. Yay!
I love chocolate. But I hate chocolate muffins and cupcakes. (maybe I'll still accept cupcakes, but no to muffins x_x)
Since Paris is such a common name, I thought of the name Eiffel, named after the Eiffel Tower. I love the name! So I used it for my pet. tee hee :x
Sometimes I still wonder how I survive every day life. Well today was awesome ftw :))

So much for being so random. It's just destressing to get out some subconscious things in my head that have been staying (in my head) for so long. I like to think a lot and that's why my mind functions weirder than everyone else :D

Err...Oh! I got this announcement yesterday that Semestral Break is cancelled and there will be no classes on November 1 & 2 in reverence to All Saints' Day and All Souls' Day. Hopefully I'll go notebook shopping w/ Nix on the 2nd (: PTs next quarter are cancelled. Shocker :O Double the effort, double pressure, but it's gonna be a lighter feeling 'cause PTs are like total hell weeks in a Judenite's life. Ha ha ha. Anyways, Christmas is getting near too. OMG. This year's going to end in 3 months! :O

I gtg and will make the most out of my life. Lawl. x)

Good morning!

a week's worth.

2009-10-04T22:25:00.002+08:00

Another week is going to end hours from now.
What a crazy week.

Things I did:

Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. Lovely written book. I love it <3>
Read New Moon. More like immersed myself into books :)) I didn't reread the whole thing; only the part when Edward leaves Bella and when he comes back. The whole werewolf thing bores me out x_x
Got first prize in today's dice game. Except I had to split it 'cause we had the same rank (4 4s 8th place) Seriously? I was furious na so I diced super hard. As in last minute - they were going to give the P2000 to the only winner and then I came in the picture. We each had P1,250 (it became 2500 because there was a leftover 250 + additional 250) [: Yay I could use it to complete my wishlist!
Attended an exhibit. My grandmother's uncle's to be exact. He's really good - they said I got my genetics from him, but I don't think so. The paintings were awesome, but not modern. Makes me want to have an exhibit someday (: Maybe on my 18th birthday. Hah! Still on the planning process :x
Hated a lot of people. Not my friends - in fact, random people. Yesterday I was very much in a bad mood (hence the useless, weird entry) but other days, like the days before, I really hated people. One of them would be the immature guy who bumped his push cart on my ankle in S&R and didn't bother to apologize. I eyed him bad >:P Others would be relatives whom I keep seeing everyday, sometimes I get sick of hanging with them too often. I'd rather see them only during events. And err...yeah I hated everybody.
Had a movie marathon. Watched Wild Child (awesome movie! I want to go to Abbey Mount xD), Twilight (vampire love <3) style="font-style: italic;">Moulin Rouge (not done yet though), Sydney White (HBO) and browsed through some Filipino movies. I never have movie marathons. So that was good :>
Helped victims through donation of relief goods. My mom was probably shocked I'd convince her to do such thing but, I do have a good side in me at the least (: That was very fulfilling.
Ate a lot. From restaurants and going out (Shakey's, Pepper Lunch :]) to staying in with A LOT of items from the grocery (Pretzel Crisps, Soda Pops, Muffins :3)
Studied 5% of the whole break. Hah. Chinese and a little Physics but it didn't help, really.
Made a random blueprint of my room. Which I have not finished (:
Leveled up in Pet Society. Can't wait for next week's special! :)

Anyways, my mom's practically letting me leave the laptop so she could print my bro's "label" for his Up giveaway x_x I haven't even bought him a gift yet! October 11. I have...a week x3

Till nextime.
And I mean in a long time - Tuesday is the beginning of beating up for me x3

xo.

Everything ends.

2009-10-03T13:52:00.002+08:00

I happen to like that line from Death Cab for Cutie's Meet Me on the Equinox, which, apparently, is in the New Moon OST (that I am sure to buy when it comes out).

Well, yeah, everything does end. It's a known fact to everybody. So uh, does my happiness end as well?

I woke today with a unusual morning, and a few hours later I'm sitting here wondering what to do. Oh, right, I have this Economics poster I have to do, and I'm having a problem because there are not enough pictures and I'm supposed to do a sportswear advertisement.

Fabulous.

x

Nothing can satisfy me today. Not that I need any sort of satisfaction, I don't feel like doing anything practically interesting today. Nonetheless, I'd rather not watch the rest of my days unfold. The past few days have been unplanned, it was whether I go out, stay home, do something to provoke my inner creativity, or study. Sadly I didn't do quite a lot but read books, having movie marathons and getting a life out of myself. In fact, I have not been communicating with any of my friends, which is kinda weird. But really, I don't feel like talking to them. Sometimes I don't even know if I exist in their life, or it's just me.

There's nothing more interesting to blog about.
I'm off to cure my own sickness.

I'm so not looking forward to Monday.
xo

WAH.

2009-10-01T16:02:00.001+08:00

Guess what. I stayed home ^_^

And I spent the whole afternoon watching half of Moulin Rouge and the whole of Twilight.
So much for movie marathon - I rarely have that.

Err..I am blank.

dear dear dear dear diary . . . xo

2009-10-01T10:05:00.003+08:00

[Twilight journal: page one (the ONLY public page)]

[the side thingy. haha.]

[Gazette: Do you remember the time?]

[Gazette : LSS ]

Just the randomness of my life. I decided to take a picture. Sorry for the poor quality x)
I'll take snaps of my notebook collection in a few (:
xo.

Freedom

2009-10-01T09:56:00.002+08:00

I woke up a whopping 7:00 a.m. today because I'm supposed to go swimming with my cousins. But unfortunately, my mind was stirred to doing other things. And besides, it's a rare occasion for me to swim. I'm afraid of water, has been, always been. So I declined at the last minute.

It's still unlikely or rather new to me how weird I get when I need to decide. A simple scenario like, "Should I go out today? Or stay home?" bothers me to death. Maybe because I don't like wasting a day with things I don't like to have. For say, today my mom's asking me to accompany them, have lunch @ Century Seafood, then head to my grandparents' house for the rest of the afternoon - typical Thursday setting.

I don't know if I should go.
No one's home. Only me & the maid.

Err...

I don't know!
I wouldn't suggest going out 'cause I'll eat more :x and for this week I've eaten loads of stuff. [i hate breaks.] Then again, I don't feel like talking to anyone today, I feel like I want to close myself today, which is kinda weird. Okay, fine, I got all emo last night 'cause I was reading New Moon (again, it's already a year old!) and I shut the book, grabbed the TJ and wrote a page's worth of words in. And listened to my "Downpouring" playlist. Hah. So much for emotional outburst - sometimes you can't just be happy all the time.

Of course I feel free today - I can do anything I want, but I don't know if my creative energy would cooperate with me. It's not like I can just draw in an instant even if I want to.

So should I go out?

I don't know. Haha. Let's see where things take me.

xo

2009-09-30T17:14:00.002+08:00

I have four days to make the most out of myself.
And as I watch the hours flow by so quickly, I wonder what condition other people are in.

But as for me, I'm hoping I get a lot out of this break.

Make a blueprint of my "future" room
Look up articles concerning wall painting and preparation for painting
Read a book (I was thinking of rereading New Moon)
Revamp my blog. I am sick of it.

I'm off to...I don't know. Refrain myself from using too much internet.
xo.

Survival of the Craziest

2009-09-28T19:48:00.003+08:00

[what I did this morning w/ mom :)]

Things I did today:

A.M.

7:oo a.m. - I am greeted with a sunny hot day, with the sound of DZMM Teleradyo (you know my mom she loves watching that) and a sleepy feeling x_x
9:00 a.m. - ready to go out and buy stuff
10-11 a.m. - went to Nestle Staff Shop and bought boxes of mineral water, milk, cereal packs as relief goods for the victims of the typhoon.
11: 30+ a.m. - went to Sct. Bayoran cor. Tomas Morato to donate the stuff. It felt weird - a lot of people were looking at me ("chinese" daw kasi) but anyways, I felt happy donating. I suggested mom to 'cause we have no problem here at home.
Went home around 12+ in time for lunch.

P.M.

1:00 p.m. - went online to play Pet Society and got high with the awesome new stuff in Furniture, DIY, Gadgets, Luxury, Food and Clothes! lawl.
2:00 p.m. - went to cousin's house, went to GH w/ mom & aunt lookalike
2:30 p.m. - arrived @ GH, walked a lot
3:00++ - went to National Bookstore and got crazy over scrapbooking materials. I bought a lot of scrapbook paper and candy mag (JB on the cover!) + drawing & writing stuff. Used my Laking National. P30.oo epurse yay :>
4:30++ - had merienda @ Shakey's, lovin' the Mojos!
5:00++ - went to hardware stores, UniMart (Panic buying! well we weren't. But a lot of people were there lining the counters. Nakalusot kami :> Guess who I saw? Say Alonzo (PBB Season 1) and RR Enriquez (Wowowee host) and then went home.

What a day!
So right now I'm spending the last hours of my freedom, because tomorrow I am flooded with homeworks. I mean it :c

T.I.WILL.DO.TOM:

wake up :]
study hua wen + memo last wen ta
study physics + practice solving
print BW notes
read religion notes for test + answer guide questions
book report - marginal notes
tweet, facebook, tumblr (duh)
and hopefully balance everything tomorrow.

xo, let's pray for everyone's wellness and safety as another day ends.

Hello Homework.

2009-09-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

Assignment so far:

华文 Ling Tse (GE)
Physics quiz on Energy, Power, Work
Business Writing 6 Writing Activities
By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept Book Report - Marginal Notes
Calculus GE on Limits of a Function
Math Test (?)
Economics advertisement poster
TLE test on Accounting, Journal, Ledger

And many more. Although not all are due Friday; I have effin no idea when will regular classes will resume will all this tragic outburst of natural calamity.

Oh, what's more, my aunt's here at home lamenting and criticizing my every act. Oh, not only me, everyone. All she says is, "I've had enough calories", or "She looks fat" or "She is so thin! I'm jealous!" and tells me, "Don't drink too much tea" when she drinks more than me or "You know, these earrings are so in right now" as if I care about fashion, or even "You know the latest workout? I need to lose weight I'm so fat!"

Well guess what, last year I was kind of weight conscious 'cause alot of people kept talking about those. Thank goodness right now I just care about not gaining weight and eating healthy. I would not like to eat less and suffer the consequences - my stomach's kind of sensitive and I'd die if I didn't eat food (literally). Anyways, I'll move the topic now - I just hate people like that.

What's with physical features anyway?

Oh BTW I think I can have a part time job of being a critic ^^ I've criticized half of the time I've been watching our batch play. Sorry, judging is something I like to do considering my imperfections.

GAH! Enough about me and my inferiority. I'm off to...tweet, tumblr, facebook and will help spread the word. That's the best I can do for now.

Ciao~ xo.

Tragic.

2009-09-27T22:04:00.003+08:00

[SJCS yesterday morning]

[Last night I think. My picture is there pa. Hah. (bottom right)]

[St. Jude Archdiocesan Shrine. Grabe talaga!]

I didn't expect this typhoon to kill so many lives and ruin so much infrastructures.
Even our school got affected. Okay, typically, our school does get flooded during rainy days but the flood this time was higher than usual. And I'm sure the Grade 1 classrooms are drenched in water - my mom's kinda scared that my bro's books will be affected.

These days, the only thing possible is to hope for the best in the Philippines.

Visit my TUMBLR for more photos.

Even American celebs are supporting like Demi Lovato, John Mayer & Demi Moore (from Twitter). Thanks Twitter. I'm so updated because of you (:

Anyways, classes are suspended until Tuesday, and I don't know if I'm still supposed to continue the photo shoot we are to have at my classmate's house for Economics (I hope they move the submission date!) My mom's planning to go to the Sagip Kapamilya Drop Off tomorrow, I hope she does pursue it - I wanna go.

I don't feel like sitting at home, journaling, using the net, watching tv and enjoying the good life. I feel really lucky that I didn't get flooded, didn't get any electricity cut-off, didn't get any food or water shortage or internet cut-off, thanks to my dad for choosing this area as our home. TYVM, IMY. Anyhow, I feel bad 'cause a lot of people are in a super horrible condition - ack I wanna go out and donate some stuff :c

Err...I didn't even study :[ Is that bad? I'm so not in the mood to get my books or stuff. I've been watching tv all day to catch the latest news. So yeah that's what I've been doing since yesterday.

Let's hope tomorrow more lives will be saved. What a tragedy.

I can remember last time when I was in First Year and typhoon Milenyo hit the Philippines. Although it wasn't that strong, we got a one week suspension of classes and the Teachers' Day celeb was moved to October 2. Don't ask why I remembered - it was during those times that something devastating happened to me.

On a lighter (okay, a heavier) note, I'm halfway through By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept and the storyline is so awesome, I feel compelled to read it, and I feel sorry for Pilar because her friend can't decide between his calling and his love for Pilar. Anyways, I am to unfold the story bit by bit, hopefully I'll finish tomorrow.

Good night. Let's pray for a brighter day tomorrow :( I mean it.

xo.

Rainpower

2009-09-26T12:09:00.002+08:00

What the hell is that word? Hah!

Good morning world, and I am greeted with a grayish sky @ 6:35 in the a.m.

I'm lucky today. I slept @ 1 a.m. last night doing Aeneas' map and crossing my fingers that this day would have no school - besides, I'm not quite interested with the Batch Party and all that shinanigans by all means. And I remember telling Nix, "In any minute, they're gonna announce...CLASSES A R E S U S P E N D E D " and well, so much for predicting the future x)

I'm supposed to go notebook shopping w/ Nix today, to worsen my NAD (notebook addiction disorder) but she had to go to the dentist. And I'm supposed to go out with my mom instead and buy stuff for the mooncake dice game on October 4th but the rain doesn't want to. So, I guess I'm stuck here at home and I think any minute now, the internet connection will go out.

But guess what, I'm pretty stoked today (hopefully it'll last) 'cause I feel like editing my whole blog layout and my "about me" section and all the ahdkjsuahdj that come with it. And maybe later I'll have the energy to update my Gazette which is actually so fat it needs to go on a diet x3

So that's the power of the rain - stirs up my creative juices.

I'm hoping for a productive day today!

T2DO:

Revamp blog layout.
"By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" - finish reading
Update Gazette
If I feel like it, write on TJ (Twilight Journal)
Xiao Khai
Study Chinese

Well, yeah, that's it.

Rain, err...please leave. You're too extreme xD

xo.

Like we used to.

2009-09-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

I am a blank book today - meaning I have nothing quite interesting to jot about, or tackle about by all means.

So things are pretty off-track for me, I'm not quite myself, there's nothing interesting that enables me to keep moving forward with life. That's what bothers me - someday I'll get sick of everything and I'll lose the appetite to enjoy the varieties of flavor life has to offer. Anyhow, there's just really something wrong with the way I think. Typical - I do think I have a mental disorder x)

Some good things that happened today would be getting the grad pic samples (which were so tiny) and I took 9 shots overall, and I only found 2 decent ones. Wow O_O I'm happy with it I guess. Then the class pics also came, which everyone drooled over. Hahaha. And Sir Rillo was asking volunteers for the Chimes, I'm so on! I've always wanted to do our yearbook (subconsciously. haha.) and be proud of it, I hope :>

Err. Yeah that was the only thing that made me smile today, other than watching the TDR of Moulin Rouge. Haha.

Let's hope for a better day, shall we?

xo.

It's not perfection yet.

2009-09-24T18:44:00.004+08:00

I don't know if it's nature, or just me, that has this tendency to be picky with notebooks. I mean, yeah, everybody does like picking the best quality & design for their notebooks. But how unlikely is it that I decide what to use for my Gazette does not depend on the design nor the quality. Something about the personality of the notebook itself queries me - and I don't know why.

I've torn pages from two or three notebooks that I once considered my every day journals and I don't exactly know where the pages are anymore xD Anyways, whatever those were may not seem so important to me. Haha.

So...yesterday we had our last Fieldtrip in Saint Jude. Aw. That's sad :( I guess I could say it was pretty fun, even if trekking made me sweat like crazy and made my pants drench in mud, and even if the canopy ride creeped me out at first. Haha :) We arrived home around 10, and my legs were aching like hell O_O It was fun going back home with all the darkness + Mr. Rillo's comments about us (I was touched. Ha!) + Mega LOLness with Nix at the bus (don't ask why. we're just plain insane xD) Overall, I had a lot of fun. AH! And another thing. I was at the CR cubicle with Nix and we heard some nasty stuff. Oooh gossip :x Nuff said.

Today is pretty boring, I started fulfilling my T2DO (I finally bought my own Post-It! it's Best Buy because I'm so thrifty ahaha) and now I'm blogging. And I removed my blog template because I hate it. So I'll be revamping this instead. Errr...lunch out, melted fro yo (weird), walked around the supermarket and looking at products, went home. Studied. That's what I did today.

And it's really weird today 'cause I have this feeling of me dreaming - like since awhile ago my head was flooded with my own desires in life - materialistically, perhaps. I do wonder sometimes if I get these things that I'd still feel like this.

Oh, I've read 50 pages of "By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" by Paolo Coelho for our book report. I like Pilar, the main character. I see a part of myself in her. And the storyline is pretty good even if I love chick lit haha :>

Current stuff I so want to have as in right now but have to wait for Xmas (for some of them only, the others I have no idea when to get):

A frikin bookshelf that can display all my books (which are currently at the lamp table here at the master's bedroom and it's all hidden)
A new notebook for my 2nd edition of Gazette 'cause it's hard for me to find the 'perfect' one for it
A polaroid and all the fun that comes with it
A lamp beside my bed I have never used
A couple buckets of paint for repainting my room and the door (which I vandalized)

Actually that's just it. :)

But this today is creeping me out - I'm not quite myself and I feel full of pride today, like I want to pay attention to my own thoughts only. I don't even feel like talking today as in verbally.

Maybe it's because I've had too much stress?

[Seriously, I've had too much stress.]

So...what to do now? Oh, will watch vlogs. I'll see if I can cheer myself up with that.

++++

Things I want to remove out of my system right now:

My desire to go have a good life in another country, work a job I enjoy in, living a city life and working my way up to the ladder of success
My hopes of getting into college as in right now (and ironically, my mindset is not in Ateneo already, but La Salle)
My sense of inferiority that I feel everytime I see my test papers and results
My laziness to update my journal and awaken my creativity
My laziness to memorize Chinese
My dead outlook on life the day after today.

I am really the weirdest person you'll ever meet. For years I'm trying to decipher my own personality, so don't wonder.

xo.

PS

Goodbye FILSCRAPRESSURE.

Let's hope my hard work pays off.

Here it goes :)

2009-09-20T16:03:00.003+08:00

It's amazing how I get hyped up with the song "Here It Goes" by Jimmy Eat World that I feel compelled to come up with a very detailed entry today.

I really have this feeling today will be crucial for me; I've just taken the ACET a few hours ago, dreaded over the word problems, vocabulary very alien-like to my dictionary, and the random people I encounter at the testing area.

Wait....I think it was not that hard, eh? Only some math parts which I didn't study about, but I expected more difficulty! But thank goodness it wasn't super hard. I didn't study, so let's hope I pass, even if I don't plan to enter Ateneo anymore. Oh, speaking of which, saw my friends from ArtsWork awhile ago :)

Anyways, senior life is getting crazier by the minute. If I were that weak I'd break down of the burdens I've been having right now - I have to do A LOT, considering the position I am given - leader for the Filipino scrapbook. So yeah, life's pretty crazy. I'm going to study Chinese History right after this blogging of mine.

BTW I already bought the Twilight Journals! *Squeal* My mom bought it and it costs me 2 weeks allowance! The box is awesome and I can't wait to write some decent stuff there - kind of like a reflective journal, and I'll probably paste photos of Twilight & stuff... and write about my love story that never became a love story?! *rofl* Haha. Guess what. I've been having nightmares of that ghost again. It's awful! At least when I wake up I don't get the sad, depressed emotion I usually get after dreaming of him (again and again - 2 days straight now) I don't know if it's subconscious but the scenarios of the dreams I've had are pretty typical - mostly in school. Hahaha. I haven't even written them down yet! Will do so when...I have time.

Time is so not on my side right now. So I gtg.
Will update sooonnnnnnnnnn!

T2DO SCHED:
09/20

4-5:30 - study Chinese History, brush up on my least known topics.
and! create design for pop-up page x(
5:30-6:30 - take a bath, get dressed for tonight's wedding reception I'll be attending w/ mom
6:30-night - maybe I'll bring Gazette and update :x or a small copy of Chinese History. trust me, I will do nothing at the reception but eat again x) (but i want to go out, what an excuse!)

09/21

8:30-9:30 - time interval of me waking up + having breakfast + taking a bath
9:30-10:30 - Chinese (test myself mode)
10:30 - 12:00 - start w/ scrapbook I guess, + wait for Jorn to bring the scrapbook materials over
12:00 - 1:00 - idk, have lunch, wait for Elkein & Charm to show up
When they come, we'll be doing it until the end of the day

Yes, I'm fully booked.
Great.
I'm so in demand >:)
LAWL.
xo.

How could you be so heartless?

2009-09-13T12:15:00.002+08:00

I'm no fan of rnb music so I preferred how The Fray played this song. And the video was so cool :> Anyhow, I'm not here to rant about who did it better - really love that statement from the song "Heartless". Been writing that statement over & over at my journal since summer. lawl.

This week was pretty weird, obviously because things have been twisted and turned. And I'm glad it's the weekend :) Except, I'm not sure if I'm 100% knowledgeable about our test in Math & Calculus tomorrow. Either way, today's a all-out day for me - going to See Fam Reunion later means I'll satisfy my craving of ice cream :) Yay :)

Fast Rewind:

Sept. 8 - i forgot or if i remember, nothing good happened today.
Sept. 9 - deliciously sucky dinner @ Century. delicious food, hated the company.
Sept. 10 - grad pic day! damn why did they put up my hair? *crosses the fingers*
Sept. 11 - card day. aw. 3 points and i didn't make Calculus cross the finish line. oh well, my scores were mostly 80+ but I was happy I got good scores from subjects I was scared about.
Sept. 12 - Half day happiness. Hyperness during Li Shr :) Hooray for 97! Never been happier since the beginning of 4th year about my grades. And a 90 in Math doesn't sound so bad :) YAY :) Headed to grandparents' house for lunch + siesta time + school supplies buying @ Natio = a.m to p.m.

Oh by the way it was sooooo awesome. I saw a tin box and it was labeled "The Twilight Journals" and it costs P900+ I think, but if you're a Laking National cardholder it will be 20% off, around P700+ I think. Hello, I'm a Laking National cardholder. WAH X_X

An article from Entertainment Weekly website:

'Twilight' publisher releasing new titles tied to the franchise

by EW staff

Categories: Books

Stephenie Meyer might have already released her Twilight finale, but thatdoesn’t mean fans of the franchise will have to let go of the series just yet.Little, Brown will be publishing several books this fall that are tied in withthe franchise. Along with movie tie-in literature for this year’s NewMoon adaptation, the publisher will also release a limited special editionof Breaking Dawn, as well as journals that feature cover art for all fourbooks.

According to a press release from the publisher, the BreakingDawn Special Edition, on stands Aug. 4, will include a DVD of theBreaking Dawn concert series and interviews with Meyer. Those who pick upthe hardcover book can also expect a poster and reproduction of handwrittenlyrics for “My Never,” by Blue October’s Justin Furstenfeld. The TwilightJournals(pictured), out Oct. 13, are packaged in a tin and include “decorative quotes”from each book. For those hoping to buy books tied into New Moon, Little,Brown will release New Moon: The Complete Illustrated Movie Companion onOct. 6 and New Moon trade and mass-market paperback tie-ins in Septemberand November, respectively. They will also publish a New Moon Collector’sEdition on Oct. 6.

xx----------------

If only I brought my money I would've bought it. Me being a fan of Twilight AND a journal/notebook collector w/ NAD (Notebook Addiction Disorder) I'm probably gonna buy when I go to Natio again. Yay can't wait :)

Also went to Jean's house yesterday night - it's becoming a sorta tradition for 2 weeks now. Viewed her newly purchased "Miles To Go" - Miley's autobiography and I read a couple of pages and the photos. Awesome :) Will borrow hers. I'm not so much of a Miley fan so I'll probably borrow it from her. Had some sour gummy worms sprinkled with sugar *squeal!* and got caught in the act by Jean for grabbing a couple more before heading to dinner x) Danced @ Wii's Ravin Rabbids. It was tiring x___x but fun. Hah! Super tired when I got home - good night @ 12 a.m.

Hello today. err...it's around 1:30 -ish in the afternoon now and I'm supposed to be doing last minute reviews of math, calc & chinese but I'm not.

T2DO as of 1:53 pm:

Review Calc
Find a good presentable new outfit for Reunion (people tend to dress good for this.)
Review Math
Bring Hua Wen Pi Tsi (my BFF! hahaha.)
Print Filipino draft (which I accidentally already pasted on the scrapbook)
If in the mood, update my journal
And dream about the reality of maybe getting the Twilight Journals x) I really have NAD. Gosh.
CHARGE IPOD :( I forgotttttt.

xo. I gtg.

r e m i n i s c e n c e : )

2009-09-07T00:03:00.002+08:00

If there's one NOTE2SELF that I will never forget to do, it would be to bring a CAMERA everytime I will attend a concert. Who knows what would happen, right?

Well today was not what I expected to turn out, since my day was pretty boring. Haha :) Err...I woke up late, had noodles for breakfast, a not-so-much-like-a-lunch lunch, headed to my aunt's for Accounting tutorials, headed to Natio for paper shopping, and went to school around 3+ to check out the Sunday version of Fair 100 and I was disappointed. There were no more booths upstairs and the merch in the 2nd floor Podium and the Caterpillar ride was about to close. So I had a photo shoot w/ my mates here at home at the photo booth, made sticker labels of my lovely name with Claudine (since Abigail Sy is a common name), then met up w/ Tin, rode Caterpillar last ride! bought cute stuff from the remaining 80 chits I had, had dinner (wait, that wasn't dinner) @ McDo before heading to the concert.

You know what, I really didn't want to go to the concert thinking it was a waste of time and I didn't really like Spongecola. HA. I WAS WRONG.

I think I forgot the fact that my grade six & freshmen years consisted of OPM music in my playlist and one of the bands other than Callalily, Hale & Cueshe was Spongecola and I really loved their songs ever since they came out w/ KLSP (which I'm listening to now xD) then Gemini then Una then Bitiw and also Jeepney! Top 5 lol. I don't like Filipino lyrics but these songs really made me feel so much Pinoy and I feel like who I was 4 years ago :) Problem-free, and very carefree.

Anyways the bands before them who played were pretty good, but they kind of stole the show which is what they were supposed to do haha :) Err...I didn't know what they sang at first 'cause I'm kinda not updated w/ local songs nowadays - I'm all with the foreign! Then I think, oh yeah they sang "Tuliro" and "Puso" which rocks! Then when they performed "Gemini" okay I started shouting HAHAHA. I really love that song and it's years since I listened to that but I still remember the lyrics! x) [The vacuous night steps aside to give meaning to Gemini's dreaming, the moon on its back and the seemingly veiled room's lit by the same star. ] I forgot what else they played...oh, right! Nakapagtataka by APO which they remade, and Closer You & I was awesome. Then they were like, "This will be our last song" and I so crossed my fingers it would be "Bitiw" which became my all time fave song ever since!

AND IT WAS. and you don't know how crazy I get in concerts - my last crazy concert was FOB last 2007, and this is my second crazy concert :))

Too bad we didn't have a cam, we 3 (tin, nix & i) rushed to the front where Yael (lead singer) was singing and I was singing na rin! I was shouting and jumping - kulang nalang I'd kill myself and wonder why the hell I was so wild x)) It was crazy there - a lot of people were crowded w/ us and we were all pushing to get to the super super front but we were able to go really forward - thank goodness the people weren't so pushy! WAH and then I wasn't able to get ahold of Yael's hand while he was singing Bitiw but I love that song. lol [Ating tinig, ating himig, abot langit heto na tayo! Heto na tayo!] then we shouted as in and YAY they agreed to play another song.

[BEWARE: If you continue reading you will see that my hidden wilderness will eventually come out - let's just say that when it comes to music, I get crazier than usual.]

OKAY I had to scream out loud when they played "Jeepney" for an encore. I remembered listening to that when I was in Grade 6. Imagine! 4 years have gone since then. But it was awesome! Oh, and I got to touch Yael's hand! xD And! I was in front of him while he was singing and he was smiling (at me) HAHA I am so insane. I probably looked like a nerd w/ those glasses. Hah! I really love that song (Bitiw) and probably got very starstruck (hence, my blogging at this time is very ... not me). Reminded me of "Touch My Hand" by David A lol. Trust me, I didn't feel so much alive ever since...you know, the complications of life came about.

LOLness in the car (sbay-ed w/ Nix) and we kept laughing at the car. haha. :))

That was definitely an awesome concert - I MEAN IT! I'm so glad I went! Thanks Spongecola for making me feel alive. Hahaha :)) This is much wilder than FOB before xD

Sadly I didn't have a camera. So I feel very sad about it :( But then I will (or was supposed to tonight) update my Gazette (journal) ASAP about it but since it's so late and I haven't studied I still have to wake up early tomorrow.

Since I couldn't upload a pic of Spongecola up close (AW) I will try uploading my entry in my Gazette about the concert - lucky! My journal's private now :>

BTW I ate Tempura w/ rice when I got home. HAHA. Hungry much? Energy-less perhaps. Haha it was good ;) Take out from where my family ate (w/o me. awness. ohwell. i had fun getting crazy!)

BTW2 I will list down a pre-Xmas + Bday wishlist since it's already the beginning of BER months :)

XMBDAY.WLIST.

R O O M M A K E O V E R - - new bookshelf, new table, new coat of paint :)
C E L L P H O N E - - w/ Wi Fi access and nice camera :) 3.2 MP or up :)
N E W J O U R N A L - - this will never go out of my list :)
H O N O R S - - kahit sa class lang masaya na ako :)
W I I F I T - - so I could drop some pounds. haha :)
A G O O D & H E A L T H Y L I F E - - I don't like being absent. lawl.

T2DO TOMORROW:
In order :D

Wake up. Rise & SHINE :)
Update Gazette & study Hua Wen
Transfer Spongecola songs to iPod (HA!) to remember tonight's awesomeness & my baliw-ness :>
Open PC, load new ink, print Tin's reco letters, print some pics :)
Calculus GE review
MATH Test review (Fri)
Study a bit of Physics so I won't get lost
Derma

So far that's all. Okay. I'm very happy to know that it's not a lot. Will do the first four in the morning and the rest in the p.m. :)

I've never been this happy since...I forgot.

FAIR 100 is AWESOME. It's stamped on my head. From F4L to the painstaking duty to face paint kids to the people to the stuff to the vanity to the awesome Spongecola concert, everything was great :) What a way to spend a 5 day break :) Life is good :) I'm crossing my fingers that my optimism will continue on until....idk :>

Let's hope time will make friends with me tomorrow.
Imma go view F4L MOA pics last Sept.4 & yesterday's pics from the Fair 100. :>

xo. good day!

P.S. View my twitter updates in this blog and see that I'm really crazy for Spongecola x)

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Current playlist as of Sept. 7, 2009 1:48 AM

IN RANDOM ORDER :))

Here It Goes - Jimmy Eat World
Bloodshot - Jack's Mannequin
The Good Life - Hannah Montana
Puso - Spongecola
Bitiw - Spongecola
Jump - Flo Ri Da feat. Nelly Furtado
Gemini- Spongecola
Jeepney - Spongecola
Movie - Spongecola
Reach - Caleigh Peters
Ignorance - Paramore
Decode - Paramore
Forever & Always - Taylor Swift
Hey Stephen - Taylor Swift
Before The Worst - The Script
Bad Habits - My Favorite Highway
Bittersweet Life - My Favorite Highway
Goodbye Apathy - OneRepublic
You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
Battlefield - Jordin Sparks

OKAI.

BTW3 Why the title Reminiscence? Well obviously it was due to the concert which made me reminisce the old times and wished I had them back :) When everything was so simple and very laid back. Oh speaking of laid back past shennanigans me, tin & nix had a circa 1980s photoshoot w/ Nix's camphone :) Sepia and good friends rock \m/

BTW4 It's obvious I have a lot to write today considering the thousands of words in this entry. So I congratulate you if you have read the entirety of this entry. Do tell me and I will mention you in my next entry :)

xo once again. I need sleep! (:

Fast Lane.

2009-09-06T12:14:00.004+08:00

I'm shocked and really curious how do I get through days and accomplishing stuff when I always feel that time is never at the essence and it won't keep up with my slow pace. Really, it's so weird! Tomorrow's Monday, and the next day after that, school waves a big hello saying, "Fun's over!" and I haven't even bothered to touch my Calculus & Math notebook and have not accomplished anything related to studying. I should really change my awful studying habits x(

Speaking of school and its toll on me, it's sad to know that the Card Distribution will be on Friday and I'm not shocked if all my grades are 80+ because, well, I don't know. Maybe I haven't immersed myself much this Senior Year, or maybe I don't get to combine my brain with the difficult subjects we are taking up this year. Whatever the reason, I sure hope this 2nd Qtr. I get my worth back. lol x)

Yesterday was our FAIR 100. And when I entered, I can say it looked so weird. So... i don't know! But it was weird. We just walked around the ground floor, 2nd floor podium, 5th floor and over and over again. At least we sold lots of stationeries while walking x) Oh, right, I went to jail >:) So much for wearing bermuda shorts - it was HOT! Well the benefits of being an ex-convict was getting my picture taken w/ the 40 SJ dollars bail. Haha. Then the afternoon came on so slowly but I had to sacrifice all my energy to face paint...wait, I forgot I think I painted 30+ faces for three hours! I was literally energy-less after that. But it was quite fulfilling :) Anyways, we rode the Caterpillar afterwards. FUN :> Then walked around to buy stuff. I bought an SJ lanyard, a button pin w/c says [BEWARE, I'm MOODY - so true] and a celfone charm w/ a star biscuit shape. CUTE :> Then before we left I had corn :D and Nix treated me & Joyce to another caterpillar ride and well, all of us rode in one and duh, it was masikip xD BB daw. HAHA joyce :)) We played @ the Preschool playground afterwards. I'm pretty glad my wide hips fit the slide, 'cause the one we have here at home doesn't. :P

[meet the convicts.]

[the vain threesome riding the caterpillar]

[the owner of this blog reliving childhood memories.]

Overall I had fun but I WAS TIRED! We had dinner @ my cousin's house afterwards which had delicious takeouts from Century :) And played Wii Fit's Super Hula Hoop! Haha I miss hula hooping but I love it better w/ Wii Fit :> Err...I did some journal writing but I'm not even done yet :( And copied some Chinese notes.

Speaking of Wii Fit which is part of my wishlist my mom told us we'd get a room makeover as an Xmas gift so I hope she does that. I'd get that better than the Wii Fit xD And Boots? Ha ha ha.

Randomness~

Saw these boots in Terranova. LOVE! :)

[the vain threesome :>]

Want to see Tin's reco letter?
Here is one.
I made 24 designs :)

Lucky if I let you write for Tin :) lolness.
I gtg. Will shower and get ready to go to the fair. again.

xo.

LTNU!

2009-09-04T20:22:00.003+08:00

LTNU (long time no update) in both Blogger & Gazette (my private journal) waaaaah!
Alot of thingamajigs has occurred this week that can sum up the craziness of my entire life. I just got home from a long ride w/ friends + ice skating + shopping (yay i bought something. YAY) and all those randomness.

Fast Rewind :

08.31 - headed home from Tagaytay and was super tired!
09.01 Happy September! Hell day for me.
09.02 ABSENT! My head was literally spinning in circles - lack of sleep, lack of food. Half day - went to school in the p.m. and feels much better.
09.03 went to school, bonded w/ nix & joyce, had lunch at home, went to buy statios (fair) and grandparents' house. Gossip time w. jean :)
09.04 TODAY :) Went to MOA w/ F4L - ice skating, shopping fun :) Just got home a few minutes ago. Very traffic lol.

Okai tomorrow's our school fair and will update you on that. Quite busy now...pet soc :))

xo.

thankful

2009-08-30T00:23:00.002+08:00

I'm so glad I'm still alive today (: Good morning! It's 27 minutes past 12:00 as I'm typing this, and apparently this day wasn't very productive as such. Homeworks have been piled up, project deadlines have been moved, disruption of classes will be prominent next week.

Yay?

So the Filipino thingy got moved to September 19th, and I didn't realize it was still three weeks away! I can calm myself which is good. Other assignments will officially kill me. Today I have finished redesigning the Scratch Club Shirt & writing Calligraphy. (I didn't study Chinese History! *scream*!) Very few accomplishments.

And tomorrow we're heading to Tagaytay Woodlands and I have just memo-ed 4 out of 9 Q & As aka Wen Ta :( So I ought to do my best. So I can maximize my stay in Tagaytay - but I am taking this with me; I need to do an essay.

Aw let's just do some T2DO. Life is better with it :)

T2DO:

Answer Calc. OMG I couldn't help not sleeping awhile ago. Everyone was very tired today. *school life woes*
Study everything about Chi History. Test on Tuesday. The horror.
Do a 200-word essay about anything. Aw this is hard - anything is a wide subject. :(
Edit some write-ups.

Hmm. Not much - I've cancelled the ones that were still due on Wednesday :) Too lift up my spirits. I'm such a busy gal but my emotional aspects are quite stable these days. Which is undoubtfully good :> No more nostalgic depression.

BTW I found a pretty decent layout for my blog. When time comes and I have a good idea I'll make my own. Watch me! (: Errr...Under construction.

Some new things I experienced today:

Our Chinese teacher reprimanding us. Wow that was a first. I remember yesterday my teacher embarrassed me - it was horrible. TYVM to you. I even cried.
Took a pic w/ Charm w/ her Baby Holga. Cute :3
Exercising the weirdest exercises during PE.
Nearly sleeping during Calculus. Sorry, I'll try not to!
Eating dirty ice cream in the CR. hahaha! x)
Buying an ice cream in cup rather than cone (MINI STOP haha)
Wrote Calligraphy very early. And Pet Soc-ed when I say I wouldn't x)

Oh well, I'm tempted to go Pet Soc for a few minutes and doze off. 8 hours = 9am?

Good night/day/midnight! :)

xo.

preoccupied.

2009-08-27T21:18:00.003+08:00

I've posted a Dear Dumb Diary entry on Tumblr, check it out: CLICK:)

Oh btw if you feel like procrastinating and hating the world right now, listen to Paramore's Ignorance. SHUCKS I am so hookedddddddddddddddddddddd :3

Moving on, I'm supposed to write a T2DO list that will be lasting for 3-5 days until Monday, Aug 31 but I thought I'd write about my notebook addiction - oh wait, I'll reserve that for the next entry.

I don't take it as a problem though, I'm quite kuripot when I buy things, so I don't buy a lot at the same time. I have to decide LONGGG :D

T2DO:

get a good layout from blogskins ('cause I'm sick of mine. ha ha ha.)
study Chinese History tomorrow until Monday
take a picture of my notebook collection and classify it (it's a lot. i'm excited to post about it! :>)
do the headings for the four parts of the Filipino scrapbook
edit write ups
assemble everything and bring them to Tagaytay
pack for Tagaytay (Sunday)
browse my closet for cool outfits I've never tried
ask people for more playlist suggestions
finish updating my "all about me" portion of Gazette
finish updating Gazette before I head to Tagaytay
ask allowance from mom (I spent a lot on scrapbooking stuff today.)
get good night's rest every night to avoid drowsiness and spots on teh face.
be all ears during class hours. except if i get the lesson :)
plan for Sept. 4 - gimmick w/ F4L
plan outfits for Fair - 2 outfits for 2 days
take lots of pics in Tagaytay! and Fair!
look forward to next week and hope it will not suck and i will have an awesome time

Well I don't know what else is up. But I want to do these stuffies. Aww.
xo.

I'm holding on to the day that I can be really free to do things I wanna do. But I doubt that day will ever come.

Not on my side.

2009-08-26T21:11:00.003+08:00

Everyone's not on my side today.
Or I'm just having a mental complication at this very moment.
You decide.
xx

It's sad to feel very alone in one's own thoughts. Though I am fond of contemplating myself, nothing hurts more than thinking how things that have been far behind, and I've never thought they'd still come back and haunt me.

Over and over again I get the same kind of treatment from my conscientious mind - I emote, I get happy and so PR, I think, I become random, I turn into a nerd, I shut myself up, and make myself be rational again. That's probably how my mood works, excluding the fact that I hate being pressured when time is not at the essence. So unfortunately my brain cells right now are half-functioning, half-deteriorating. I feel very drained right now.

So today we had our NCAE. I had a good sleep every time I finished taking a test x) I probably was the fastest in the class. It was...so-so. I was just glad we were dismissed at 2 pm and I visited the library to look at Chimes. I love the old ones they're just so vintage. [@ the Learning Resource Center]

Any ways...then we went to Coffee Nook and I had some meal w/ F4L and it was fun I guess. Erm but I wasn't really in the mood today so that was kinda not good; a signal perhaps. Then when we went out I turned around to see - I HATE BEING OBSERVANT it sucks i swear! and some kind of awkward state of mind banged my head for that second.

Oh great it never went away from that time until now.

I opened a cabinet here in my mom's room which was chocfull of magazines, boxes (of random stuff) and books. I stumbled upon a box which contained my Grade 6 pictures (a.k.a. when i look skinny & malnourished & YOUNG) only to find two round shape pieces of paper that have dedix and duh, realized it was from our 1st yr project Genesis of My Life and I kept it in my Gazette. But it was kinda weird though 'cause those words written there from two people, seem so far from today. Anyhoo I went to the other room to open my Grade 6 & HS 2 boxes (I have 1st yr pics in an album, and an old Nike box lol) and saw another nostalgic item - an identical box to my bigger box, with a ribbon and some note inside which I thought I lost. Gah. The chills.

Why do some memories withstand the test of the longest time...ever?

It's hard telling this to my friends 'cause they've probably gotten sick of me saying his name over and over and over again like a 'sirang plaka' and retelling stories about those days when I felt so...i dont know but it sucks. Even I myself am sick of feeling this way, like some kind of depressant injected into my body and paralyzing my euphoric happiness. It's not that I'm saying my happiness level has reached its extremities, but really, I don't know, too, how I depict a happy face when I'm really so different at home. I usually grab a pen, get the laptop, type continuously, or study. Grrr I don't even know what else to type after this. I'm supposed to do Filipino, but look ma, more pressure. This life is not really cooperating with me.

And so I ask, WHY?

I will leave you guys hanging for this entry, for my words won't come out so easily today.
I haven't even wrote Gazette in ages!

xo.

Forever is over.

2009-08-25T22:05:00.002+08:00

It's been what, days since I last updated? Well luckily I've decided to write a few of my thoughts tonight. It's 10, I'm not sleepy (probably 'cause of the caffeine this a.m. lol) and I'm partly studying Chinese, which I really hate 'cause I don't get it x(

Anyways, days have been pretty crazy lately, or so I always mention "crazy" but, I don't know, I see myself as a better person these days, probably 'cause I'm more liberated w/ my own free will and right now my mind is very much creatively working. But then the only word that comes to my mind when I think about art is vintage. Goodness I've been addicted.

Okay let me begin my oh-so-long entry.

August 22 was announced a no-class day 'cause, well, the very horrifying thunderstorm the night before has probably made Manila drench in flood. Well we weren't affected with that though ;D So I spent a few hours browsing over Science books and notes. And got out of the house. Wee :D Eastwood Mall for a change. Finally got some Red Mango :) But I was pretty heart-healthy 'cause I got greentea/original swirl and Muesli which is some kind of oats & trail mix. Ah well it's delicious :) And bought this Bohemian vintagey top from Bayo which is a place I rarely buy stuff. Though it's kinda expensive I will share it so, no biggie :D

So much for that. I'm supposed to be scared 'cause the next day was the USTET. NOT. well I was anxious to be late. I was in touch from the time I left home 'till I got there w/ Ghia, Nix & Joyce and they all arrived earlier! Gad. So I walked briskly w/ mom from A.H. Lacson Ave. to Benavides Building, unaware with the long line of examinees who were going to take the same test as me. Thank goodness for Ghia! Made singit singit. Okay fast forward to when we were sorta running and heading to the room. I went to room 219 and a lot of people were screaming, "ABI!" (hello - the power of joyce's voice can light up other voices lol) and I looked around only to find half of the people in the room were my batchmates :) Weeee. The test was...so-so. I just had a headache 'cause I couldn't answer when I haven't eaten in 5 hours! x( So I gorged on a Fully loaded meal right after the exam :D No kidding! But lol it was from our Reunion w/c I wasn't able to attend so they brought some for me. Yay :) Whatta test. Headache to the max. All of my studying days before hopefully paid off. I'm crossing ze fingers! *

The next day was very drowsy for me. I just remember I was really sleepy during Physics & math class that I swear to study hard for those subjects lol. Erm...oh yeah I didn't have RJ w/ me :( Someone stole it :( Haha kidding it was taken home. I missed it x)

*FYI who/what is RJ? I have no name for my random journal so I call it RJ but I kinda hate the name RJ so I plan to change it by maybe translating it to a different language lawl.
Ooh I found one. Journal in Italian is termed as "gazette" so I'll name it... Gazette :> LAWL.

Okay, I wasn't able to update my Gazette 'cause a lot of people wanted to read it! Which kinda pissed me off (unless YOU know what my life story is all about) 'cause I have a lot of private stuff in it, including photos, notes, letters, randomness which is very very confidential. So I'll not bring it to school from this day on - I have considered it PRIVATE forever. Although TYVM for the people who said it was cool :D 'cause I find it a really weird journal of a frustrated artist like me. lol.

On the bright side I'm happy to say that I might produce a public journal yay :) Just random things that I'll update per month. And! Maybe 3-4 pages per month of total randomness but I'm still thinking of a creative routine that will work out. And show off my creativity - this means I don't want it looking like artwork, more of snippits scrapbook-like w/ a bit of vintage - really addicted to vintage. Viewed lotsa Flickr stuff about Moleskine and I am soooo jealous! Those people are really cool :> I wish I was. Aw :(

Any way...I'll be doing that when time will set its standard to mine. That will be a long time lol.

Today is pretty awesome. Aside from having our fashion show this a.m. (view TwitPic for some pics or my Multi. :P ) I had fun making some noise w/ my seatmates haha. Which is cool 'cause everywhere I turn it's either I get a good laugh, a sensible talk, or both ^^ Nice. Unlike my last seat (1st Qtr) I was rather quiet and acting all "ooh secretary nerd freak" sorta thing. Hah. People are probably shocked I'm very un-kind when I am at home. I'm just not rulebreaking in school - well I do talk sometimes and usually get reprimanded for it so I just obey ze rules for my own benefit. Hahaha.

What did I ... oh, right! Skipped first Physics period to go Guidance Counseling. It was cool, 'cause all Ms. Acosta said about my Personality is so true. I AM an introvert (yeah my EQ is very low! Wah >< I can't handle my emotions well - as you all know) and I forgot the others but, I did get very high in Arts (DUH) and Business (ooh!) and my career options include Graphic Designing (weeee!!!) Managerial stuffs && marketing (it said fashion lol) so I'm really happy about that. :D

Right now my current concern is getting this Hua Wen studied and done. Wah it's 10: 48 x( I hate it! I sleep late again. But I stayed for Scratch today soooo...yeah. Grrrr. Any ways, I'm going to doze off.

Some random stuffs:

Wed (tom) - NCAE = room buddies w/ F4L weeeeeeeeeeee :>
Fri - Hua Wen test. WAH. Maybe Filipino brainstorming? (When the hell will we submit this! I have hardly enough time!)
Sat - will hopefully watch The Time Traveler's Wife w/ D & S but I'm not sure yet, still on hold; if not, will study Li Shr
Sun - Mon - TAGAYTAY Wee. I am so stoked for this because I will get to update my art & gazette there and hopefully fill a page of holy Moleskine-ness. I'm scared to use the God of all notebooks x)
Tues - Li Shr test. Must study.

Speaking of notebooks I'm planning to buy another one! (I'm really addicted. GREAT) in Fully Booked! Aaaaah love that place. And I love notebooks. Ever since Grade 5! Wah. So I saw this one with Van Gogh's painting on it and it's hardcover and magnetic lock and PLAIN inside! *Squeals*

LOL. If i have the money I would purchase all the notebooks I see each time I go to a certain place. If only. Right now I only have the P1000 I got from YMCA which I will never spend. I still have to think. :D

Anyhoo so much about notebooks. Am loving BLG's Love Drunk! 'Cause I'm not love drunk anymore :P xD I'm pretty much happy living w/o something like love. It's too complicated AND I didn't really know what I've gotten myself into, you know. So I'm on a clean slate right now.

A very clean one. Like a sorta replenished soul of some sort. Hahaha. But I still get the nostalgia but, it's very rare thanks for that :D

Ohwell I gtg. Good night! Wish me luck for teh NCAE tom! Let's hope my IQ of 107 (YEZ. it's very low!) will work tomorrow morning. Must not forget to have a cup of tea. (addict!)

xo.

Do-nothing Day

2009-08-22T12:16:00.003+08:00

I feel like doing nothing today. Woop - I gotta continue studying a few Math problems & head on to Science. An hour from now, maybe. :)

The rain last night really creeped me out. I was not happy. But I am happy now that there's no school :>

BUT.

I still have to:

Take a bath (it's hot now)
Update journal - Thurs & Fri events
Research on what Penelope will say ~ lol
Do other templates & begin doing write ups
Study Bio & Chem, and my other homeworks :)

I am currently:

drenched in sweat sitting, tweeting, facebooking, pet soc-ed
listening to Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me - 'cause it always plays on Myx, MTV or [V] ah well, i love that song. and Lucas Till. ha ha ha :>
feeling the air 'cause we rarely open the window. just today.

I cannot wait for:

August 30 & 31 - no classes! :)
Sept. 4-7 - hopefully we'll squeeze in a gimmick day, + Fair 100
October - Sem Break - ABROAD!!! :D lolness.

The randomest entry everrr.
:)

xo.

/Waiting for the day you would wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time./

Brain drain

2009-08-21T18:00:00.002+08:00

Having a crash course for 2 hours in Math is actually bloody. My mind is still adjusting. I have answered 120++ questions involving Math, will probably answer more later, refresh my mind w/ Calculus and head to sleep.

Science pa! Maybe tomorrow night. gah! The USTET is on Sunday!! Why am i cramming x( Well not really. I'm just planning to review Bio & Chem for Sci, my mind is still fresh w/ Physics and I do know a lot of Science.

Complete ditching of English huwatda :))

Anyhoo I am having some kind of break time Pet Soc-ing, chatting & stuff~

Not much of a day. 3/4 of the day I studied.

xo.

travel + adventure = UP! + other randomities :>

2009-08-21T00:53:00.002+08:00

I want to quote what my mom said in Fookyien: "Lan kha nan khi tsut kok le!" which means it was like we were shopping in a different country.

Well it's typical for mom to say that, considering she rarely goes to SM North Edsa, The Block & The Annex. In fact, we live kinda near there but we don't go. Shangri-La's usually our "home mall" since I've grown from a kid buying at Gingersnaps to a Zara window shopper and a faithful National Bookstore buyer in Shang. Haha lol.

We watched UP today! Wee~

in Disney Digital 3D as well.

Left house at 3 (designed Scratch shirt, sketched stuff favored by people, did random stuffs) headed t Northedsa, late for 3:30PM showing, bought 5:35 PM instead. P300 for 3D. I know. But worth it! Headed to Northedsa afterwards. National Bookstore. duh :> I didn't buy ! lolness. headed to Papemelroti to buy scrapbooks, notebooks etc w/ my P500 allowance. hahahaha :) Shopping spree. Love that place! Bought vintage stuffies :)

Speaking of notebooks have I mentioned my Moleskine arrived yesterday? I avoid touching it x)

Hmm. Walked around. Feet hurt. Watched UP. Awesomeness. there was a short film shown before that, entitled, "Partly Cloudy" all I can say? CUTE! and Awesome graphics.

*worships Disney PIXAR animation studios*

If given the chance, will work there someday :D

Watching the movie was cool. Hello? 3D! :)) laughing all the time. Russell's super cute! And the overall story of the movie was well-written and the graphics were simply stunning. By far this is the most innovative and creative movie Pixar has ever produced. But I also like Finding Nemo, Meet The Robinsons etc :D

Walked afterwards. Bought this Dulce De Leche ensaymaditas and they're delish! And Chef Tony Dark Chocolate Popcorn. First time to buy Chef Tony ~ a lot of firsts today! :) Rummaged through some shirts @ Guess (I rarely go there but it was on 70% sale lol) but found nothing for me & sis :( even if we fitted :( aw. Nothing nice @ MNG as well. Wants the pink checkered blouse! P1850 :( *Thanks mom for having lots of vintage clothes. will experiment with them anyways :)

Speaking of vintageness my Penelope costume is cool! Formulated it myself. Love the outfit. So gypsy-ish. If I were going to a social formal event I would wear that (when I'm in my twenties/thirties lol) :))

Headed to Seattle's Best and bought this Chai Tea javakula which tasted like cola :( I conclude that I must only order Green tea frappes 'cause they taste sooo much better. Like the ones in Kozui/Starbuckssss <3 Full of calories :(

*is addicted to Caramel ensaymaditas. it was from Must Be Mom's. Yummy. imagine caramel sweetness w/ a sort of tart cheesy aftertaste. Yummy. Goodbye Krispy kreme :)) lol.

laptop low batt gtg.

xo!

ha-ha-ha-hyper.

2009-08-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

I have so much things to do!
I'm gonna ditch dinner since I've gorged on pasta twice today. @ Barcelo and my aunt who (i didn't know) cooks awesome Carbonara.

So, I got a lot of things piled up for me for 2 free days and 1 night (tonight):
-including the fun ones. :D I'm up for fun all the timeeeee :>
*Thanks God only assignments are Calc & Hua Wen, but both are headaches*

~~Look for Penelope costumes (it's harder than I thought!)~~
Do Ms. Or Hau Lai's favor (draw animals etc)
~~Look for old vintage SJCS pics (Filipino Proj)~~
Update journal (COME ON!)
Finish Vintage drawing (a bit more...!)
Watch UP! Yessss. Tomorrow.
Calculus. Study hard.
Hua Wen. Memorize #3 4 Wen ta
Study for UST. Math, Science.

Okay.
I'm dead x_X i cannot find any applicable costume for Penelope! Goodnessss :( I thought it was gonna be easy. Wah!

I gtg brb

xo.

what happened. [ i need more sleep! ]

2009-08-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

I haven't updated much. Hahaha and I just didn't want to turn the laptop on. That's why. So far last week has been very...adjasefurvnuehwf. LOL.

08.13

Experience 100 - before that I did nothing at home. Some guy rode with us to school, and it was really weird. I ran to the school gates. Hahaha.
Masuki afterwards - w/ Ms. Aguilar & my cousins & relatives. (they happen to be close, don't ask me) went home late. 11:29 PM hitting the sack.
Oh right I studied Algeb :>

08.14

6:00 AM rise and shine! Went w/ sibs to school, then Century, then S&R and walked w/ an empty stomach. So I munched on some Strawberry & Cheese Strudel while pushing the heavy cart (delish!) and bought some stuff, including pinstripe shorts & cool green PJs w/ a sheep design. lolness. Bought stuff for mooncake dice game the same night.
Fetched sibs, aunt's house near school, lunch = binge (super. i will never do it again) and awesomely good green tea! xD I love it compared to my teabag ones lol. Aircon = bliss. Had an hour's worth of sleep. And drooling over the cute new zealand sheep stuff toy they had. LAWL. Wii Fit-ed for only running! And I was tired na. Ha ha.
Night @ Hai Kang w/ old neighbors. Super fun. I missed the bonding when we were kids DASA lol. Den! Can't wait for another jam session x) See you soon Alyanna! Steff = nerd lol. xD Didn't win any money. Goodness. Next mooncake dice game : October w/ See Fam & Sy Fam. will hope for some cash >:)
11:30 PM hitting the sack.

08.15

SUPER SLEEPY TO DEATH. I really wanted to lie in bed.
So this day was very deadly to me. Oh, right, I got my UST Test Permit. And I'm so scared right now. I have to study. I literally yamned every period. Hahaha.
So when I got home I slept from 6pm-9pm for the first time in my life! Then I woke up 9:30 and had dinner and headed to sleep 11PM. No studying haha.

08.16

Which is why I'm prohibiting myself to go out today. I will remain and study. 10AM rise and shine. Breakfast? Leftover takeout pasta (OMG delish) Krispy kreme heated doughnuts is soooo good. (Karamel Kreme Krunch. hah. split w/ shob!) Cranberry Raisinets (mmm) and tea. It's 2 now and have not had lunch.
Did Xiao Kai. Off to Hua Wen, Li Shr (I hate you) and Math = Geom, Trigo, Stats.

I REALLY need to study x(

xo.

waiting

2009-08-13T11:36:00.002+08:00

"Waiting for this life to change,
Seems like it's taking me forever
And I can't hold on
This light is breaking into the day."
- Waiting, The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

I really like that song, but I can't find an HQ download for that mp3 so I haven't heard it for so long.

Anyways, I thought PT week ending was great, but I didn't realize the sorta aftermath I'd get with it. We've rechecked all PTs, except English, Filipino & Lishr *play horror sound!* which I'm very afraid to recheck. :|

Here are my awful results:

- okay not all are awful. happy w/ physics, math & hua wen because I was really dedicated in studying! xD LOL!
- lowest to highest

EP - 72 (don't ask. i repeat. i studied but it didn't work.)
Eco - 78 (still don't ask. i'm pretty careless & dislike memorizing economical stuff.)
Calc - 79 (i knew it all along.)
MAPEH -81 (watda.)
Physics - 86 (8 hours of studying is pretty worth it.)
Math - 90 (studying systematically & tutoring others is really effective.)
TLE - 94 (i must really be connected to business. future entrepreneur xD)
Chinese Language - 100 (almost everyone got 90+ bwahahaha.)

So much for the PT grades. I'm so not expecting for an honor, and it's shocking that all my low points are all minor. Watda? Oh wait I still have Filipino. Sure epic fail.

LOL. Today is a Thursday. Pretty free. Except I'm working my butt off with Algebra & Chinese and all those shinnanegans (is the spelling right? lol) and tomorrow is a free day wee! Except I have to attend this Experience 100 thing later which is an obligation for all 3rd & 4th year. And me being the secretary (this is getting boring) I have to get the attendance. Gah :<

Anyways I gtg. Am off to...idk. Eat?

Excited tomorrow!

Maybe I'll go to S&R w/ mom. Buy mooncake stuff.
And eat lunch @ SM Manila w/ my mom & bro.
Have dinner @ Hai Kang w/ old friends & neighbors
NO SCHOOL = BLISS :>

xo.

can you hear the loud silence?

2009-08-11T19:29:00.004+08:00

Can you?

My topic today's probably not so related to the title. In fact, the only related thing there is the word
"silence", which is one word I really dislike.

Okay, so I'm usually quiet when I'm alone, but that only means I'm very contemplative when I'm alone. And I like observing stuff so, yeah lol. (FYI: I'm very much observant despite my 175-125 eyeglass grade) Anyways...

I find it awkward how talking may be so easy to do yet at times, you just can't get to spill the words out. Like a force of some sort is holding you back. I've probably closed vocal communications with a lot of people, and actually they just talk to me through words on paper (letters, notes, texts, chats etc) , which is really weird, for me. Oh well. Like I can change that :<>_<><) Calc 79. No honor. Great. Hmm...what else. Assignments are nowhere in sight today, except I'm tasked to write my course choices in the DLSU Form which is to be submitted tomorrow. I'm done answering; just the courses. I'll be getting (1) Business Management, (2) LIA-COM >> Organizational Communication & Business Management, and (3) I don't know yet. Maybe Applied Corporate Management.

Speaking of college, things are very complicated these days. There are so much activities & free days. Gad! So here's my calendar so far:

Click for full view :)

The calendar thing is so cool B-)

anyhoo, I'm out. This is a non-productive no assignment day for me. I should've drawn. Instead I went grocery shopping. I want to watch Teen Choice Awards & more JONAS eps :( And review? Ah well. Aw.

xo.

lay down your arms, give up the fight.

2009-08-09T16:30:00.002+08:00

Oh I don't think so. I may feel very inferior most of the time but I'm so not in the mood of giving up.

I don't even know what's with the title, I just got LSS 'cause I just listened to "21 Guns" by Green Day lol. Oh, yeah, I also watched StoryLine which talked about Pres. Cory Aquino's life, which was interesting, and with a tie-in of Ninoy Aquino's life and death. Wow. Probably one reason I got distracted studying. Well I'm now on Chie Shr, which is vocabulary in Chinese. It's a lot but I'll hold on. I've got lots of mistakes in the Wen Ta & Fan I, but considering I spent yesterday foolishly doing nothing, the consequences come naturally.

Right now I'm once again procrastinating (although I feel like I'm not) by watching Wall-E (wait, am i?) and typing and Facebook-ing. Twitter kinda bores me now, or it's just because I have nothing to tweet about other than school stuff (oh, hello, here's the boring old me!) Anyways, i'm quite speechless today. I'm scared for tomorrow, since Tuesday will be the Physics Exam, and I'm afraid I have not been acquainted with Projectile Motion yet.

xo.

lolness:)

2009-08-08T20:00:00.002+08:00

Just because I'm randomly bored, I'm posting this video.
I NEVER post videos, haha. Except this one, I guess? lol x)

Awarding of the YMCA thingy~

Note: I look like I'm such a good girl. Hahaha right.

xo~

i am myself again :)

2009-08-08T19:45:00.002+08:00

Finally I have the luxury of time to actually go online and do some leisure time. Although I'm just bored xD I'm supposed to be studying!

Today's a pretty different day for me. Luckily the whole commotion of my probable mental disorder didn't push through today. God knows I'm really suffering with that so, I'm really happy. And! Well I got hit by a basketball this morning. On the head. By a bunch of grade school girls. Really, they pissed the hell of me off! I was having a good walk and then BAM! I thought my head would get dislocated of some sorts - haha I'm too crazy! But oh well!

Then I got in the classroom. Typical. Oh this was not typical: Taught Nicole Algebra for two hours straight. I honestly needed water lol. I also made this colorful outline thingy so I could appreciate Algebra. Probably I did these things 'cause I wanted to get over my Li Shr problem (not to mention Calculus as well, which will be the obvious reason for not getting honor this quarter) and start anew, and get over my depression! Which is obviously caused by extremely low grades & inferiority.

Moving on...Happy Birthday to people celebrating their birthdays today!

=x=

T-I-PROBABLY-WILL-DO:

Finish my Vintage drawing w/c is long overdue!
Formulate ideas for my new drawing w/c only consists of a vintage camera (chyeah, i love vintage!)
Transfer pics from my PC to laptop (including pics from my recital 1 year ago!)
Print the Huawen reviewer (will do this tomorrow)

T-I-SHOULD-DO-ASAP:

STUDY. I just memorized two wentas xD oh, fine, two and a half :))

xo.

Will update when PTs are over. (tuesday)

Life Before Drama.

2009-08-04T16:29:00.000+08:00

When everything was at its place.
I wish I could turn back the time.

May be?

2009-08-04T16:21:00.002+08:00

Things are really hitting my hard on the gut.

These exams are killing me; and never in my life have I thought I'd get pissed with studying, but I am quite pissed at it. OR maybe it's because I don't sleep a lot and it's my low tech brain that's affecting my studying. Last year was probably more tolerable than this year. It's just the First Qtr. and I've got a 79 in Calculus, an 81 in MAPEH and what, low grades in Chinese. What's next? A failing grade in Math? Physics? English? Filipino?

It's really pissing me off. I don't even have enough time to rummage through my journal and paste some photos, write some thoughts, NONE. I'm holding my Chinese test papers now and trying to memorize Q & As but out of 10 I've only memorizes 3 since I got home around 1. I don't know what's wrong with me but it's really going to get my nerves.

And I had a mental breakdown awhile ago. I was really pissed. Watda...getting a 73 in Physics while all my other quizzes were 90+ makes me feel so degraded. Not so much about high grade obsession but I feel so effin dumb. I'm probably not dumb but careless. But still >:(

There are no classes tomorrow and I don't know whether I like it or not. Better not procrastinate or I'll be dead for good. I'm so sick of it.

xo.

sicknesses & excuses

2009-08-03T18:22:00.002+08:00

I think there is something wrong with my life. I'm not sure what, but really, it's getting into my nerves. At this point I'm still very sleepy-ish, despite sleeping for 2 hours and not reading a summary of Odysseus and haven't studied Filipino except reading the book. Argh!

If there's no drama in my personal life, there's drama at home. (well at least now no more)
If I get to bond w/ my best friends, lots of people barge in and we get separated again
If my drawing is right there staring at me, waiting for some paint, I can't do anything but stare back. I'm too busy.
If I feel good it gets out of my body as fast as possible.
If my brain is not rationally working a lot, a lot of assignments pile up again.

What the hell is wrong with me?

I can't possibly find a way to escape to this, but it's really awful. I just want to sleep right now.

xo.

thankyou:)

2009-08-03T14:03:00.002+08:00

11,111 PVs rock! Thank you for all the supportive fellow dA people :) I'm happy for that :) and motivated to do more art when I have time, hopefully :)

[the HS group winners]
[was the only one not wearing uniform xD]

Okay. I badly need to go. Hooray for internet again! Got the DLSU Form today, lol.

xo.

~ R.I.P. Ex Pres Cory Aquino ~

Impression vs. Expression

2009-08-02T13:23:00.003+08:00

When it comes to art, these two are very diverse forms.

But I'm not going to describe impressionist vs. expressionist art; I don't even know a lot about those stuff. lol xD

Anyways...schoolwork has been doing its effort to kill my time, really. It sucks, and what sucks more is a sure notion that I will get a ultra-low grade in the Calculus Exam (wait, was that an exam? I'd say it's hell gone mad) and a whole lot more commotion in our household.

I'd rather not talk about that...it was awful ><

Moving on...I got 5th place in YMCA. Yay much? Really, my face was just blank, but, I'm happy, the least...awkward. So awhile ago was the awarding. I didn't even know; my mom had to call Saint Jude before we knew (hence, SJCS NEVER supports me - factual!) and so yeah, today - awhile ago 9AM we had the exhibit + awarding + oh, let me mention the criticism of my work (why it was 5th and not 3rd, according to the Art Director of YMCA who happens to like criticizing my work over & over) awhile ago, plus an art demo from an artist who was really good and did some impressionistic art of a flower arrangement.

Shots~

[why is the school still stated? lol]

[the critic said I was an "amateur" for using BLACK. uhh, let me correct, I used BROWN, and the bottom "leaf" happened to turn out bad; and he said I need LIGHT >> oh, trust me I'm so looking for the light...watda...it's not my fault I'm not good in painting!]

[to all the winners, congrats!]

[the artist did this using felt & oil pastels; for 30 minutes only, one the spot. he's good!]

Okay I gtg.

I think I wish I wore my uniform. haha 'cause everyone did except SJ people xD But I don't want to anyways.

GTG :<

So much for a short entry :| I wasn't even able to cite why my title was that!

xo. I gtg. I hate PLDT, remember that.

Immersed.

2009-07-28T20:03:00.002+08:00

I feel like a fish getting used to the water for the first time.

So I feel no pressure tonight, more of...laziness, or interest for that matter. I'm doing my Business Plan right now for our TLE (Technology & Livelihood Education) and I'm going to do a project schedule. Wow. It's like I'm taking this so seriously...why so?

Hah. I don't even feel like eating dinner considering I had 1 pack of Pucca, 1 piece of Marble Slice from Red Ribbon, 1 small bottle of Yakult, 1 Conti's chicken pie (a sucker for this) and 1 cup of hot green tea. Yes, only for merienda (now you know why I love to eat. LOL...ever since school started I eat a lot during merienda Haha.) and it sucks. Maybe I'll have a salad tonight (*puke* I've had salads since pre-prom eating habits began...grrr) anyway, I'll stay hooked to the laptop for a few more minutes.

Throughout this business plan I have accomplished the following:

Introduction (which I love doing, it invites readers to be interested in the coverage of the whole thing)
Table of Contents (seriously, it's easy as...pie. what a cliche -___-)
Executive Summary (uh huh.)
Half of Organization and Management Study

That's all I've done. I still need to do:

Market Study
Production (done a bit of it)
Financial Study
Contribution to Phil. Economy (haha, i can't think of this xD)
Exhibits

Hm. Almost balanced enough. I need to get back.
T2DO

Finish ECO studying
Study MAPEH (uhoh I think ill start late...8:30 perhaps)
Eat dinner ( HA HA should I?)
Journal ('cause I feel bad not updating)
Drawing (lineart done)

xo!
LSS : Love U by ...idk the singer. Basta it's from BOF. Haha. LSSness.

Myself, I cannot decipher.

2009-07-27T16:59:00.002+08:00

Really, I am in a massive tidal wave of mood swings.

Okay, as I'm writing this I'm quite calmed. But other times, I really tend to fire up and get pissed off. I have to applaud for the people here living with me - because they do get mad when I shout, but then they forget it. I guess I can say the old me has found another space to the new me.

Back when I was still around a toddler, a lot of people despised me because of my crankiness, impatience, and my "ao bin" days (fukyien, which means having a bad face because one is angry or pissed off) > well, I still do "ao bin" sometimes but, that's not really the point right now.

It sucks...

*Yay for no classes today. and was that a SONA? (watda) awkward...

Anyways, today was another rather awkward day. Headed to Conti's for breakfast (wait, was that breakfast? I think it was brunch lol) and had a Malunggay Omelette (Watda health conscious much?) w/ Fish in it & cheese + Fruits + Mango Bravo :> Then to National Book store and bought some supplies, then had a haircut at Tony & Jackey (Korean hairdressers) from this Korean girl who seems as if she's angry...or her face is just really strict-looking? Idk, but she handles the shears very well and I think my hair cut is...good :D Then syoti had a haircut then we went home, I studied a bit, and now I'm online again.

How quick a day goes by. So me, my sister & bro had haircuts today x)

One thing I did notice about myself is that I'm so kuripot! Which means I don't like speding my own money much. I don't eat during recess (okay, I'm used to that ever since I started schooling) but awhile ago I saw 2 packs of vintage stickers entitled "Nostalgia" and it's from All About Scrapbooking that I reallyyyy wanted to buy. But then my indecisive thoughts began turning into decisive thought xD And I didn't buy. Aw :(

Anyway, so much about that. I'm off to do my business plan.

Possible reasons I've been having weird mood swings lately:

I drink a lot of tea? IDK if that gives an after effect. Odd :<
I'm morphing back to my old self? Not...quite.
I can't stand Senior life anymore? Hm. Probably.
I don't get to spend much time doing things leisurely anymore? Yes, 50% true.

On the bright side, I am most looking forward to the YMCA Results (tss. as if...) & the Moleskin I ordered @ Amazon.com alongside the Tablet Pen (to be shipped @ my cous' house in the US) & the end of PT because...idk. I need to study to College Exams :(

*Crosses fingers, not giving up...just yet*

xo.

And then I realize, I wanna come first!
/First by Lindsay Lohan/

Today is a winding road.

2009-07-26T19:31:00.003+08:00

♫ Thunder - Boys Like Girls
*photos taken today*

=x=

[with Tin & Joyce. after the contest - gonna clean our stuff!]

[proof of Laking National card. Ha ha ha.]

[let the rain fall.]
pic from Reco 09 (but it's raining ATM > at the moment)

xo♥

Mi-ra-cle.

2009-07-26T16:39:00.003+08:00

It's also one of Paramore's songs.
Coincidence much?

Anyways, today was a rather different Sunday. I spent the morning waking up early and rushing to prepare my art materials - what to bring to the YMCA Art Contest, then had some oats (in tablea yay :D) and headed off to YMCA.

Guess what? I was late xD I didn't know it began at 9:00, I arrived 9:05. All I know is that 9:45 is the real beginning of the drawing time. Oh well, 5 minutes is not a big deal for me. And luckily I was number 50 and Joyce was 51 - obviously our surnames - Sy - mean that we are in the same area.

Okay, so Kristin hasn't arrived yet when I arrived - she was around 30 minutes late :x If you wanted to know what the scenario was when I entered, I was freaked out. Everyone was on the floor, indian sitting (well one was standing up. awkward much?) with a big wooden board on their laps, drawing vegetables that were placed on a chair with white cloth. Real veggies :> LOL.

It was really weird, gladly I got used to it. And I used the time wisely to make a good piece of art. And well if I were to assess mine, considering that I didn't practice (but I DID draw last night for another contest online) for years in painting (I used to paint when I was young, before my teen years) I did pretty good. Some were staring, I think that's a good thing xD

*I'm crossing my fingers!!!* and wishing a miracle would happen. I really worked my butt off (way to go for meeee! For completing one of the T2DO lol.)

So now, I just got home from the temple, visited Dad (you know, I really hate doing this but, I don't get pissed, really - watda?) but before that I was really starving after the contest. Ha ha even if I enjoyed my oats and oolong tea breakfast w/ a piece of Hershey's cookies (ahh. they're sweet and good :3) my stomach was rumbling so we ate at Ying Ying Tea House (yum :D) and the owner is my aunt's friend (my aunt, as what everybody says, happens to look like me. ha ha? lol!) and I had some Japanese siomai & Ho Fan yay :)

*But I'm craving for some silver roll bread from Tasty lol xD*

Anyhoo, I'm supposed to be doing some homeworks now, special mention : TLE Business Plan & English Formal Theme, but I figured I'll do it by 5:00. Ten more minutes of freedom :>

Tomorrow, I hope, will be as exciting as today (although today wasn't super exciting, I had fun @ the contest, i love my work :D no matter how veggie it is xD) I'll be having breakfast out (wala, salingpusa haha) and I'll do my homework there (nerd effect? watda) and head off to National Book Store (YAY! I have my laking National card na lol xD) and have my hair cut (even if I want it long, I hate it too >> I'm so indecisive! Haha! I want it just right. It's long already) and spend the rest of the day studying.

Life so far is crazy, but I hope I get used to it.

And I had a 30-minute dream awhile ago. It was awkward, but I'm so gonna list it down on my journal. I can remember it so clearly lol.

Other contests I'm going to join (wow what's with me being active in contests?)

Pentel Go Monochrome! (I'm excited for this.) October 2009
*The-Heart (dA) "Vintage Hearts" contest August 1, 2009 (I better finish my work asap)
*gabbyd70's "5 Themes" contest October 2009 (is excited for this too very challenging:D)

*Results of the contest are still on August 2 - HA! I won't be taking UPCAT so I'm going. Joyce is taking UPCAT, aw :c

Ayt, it's 4:56, I better get going. Still dA-ing :>

xo.
PS What is with the rain and it's falling again??

=x=

Take the path that the wind only knows.
/Beauty in Walking Away, Marie Digby/

The pressure.

2009-07-25T21:37:00.002+08:00

Whenever I hear the word "pressure", I remember the song of Paramore with the same title.
Haha, just a random thought.

But seriously, this Senior life is getting a tad more complex than what I really thought. This week I've tried balancing time and making things work, but eventually not. Oh, did I mention we had SEVEN (7) quizzes today? There wasn't one class that didn't have a quiz, or GE. Well, except PE, but that doesn't really count. We did have some fun running in sacks and losing the contests :>

Anyhow, I can't seem to get an idea on how to shape my life and make it better. My scores from exams are kinda off-track, I'm NOT in my comfort zone, although I long to be! I got a 78/100 for Economics (watda?) 86 for TLE (I studied! why?) and a really low 89 for Li Shr (This I am in big question.) I know I'm so "what-the-that's-not-even-failing" but seriously, I'm very pressured when it comes to school so yeah. It's really hard so I'll try my best to study hard at the PTs and the upcoming tests.

Grrr...one more dilemma I have is STILL my confidence level. It's a fact that I really feel like such a dumb person and living a boring life, which is kinda weird because, if my life IS boring, then why do I keep writing? Haha. Ironic. Speaking of writing, I haven't updated in days! Am probably gonna update later. Oh, I need to list down some T2DO. T2DO is really helping me get motivated. And actually I've handled time much better this week than last, but I hope I keep up with my adjustment. So that at least I can make a better person out of myself! My goodness.

And I haven't been having enough leisure time. I can't squeeze it in my schedule! :( I will later. I promise? Hopefully.

Ha. I keep saying "hopefully", as if I'm really that hopeful. Ah, let's hope :)

And I got a really bad cold now, so...yeah. Life probably is not what I'm well-lived in, I still need a little more getting-used-to.

And I MISS ART :( I really do. Really.

T2DO/SKED:

Tonight: Study lishr, Update journal, Draw. For real I guess (:
Tomorrow: Attend YMCA Contest in the A.M., Eat @ a Chi resto for lunch yay:), Study Lishr in the PM, do TLE Business Plan, English Formal Theme, EP assign.
Monday: Wake up early, do some more studying, have my hair cut (my bangs are too short, my hair needs to catch up with the shortness xD), have Kozui?! :D STudy.

If you've noticed. ALL days mean STUDYING.
I really need to improve if I want to have consistent honors this year.
Or prove myself worthy of being myself for a change, 'cause I'll need it.

xo.
PS
I nominated myself for the Candy Teen Blog Awards. haha :) Hope you guys vote if you like my blog :) Your choice!

Happy Birthday Ms. Avillano. :)

2009-07-23T22:12:00.002+08:00

[this was the draft.]

[but i happen to like this better:)]

[we were sweating yet having fun with tha pizzas & cake]
[and we miss her!]

which reminds me, I need to get my recommendation letter from her tomorrow :>
xo~

T.IWANT.2DO.

2009-07-23T20:48:00.004+08:00

This list will hopefully be fulfilled through the course of this year, 2009 and next year, 2010.

Hopefully :>

In random order.

Have at least three new artworks posted on dA.
Work my butt off in EVERYTHING.
Win a contest outside school, I don't care what & how much I will win.
Visit a Papemelroti store, and admire the quotes, drawings & paper products.
Have a Harry Potter Marathon - watch all movies (1-6), and read books 4,5,6,7 (probably NOT gonna happen. lol.) >> Probably shocked I like Harry Potter? It gives me a heck of nostalgia, kinda like I remember my childhood when I had marathons of HPs 1 & 2 on VCD xD
Get my cousin to buy a Wacom Penable Tablet PC Pen in amazon.com or wacom.com from the US of A and give it to us when he gets back.
That means, I could finally practice doing "professional" digital art of my Tablet PC! Yay :)
Learn the art of making my own journal = bookbinding
Finish reading "The Creative License" - if only I had more time!
Visit the East Coast of US (hopefully, my grad gift :D) esp. NY & Florida.
And while at it, watch a Broadway musical in the Big Apple :)
And visit Parson's?
And buy a good camera there? Still wishes for a polaroid :))
So that I can put photos in my journal - that I will hopefully make myself :)
What else. Visit a place full of nature and feel the wind -'cause I prefer land over water
Sell something I made myself - a personalized bag/pair of shoes/shirt/whatever.
'Cause I want to earn some money for no reason :D
And I want people to commission me for art :)
Get a new slide phone which is cheap :) But, I'm not ready to ditch my SE w810i. Iloveiteversince :D
Make a new Blogger Layout for myself, that I will love forever.
Make my life more interesting by...interesting myself into things I'm interested in.
Learn to balance my emotions.
If I'm not mistaken, I am having a "Disturbed Emotion" sickness lol.
Wear glasses often - watda? You'll be seeing the nerdy side of yourstruly in college.
Pass the ACET, DLSUCET & USTET even if I did not review.
But I will review after the first qtr PTs - Centennial week = I will review. I promise this! I need it!
Study hard and work my butt off for the remaining months in Saint Jude
And make people recognize me puhlease.
Watch all HM episodes on YouTube or any other possible way.
Watch Sonny with a Chance & JONAS. 'Cause I love the people there.
Watch Paramore when they come to Manila.
Watch JB & Miley when they come to Manila.
Watch The Script when they come to Manila.
Watch UP in theaters August 26.
Watch New Moon in theaters November 20.
Have a shopping spree with mom @ Zara/Debenhams/wherever we could buy cool stuff :] (had one last year. AWESOMENESS)
See my friends Nadine & Erika from ArtsWork and have lunch/merienda/dinner with them at TeriyakiBoy/other restaurant - I'm sick of Tboy because of you guys! XD
Make friends with new people 'cause time is just short.
Reconciliate with people I've had complications with, and talk to them before HS ends.
Make lasting memories w/ uber vanity & dedix & the like.
Laugh more and always smile rather than be pissed off and get angry & cranky easily.
Love myself more and not criticize myself for my looks.
Get inspired with new bands, new songs...and make another collection of art! (Last late 2007-2008 it was a psychedelic era for me w/ all things mostly B/W and standout colors.)
Cook a gourmet meal? Haven't done that in ages :D
Have professional art classes somewhere that teaches good art :)
To get an award for being an outstanding member in Scratch (that's not really possible since the Pres & the VP are getting it, and 3 more are up for grabs, and...I've been demoted 'cause last yr I WAS the VP and this yr I WAS Asst. Sec. until they demoted me to Asst. BM and I have NO CLUE why the heck)
Participate more contests in dA and win prizes! Subscriptions & features! :)
Buy a Team Manila shirt, 'cause the designs are awesome :D
Learn how to make my own fro yo, so I can enjoy it at the comforts of my own home.
Be more fashionable and not be afraid to express my style.
Cut down my calorie intake, just because sometimes I get too overboard with my favorite foods - special mention: Conti's Chicken Pie, cakes, Eng Kee Chicken Pie, savory dishes
Trim down a bit of my weight - although all my clothes still fit :) Just to make them fit a bit better ;)
Enjoy this year's and next year's Xmas :)
And the New Year.
And my Sassy Seventeen on January Fourteen Two Thousand Ten.
And plan my debut? Ha Ha Ha. right. I'll see Jean's debut first and if I like it, I'll have one. If I don't, I'll have a fun night out with friends instead. ;>
Graduate, lol. Top 10? HA. I must be dreaming. Naw, I'm not aiming high, just until I can reach it :)
Finish my RandomJ and hopefully have a name for it. Will update you guys on that ;)
Spend a day with my best friends F4L and shop & have a meal together and talk about the randomness of life :)
Get 20K PVs in my dA. Go visit and show some support!
Paint the world with art - literally. Drawing is not being recognized enough. Hello, people, is there anything more other than Music, Theater & Architecture?
Produce my own line of journal notebooks - Plain, Ruled, or Organizer-type.
And sell them! Yipee :>
Get tons of Green Tea bags in the grocery and have an infinite supply of tea > I drink tea EVERY DAY. So much for being a health buff xD
Get myself an Immersion Blender, Food Processor & Ice Cream Maker. I'll be a happy cook :)
Have cool presents for Xmas & Bday!
Which will hopefully include a Wii Fit, Awesome Headphones I saw in iStudio, and a set of good reads - chick lit by Sophie Kinsella or any good chick lit writer.
Learn to overcome my shyness in school ('cause I'm only "wild" when I'm with my circle of friends)
Be more confident.
Personalize more shirts :) And wear them all the time!
Sleep as often as I can, so I can grow taller, like 5'6" [i can dream! I'm only 5'3"!]
Buy more wardrobe stuff and have fun dress-ups :))
Finish painting my room and edit the current thing I painted on the wall.
And sleep in my room! Have a tiny LCD TV there and a cool "working place" for art
And have a bookcase to display all my awesome books :>
Have more drawers & cabinets to store my stuff!
Clean my mess! 3/4 of the things here at home are all my clutter :3 'Cause I leave my art stuff everywhere
TRAVEL around everywhere! USA, Europe, Asia...CHINA, and do some international shopping :D
Go to sleep earlier. Like now. HAHA it's 9:30.

So yeah. MY GOODNESS if you finished reading it, I congratulate you!

I'm off ~

xo<3

long night

2009-07-23T18:49:00.002+08:00

of sleep.

Last night my mind was literally spinning in circles as I headed home from Scratch stay. I don't exactly know why; and it's not because I don't have the right nutrition or something (watda) but I did notice I was getting dizzy with motion sickness or something. My gad it was awful; I couldn't take it anymore so I slept like, 9:30? WOW. First time! Then I woke up 8AM so i slept for 11 hours :) Like sleeping for two nights! lol.

And I had SO many dreams, like 3, I think. The first one was me watching New Moon w/ friends, and some...other people. Anyways, it was weird. The other one included me patting an über cute puppy (here's the thing: I happen to dislike dogs. woohoo.) so yeah and the last I forgot.

I really thought it was real. Aw :( Anyhoo, so much for the randomness...

I'm done with my T2DO! >> my bangs are soooo short! I look like a Japanese whatever freak lol. And, well I have another list of T2DO that will take me forever to accomplish in life. Ha ha ha ha. I'm not done with it yet but I think it's a lot.

So I gtg now. Buhbye.

xo~

T2DO.

2009-07-22T20:33:00.002+08:00

Since I'm heading to bed @ 9 (well most probably 'cause my head is spinning AWFULLY and I mean it!! OUCH :(( ) I ought to write my T2DO for tomorrow.

Trim my bangs. Well, it's long.
Study Hua Won in the AM - Practice Test in the PM.
Physics assignment, + advance review
EP assignment (Butchukoy? watda...)
MAPEH Test (I've browsed through this already)
Formulate some business plan (I have one though)
SLEEP MORE. Puhlease. I must be at bed no later than 10:30 or else I'll get dizzy and unconscious the next day. New curfew for myself!

IDK The others but I feel bad I have to skip review at school tom. I didn't even review last summer (just a bit) for hell's sake! I need LUCK for the coming entrance exams, PERIODICAL exams (NEXTWEEK!! WAAH!), projects, lastminute requirements and everything else. I need luck and faith. And my head is randomly spinning right now. I know, so unlikely but true. I feel like collapsing or something.

If I don't wake up tomorrow...
OMG I'm being so MORBID.

xo.
TIRED.

Much thanks. Much better.

2009-07-19T22:57:00.002+08:00

Really, I'm being sarcastic. It's late now, 2 minutes till 11pm as I type. I'm supposed to be wandering in my sleep and hopefully dream but, I choose to write some inner thoughts for awhile. I'm even setting aside Physics first. I have just understood a bit of our test tomorrow.

Sometimes I just can't take the load of life. It just...overwhelms me how time can fly so fast and I can't accomplish things in time. And the people, oh goodness. The people surrounding me are kinda irritating; I don't know whether to trust them or not.

Okay, it's not everyday I feel like this, really. Maybe it's because I'm moody at the moment but, I really feel awful.

Oh, right, I also have something to say. I feel so pissed or rather I wonder when the heck people will give me a chance. To what? I don't know, for me to be recognized? It's always something I'm subconscious about, but, really, I never get noticed. Oh, and if you fight back and say "Essay writing nung first year ka!" uh, no, not really. I wasn't even around when they said my name, for goodness' sake. And when they did, it was because my mom PERSUADED them to do so (I had nothing to do with this). Or what about the Film Fest Invites? The Logo? The English Program Backdrop? (which let me & Kristin set aside Geometry PT and work our butts off for 9 hours) The English Program Logo? The Teachers' Day Masquerade Invites? The Masks? The JS Prom Poem? The Class Shirts?

It's not like I want to be famous or anything, but it's either people change my decisions or tell me to "waive" my "poetic license" (remember?) or lament and criticize my 9-hour-working-butt-out-work with Kristin? Or they always ask me to do this and that, like I have all time devoted to doing art or something.

Well I'm not saying I'm declining things like that, but I've realized lately that it's not worth my time. For hell's sake, I haven't grabbed a Specialty Board and Fine Liner markers in MONTHS. I want to DRAW, Puhlease. But how? I get stuck with freakin' homework. It's giving me a hard time to balance especially now I'm in 4th year! Damn, it's really hard. I don't even feel like I'm giving my best; it's really hard, I hate myself for being me.

Really, I do. IDK what is wrong with me; this is what happens.

So thanks to all the people who have hurt me, almost killed me, criticized me, hardly recognized me, hated me for doing nothing wrong, eyed me suspiciously, made me feel unwelcome, talked about me, and etc. You have all made my life so complicatedly miserable.

Much thanks.

You guys must feel much better, right?

xo.
PS This is a hate entry. It's not for my close friends, it's for those...people. Oh, even my mom I guess. Or my relatives? I don't know you people, whoever you are, there, happy?

now i have.

2009-07-17T08:28:00.003+08:00

Now I have a quote. Sorry I'm so unupdated, I just downloaded "No Boundaries".

"Just when you think the road is going nowhere, just when you almost gave up on your dreams, they take you by the hand and show you that you can."

And I keep dloding David Cook's "Come Back To Me" but it's only this time that it plays.

"You say you gotta go and find yourself, you say that you're becoming someone else, don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you."

Watda I'm so emoish posting quotes. Hahaha. AI much?

xo.

I need new bands!!!

okai :)

2009-07-17T07:58:00.002+08:00

Haha. The title was supposed to be "o...kay" but I probably think it was too cliche. Anyways, it's 1 minute till 8 as I'm typing. And obviously there are no classes, which I don't know how to react to. Because there are, of course, pros & cons.

Pros:

No TLE Test ('cause I'm not done studying)
No Math period (haha! sorry but i don't really get the lesson)
Induction Rites will prolly be moved tomorrow (super shortened periods tom?)
Not having to endure hours of class (i'm so procrastinating with this statement)
Not seeing you ('cause I'm better off without you >:D)

Cons:

Li Shr test will be tomorrow for sure
Calc Test will be tomorrow (this hasn't changed)
MATH test will be tomorrow for sure
More assignments on hand
Need to study more today than yesterday even if I want to watch HP
It's gonna be a busy day tomorrow
Won't have time to talk w/ friends 'cause of homework & tests. ugh.

ARGH. Things just can't go my way this time. lol...But the rain is pretty strong, I never thought about it till last night when we were out in Promenade and we crossed the overpass and the rain was just...WOW. Well I didn't like the food @ Flapjacks last night. :[

LOL I told my cousins if they were no classes today we must party! x)) Anyhow *wishes we'll have ice cream later!* I have not much to write since I'm supposed to be at school today. Heehee :>

T2DO
Let's just say it decreased a bit. :)

For serious purposes:

Math
Calculus
LiShr
English script

Yay 4 to go:)

For leisure purposes:

Have fun with curling benders? Since I'm home and I have nothing to do and need to put my hair up :)) It'll get the job done ;)
Play "Seven Things"! I need to learn the strumming. But yesterday I did a run-through and I could do it quite well. Just the strumming. And it's much easier than "Fifteen" but I wanted "Fifteen" oh well. When I'm good enough :)
Go online 24/7? Nah I'll probably shut down the comp in the PM or let my sister use it. I need to be hardworkingly good today.

I have no song quote to quote. Weirddddddd.

writing, writing, writing.

2009-07-16T11:44:00.004+08:00

I'm trying to finish my ACET essay at the moment. I need to have it finished! Tambak assignments from Reco. So, yeah, emoted a little last night, now I need to face reality for REAL.

(emo writing letters.)

(emo reco letters. meet French dog! :D)

But of course, the reco was not at all emo. It was a vain three days!

(meet my vain roommate Nicole Shen.)

(and my vain 4B classmates w/ Fr. Paul.)

(these are the earliest people to get their luggage. the early birds, as quoted :D)

Writing. We kept writing at the reco. And until now I'm still writing, typing, talking, still typing, listening to music, thinking deep, asking tons of questions...it's a cycle isn't it? I'm trying to evade my essay writing! I need a little unwinding lol. I must say today's a pretty emo day for nature? It's been raining on and off all morning (hence I woke up late. haha.) and I'm kinda feeling the emoness as well.

Hmm. what else could I say? Oh, right, I should probably show my courage to face some stuff. It's really hard with the tension, the, oh, the everything that is happening now but, I think I should follow what my friends said. Yeah, most likely. Wish me the best of luck?

T2DO Today
-------------

For serious reasons:

TLE Test & Assign
Journal
English pantomime script
Calculus
Math
Lishr minor review of Tien Kong (Wen Ta finished!)
ACET Essay
UST App Form (print it!!!)

For leisure purposes:

Do some random doodling of human portraits (I do this all the time during class hours xD)
Get chords of some nice song (Fifteen and/or Butterfly Fly Away and/or The Climb)
Update my Random J, hopefully print some pictures of Reco 09?
Eating out at night. And pick out a nice outfit.

Actually, the leisure purposes I just need to get through life without having to ride a Roller Coaster again. I've probably puked now; I need to get out of it (Ya think?).

I still feel like writing. Waitaminute.

Oh, yeah, right, my sibs & I finally talked my mom into watching Hannah Montana The Movie so I watched last Sunday right after I had my own concert at home and singing to songs I used to listen before - haha, my family was probably pissed off with that. The movie was nice. But days before now I was really psycho, as in I'm kinda unsure of myself sorta thing - like I feel like why am I having this life -- oh it was AWFUL. So yeah I'd rather not talk about it. It's a psychological thing hahaha.

Okay. That's just it. I still need to write.

xo~

it never ends.

2009-07-15T18:37:00.002+08:00

I just got home from school, from Tagaytay's SVD Retreat House, from the 3 day break full of vanity, tears, laughing & eating (este, attacking.)

And now I am back to REALITY.

Oh, the reality of things...such a waste to hear but, oh well, I guess things end. And some don't? :)

I won't be posting pictures, as for the moment because I am VERY busy. Like so much crammed homework! Then...Li Shr test on Saturday! I need to adjust.

Just wanna say thanks to all those reco letters :) and the people who wrote 'em, I didn't expect the others to write even if well, it all made my eyes turn red & icky. lol.

And I <3 4B - the class shirt says it all. :)

xo/will update tonight or tomorrow. hahaha.

Two Hundred :))

2009-07-10T23:42:00.003+08:00

It's my 200th post! Shocking much?
I have been blogging on and off for four years now, if I'm not mistaken :) That's cool. Even if I got a lot of trouble at first ('cause, you know, i was still unaware of the consequences of writing online.) Anyhow, I'm very bored at the moment, it's 15 minutes till midnight, I'm not sleepy because of the caffeine, so I don't know what to do.

If I sleep, I'll just force myself. So I'd rather sleep when I'm really unconscious and groggy-ish. haha.

If I continue my Ateneo essay, my head would be throbbing and I'll get cranky. So I better continue tomorrow instead.

If I write in my journal, I'll feel lazy and instead of being creative, I'll end up ruining the pages. Aww that's sad.

If I stare @ the tv instead of the laptop, I don't think I'll be seeing anything interesting. In fact I'm on HBO watching Blades of Glory and just glancing. I'm not a fan. Speaking of movies, PS I Love You on Star Movies 9pm Sunday. Yay?

If I turn up my iTunes (which saddens me btw, i broke syoti's phones a few minutes ago...i'm dead.), I will get LSS and sick listening to Michael Jackson's Man In The Mirror and Jackson 5's I Want You Back - we listen to MJ EVERY DAY --ask my mom why. Idk her everyone got addicted.

If I keep typing about ifs I think I'll get sick of it. So I better stop :)

What else can I write about...
oh, right. I feel sad 'cause 20+ people haven't returned my reco letters...and I suppose 1/4 of them don't plan to. That's sad 'cause as of now Nix told me she has 35 total, so I gave away 20 more (=55. I know. soooo few. but let's face it; I'm not really that friendly) and I'm asking Tin & Nix to help me singil the people Monday morning (it's a fact I arrive school last minute lol) hopefully they'll get the job done!

I'm kind of anxious about our plan 'cause I'm sooo sure time is not in our hands. But I have to be optimistic if I want all the letters to make the cut, even if some weren't able to be laminated. Ahhhhhhhh :<

No more emo emo :) I'm such a biPolar freak :))
[misses Pepper Lunch. :((]

I'm glad I got over my FroYo craving from last summer. But, I have not gotten over my craving for Kozui Green Tea :)

Okay, signing out. I'm sort of...sleepy? Well my body's tired and not cooperating. Night.

xo~

T2DO.

2009-07-10T20:24:00.002+08:00

likes this acronym:) coolness.

Oh noes...I have A LOT to do & accomplish by Sunday.

Study Calculus (even if the test is moved)
Study Li Shr (because we're not around when the test is on)
Mao Pi Da Kai (at least it's da kai!)
Write a letter to one of our teachers :) I'll miss her :(
Write the remaining last-minute reco letters
Journal writing - RandomJ && For submission
Finish the ACET App Form
Start with the Ateneo essay (GASP.)
Fill up & Print the UST Online App Form and submit 2x2 pics & NSO Birth Certificate
Pack up for Reco! (and make a what-to-bring list)
Charge all gadgets (and eventually BRING the charger. watda?)
Reading Inventory?
Make script for English - Mythology by Edith Hamilton - Pantomime (why oh why was I the leader. lol.)
Figure out a plan to make everyone give back my reco letters before 7:30 AM on July 13, 2009 and let some other people sign on the spot. Can I/Nix/Tin do it???

Well I think those are my agendas for two days.
Please pray that I will survive :))

xo.

WHYYYYYYYYYY???????????

2009-07-10T18:45:00.002+08:00

I am so devastated at the moment because there are NO CLASSES tomorrow.
Okay, so Grade 1-A had 20 absent students, hence the whole class was sent home by 10 AM.

Well you could've just told the Grade Schoolers that there were no classes, and NOT the Highschoolers.

Reasons why I'm mad?

CALCULUS TEST. We're the only section without taking the test. And our Reco's on MONDAY. Watda???
RECO LETTERS. A lot of people haven't returned them and Kristin is having the first batch laminated by Nicole. So, people, if you have my reco letter return it to Kristin/Nicole on Monday MORNING. Final. My goodness this is giving me a headache :[
TAMBAK. all of our teachers have probably gone mad by now. so have I. After our reco i'm so sure i'll be dreading and having black eyebags. my goodness.

So yeah, if you think that's not enough reasons, think AGAIN.

I make the most of all this stress.

2009-07-09T17:09:00.002+08:00

-- from "Paranoid" - Jonas Brothers

It's such a weird thing that I listen to their song "Much Better" every morning when I head to school. I don't even take charge of the playlist! x) It shuffles by itself.

Anyhoo, there are certain times in my existence that I have nothing to say or I'm just not in the mood to share anything about my current state of the union. Lol :) Have things gotten better? Umm...I guess?

Countdown 'till Reco.09 - 4 days! :) I'm friggin excited. But I heard that in the other section some people got sick (because the water is cold - a fact my cousin told me as well) so I will bring a heater.

Hmm...oh, right. This week better be over because the stress level & pressure is almost fatal! x) Tomorrow's our first Hua Won test, I'm so nervous! Although I can say I pretty much master the lesson. And Saturday we're having a Calc test which really scares me. I've been sleeping superrrr late for the past few days, and my eyebags are deepening :[

What else can I write about...oh probably random stuff, like it was my first time to visit a convenience store? (watda!) Haha I mean it. And I had snacks ('cause I was really hungry) & ice cream (omg for hershey's dark. goodness.) w/ Ghia & Nix, since everyone else was fetched - club stay.

Oh, I haven't started - well I started w/ 2 sentences - writing my essay for the Ateneo app form. I do have a lot to say about the topic though -

Are there any significant experiences you've had, or accomplishments you have realized, that helped define you as a person?

Moving on...I'm speechless :X Wait a minute lemme check my journal.
Oh, right. It's sort of a pest in my life so I will shut up. Hahaha, I even made a comic strip watdaheck :))

Oh, I also read my journal # 3 yesterday. It's Updates on Life 2:On With The Journey and the journal was bought by moi @ Fully Booked. It's all about my 2nd year life after the fight I had w/ F4L. I can't believe I was such a freak then! Or as my friends quote, "Obsessed!" of what? a lot of stuff haha :D That was really embarrassing. I so hate that journal. My favorite is still # 2 && my recent one :) Oh, someday I'll take a snappie of all my journals and post it here. Coolness :> I'll go get a Lomo cam first :) If my allowance allows me to :) I need more x)

What else. Okay I need to wrap this up.

Current LSSes at the moment:
Man In The Mirror - Michael Jackson (I seriously love this song & its awesomeness.)
Fifteen - Taylor Swift (adik :O the guitar playing ? hands down!)
Over - Lindsay Lohan (I love this. And I miss listening to Lohan's songs.)

xo.

Over

2009-07-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

This song is by Lindsay Lohan. I rarely post songs but this song was my favorite since before, even if I didn't have a meaning to it yet or can't relate to it...now I can a bit. And fyi, i memorized every word in this song before. And I dloded it and I love it still. :)

From http://www.elyrics.net/read/l/lindsay-lohan-lyrics/over-lyrics.html

I watched the walls around me crumble
But its not like I won't build them up again
So here's your last chance for redemption
So take it while it lasts because it will end
And my tears are turning into time I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus:]
I cant live without you
Can't breathe without you I dream about you honestly
Tell me that its over
Because if the world is spinning and I'm still living
It wont be right if were not in it together
Tell me that it's over

And I'll be the first to go
Don't want to be the last to know

I won't be the one to chase you
But at the same time you're the heart that I call home
I'm always stuck with these emotions
And the more I try to feel the less I'm whole
My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

My tears are turning into time
I've wasted trying to find a reason for goodbye

[Chorus]

Tell me that it's over
Over
Honestly tell me
Honestly tell me
Don't tell me that its over
Don't tell me that its over..

Fortunate Much?

2009-07-04T19:25:00.001+08:00

Abigail just Discover His(Her) Fortune Cookies

Abigail recommended you to Discover Your Fortune Cookies

Abigail Claudine Sy just discover his (her) fortune is Excellent

WISH:At first it seems to be impossible,but later comes true.
EXPECTED VISITOR:Something is wrong with him(her). He(she) won't come.
BUSINESS:Don't buy now, or you'll lose.
STUDY:It's all right.
LOVE:You'll soon be happy.
TRAVEL:Put it off. It's not time to travel.

HAHAHA. Right.
I'm unwinding my Top 25 Most Played songs in iTunes. awesomeness :)

"When you love someone, and they break your heart, don't give up on love, have faith restart so hold on. " - Jonas Brothers. (Yes naman :> I love it!)

xoness~

The So Unknown.

2009-07-04T18:38:00.002+08:00

[title by Jack's Mannequin.]
Okay, this will be pretty decent.

It's unlikely to have subconscious thoughts bubbling around your brain without you yourself knowing why it still remains there. Or, hmm, maybe it's because you've been stuck thinking about it before and it hasn't faded out ever since? I don't know.

I can't say I hate life right now - it's going pretty well; I've change from being pessimistic and depressed [remember last year?] to being more optimistic and happy :> But of course not all the time. Maybe I'm becoming more open and expressive :) Nice to know. Life without having to emote and cry all day is good :) Except one thing I think about very rarely.

And despite the rareness (rarity? idk) I just had an awful dream about it. AGAIN aiya. It was awful awful awful to the max. I don't get it though, I don't really talk about you, think of you, (Insert any adjective here) of you; then why dream of you? (Take note: not a good dream, it was a bad one but not really a nightmare lol)

I think, too that I'm kinda used to seeing you every day and pretending that I see nothing (either ways, you do exactly the same, so whats the effin point?) is something I don't really take notice of (well yeah i d c at all. there's no point to it anyways) 'cause by all means, life HAS been much better w/o you in it (but not completely better, at least i don't feel too much burden or sadness about it.)

Anyways so much for my kaekekan entry, I just feel like writing about it.
But my door is always open for closure/apology/whatever.

xo.

i wish...

2009-07-03T23:25:00.002+08:00

people never created HOMEWORKS. i mean, come on :| it's awful.

Before anything else I need to list down my T2DO.

Study for Filipino Quiz (Pakikinig)
Study for Chinese (wala lang. pasipag effect.)
Photocopy Criteria Sheets (i'll shoulder the payment for that, 4B)
Siao Kai (damnation.)
Economics assign. (more like MATH.)
Do Filipino Theme.
Do Filipino Parable. (goodness gracious.)
Finish filling out ACET form. (3/4 done)
Start writing the essay.
Finish designing my jumpsuit (w/ fabric paint)

I'm doing all of those.... TOMORROW. I just have to. So I'll relax and unwind on Sunday.

Anyhoo...Reco's in a week! Kinda excited. We're going to Tagaytay! And Kristin's sponsoring is really awesome. I love the letter designs and her concept. Except it's all "I love you..." haha watda. I'm not that emo as I was before but I honestly loved the designs she got. :))

What else. oH, right...this Sunday I'm seeing my mat relatives, which gives me the chance to ask Jean about Senior Year! :) lolness.

And now my shoulders, back and arms are threatening me and they want to kill me. OUCH. And how ironic it is, I'm listening to a Xmas song right now. Imma skip to the next :< too awkward.

Ok, gtg. ryt now i'm chattin, listening to These Walls by Teddy Geiger (nice), uploading FB pics about my *awesome* summer 2009...yeah. is life good? I guess. 1/4 of it is not. YET. or maybe NEVER. I don't know...you decide.

xo~

the 411 on things

2009-07-02T09:28:00.002+08:00

As if my life's getting any better. I think the homeworks are about to load up next week.
At least the next week after that's our reco, which I'm excited about :) [Nicole's my roommate AGAIN hahaha] We're having a class shirt again! Yay! :) I've designed six yesterday and I'll let them vote. Although this time (unlike last yr) it's more...contemporary like a statement shirt :>

Anyhow our assignment for Friday?

Physics Test
Math Test
Huawon LingTse
Lishr LingTse (almost done w/ this)
Journal (done)
RI (i'll do it tom lol)
Economics (they haven't posted the file yet!)

Dead. lol x)

Nothing personal. Life has been pretty well (i like this year way better than last yr, esp the subjects & the class sked & the classmates) I guess, trying to avoid the "other" side of "pretty well" which is "pretty odd & pretty annoying" :|

Cooked some squash soup yesterday (it was my dinner w/ some large homemade croutons) and it was pretty good :> Except I think it needed to be thinned out more. && I drank Green Tea w/ Peach which I bought the other day....YUMMY! And the tea bags are reusable I think ('cause I reused them this A.M.) and luckily I was able to stay up until 12am for that (which I needed 'cause I did lotsa stuff...) :) >> I need to still at least get ahold of leisure time! (habang meron pa lol)

Anyways so much for the randomness, I just feel like typing :)
And is it just me but ever since MJ's death people kept on listening to his songs (including my mother, we have three cds -- Legends, Jackson 5 GOLD & one I burned from iTunes) and it's kinda...well not annoying, maybe I'll get sawa :))

>> Signing off.

hello headache. hello 190th :)

2009-06-28T11:41:00.003+08:00

My head is aching like crazy.
This is my 190th post. Yay :)

Just some ABC pics before school began. [yes, my brother is a "gift". hahaha.]

[well. he was coin bearer. better?]
[ june 20 ]

Heading out to Global City again later. Yay!

Anyhoo yesterday was a fun day, I suppose ('cause I was euphoric! haha! and hung out w/ my besties) except PE is weird. I so don't want to wear a sweatband. :| And I was really sleepy I couldn't contain it.

But I slept late haha :) lolness yesterday.

xo.
i miss summer :(

calmed, i guess.

2009-06-26T19:07:00.002+08:00

Well today was a shocker not only for me but like for the whole world to find out the King of Pop is dead.

Actually I didn't believe it at first, I was watching the news this morning and it said he was rushed to the hospital yesterday due to cardiac arrest.

It's really, really weird how the world's grieving over it :| Like there's some kind of silence....
The good part is even if he's dead his music's gonna live on for...uhh idk probably forever.

Okay anyways my day today is not much interesting but I got kind of pissed off when the afternoon came.

I can prolly say that I'm pretty talkative (or, TYPATIVE? lol) when I type but I am not in school (i act like a complete nerd in class!) so bear w/ me on that...lol :)) But I don't want to talk about anything concerning really odd things that are happening so far...oh idk maybe the fact that you always pass by and i always see you w/c is kinda annoying and i get this horrible tension so i quickly move away and pretend my eyes are fooling me as if i can't see and at least i don't pay much attention to those already...yeah that kind of thing. Haynako.

Awhile ago i got super pissed off this guy reprimanded me when I was crossing the street 'cause I wasn't looking DAW...well the other cars used the other lane and that was unfair because they can't do that! Ugh then yeah that pissed me off. I had a good day aheaddddddd :(

Whew at least now I'm calmed down. Tomorrow's Saturday! Weekend :)

xo~

nothing.

2009-06-25T11:23:00.003+08:00

Apparently the beginning of school does not make any sense.
I don't like going to school, but there's nothing to do at home by all means.

And there's no Signal No. 1 today. It's a warm bright sunny day.

Things to do:

Calculus note-taking (will have to do it right NOW)
fix my messy stuff
update random J
design J (for Eng)! i have no concept yet
make my life better by... idk :|

Speaking of "making my life better" although this is so off-topic, I had a horribly weird dream last night that mixed up all of the things that happened during the first two days of school...

(my mind must be REALLY imaginative.)

Some things I have done in the last week of summer:

Finished "Remember Me" yay :) Super nice :)
Bought JB's album double yay :) At least I'm not too LSS right now...I don't listen to music at the moment (Idk what is wrong with me i like to take breaks from doing hobbies like drawing, listening to music, tv, internet...blahdiblah...)
Watch loads of TV and BOF haha.

I'm super hungry right now.
Out.

2009-06-24T11:04:00.003+08:00

I'm going to go update my Illustrated Journal/random journal (i have no name for it yet) and be productive in life. I'm getting bored with the net (WHAT? haha).

Sana umulan. I would like someone to sympathize with me. :)

Ahem, Modeling by Nicole xD

dead & gone.

2009-06-24T10:13:00.003+08:00

OMG I HAVEN'T BEEN ONLINE FOR A WEEK.
Not that I hate it, due to the fact that school started a week later and I had quite good fun for the last week, things have been...way better without internet. :)

Let me recall...
Oh, last June 12th I had fun w/ Den & Steff, we had the "ultimate" jam session (lol) just tuning Den's guitar which is exactly like mine, only older :)) Then since we were hungry (oh I wasn't, just to satisfy my dairy craving) we walked two blocks to Amazing Cones and had pizza + ice cream :) Delish :)

Well that was my only fun for the week. The rest of the days I spent at home, watching TV, updating my journal, eating & eating (lol i made paninis! YUM) and sleeping really late (which I'm so dead of because my dermatologist kept reprimanding me!) oh and having BOF marathons, which I am NEVER going to get sick of.

And last June 20 we attended a wedding. my goodness the hotel people were not planning to let me in 'cause my temperature was 37.6 :))

Um yeah I guess the day before school (Sunday) was quite decent...except I was really sleepy but the Fathers' Day lunch we had @ Century was REALLY good :> & some grocery shopping @ SnR is kinda fun :>

Let's move on to the highlight of it all...
FIRSTDAYOFSCHOOL.
Hmm let me remember.

Oh my gad it was horrible.
NAH. It was a bit, but it was the most decent first day I've had in my entire school life.
Well except for the fact that the very first step i took in the main gate I saw that person (that I NEVER want to see. promise. ayaw ko talaga.) HAYNAKO.
Pati dismissal. ANO BA. (wala lang, all this time i just want to avoid his face. please lang.)

Well the rest of the day I just kept ranting, " Uwi na tayo! " and gladly @ 3PM we left school, oh, wait, was that school? It didn't look so much like before. I feel like I've entered a newly renovated mall of some sorts.

Oh btw I'm promoted! Girl Marshal for 2 years and then Secretary? watda :)) Kind of creeped out a bit pero I'm hanging on :) I have to do the Word Box later and buy so much school supplies (some dumb excuse for let's go walk and shop!)

Yay for no classes today & tomorrow.
Yay yesterday for super strong rain.
and for Japanese dinner & Frozen yogurt (sorry, addict talaga ako!)

Our teachers are pretty good. I haven't met all of them so...yun. Joyce hangs out with us a lot now, I'm happy to say :) I've missed a year of her.

Till I get decent enough to write more decent entries (or maybe a hate entry? emo entry? ay basta) I'll have to go... IDK :) Enjoy my free day.

xo~

D A S <3

2009-06-11T00:24:00.005+08:00

[one of my old photos with steff.]
[yes, i look very much different!! lol.]

I am a happy person today :)
I guess my mom forgave me. Weird term tho :|

I got Ahead notes from Den awhile ago and we just hung outside our houses (den, steff & me) and lol...i got a lot of insect bites, but i had loadssss of fun :) cant wait to see you guys again! super fun to catch up with things... and keep on laughing lolness :)

D A S is love <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_D4nhbAZ4RNo/Si_hwOoXt_I/AAAAAAAAAWI/hTp9OxkzANc/s1600-h/d.a.s.JPG"> [2006, @ EK :)]

[2007, Timezone photobooth.]

In Twitter language:

Seriously, @denise720 && @stefflabordo, we should take more recent & decent photos :>
We all look so...young :))

xo~
good day :)

saved! (hopefully)

2009-06-08T09:48:00.002+08:00

Let me just narrate what happened yesterday.

Finally I wrote some stuff in my randomjournal again. Now I know it's called an "Illustrated Journal" :) Thanks to the awesomest book I bought in my whole existence, probably :)

the "WAR" is semi-over I guess, but that probably doesn't mean I could convince her to let me watch Metro Station @ the Ayala Malls w/ Charm or, or going out w/ DAS which I can't wait for. I'm wishing....I'm wishing...

UGH I cannot believe summer is about to end, I feel like I need another week :>

So yesterday we took a different route on Sundays (I thought we were gonna stay home) and went to Bonifacio Global City, Taguig > I wanna live there! To be exact, we went to the Grand Hamptons residences to use the gym there :)) EVERY ONE of us used the gym, even my little sibs :)) I like the equipments they are newwww :)

[thegrandhamptons. i know. wow.]

After hitting the treadmill, bike, the random machines, my back and shoulders were already aching (remember: Wii Fit the day before) so we went to Bonifacio High Street, which I think is the classiest place to shop & dine & hangout in the whole Philippines.

[bonifacio high street.]
[the epidemy of high class shopping.]

First stop: Starbucks Coffee so I had a Green Tea frappe to cut some cals but I don't think it did :) Much better than coffee though :) And I checked Starbucks.com just now its actually 490 cals xD so much for not eating lunch :| Had some sandwiches :)

Second stop: Hobbes & Landes which wasn't really interesting, but I wanted to buy those cute toys that cost around P400 :>

Third stop: Fully Booked! which I loved 'cause of the 5 floors full of books and notebooks and random stuffs! I searched for "Cindy Ella" by Robin Palmer (which was suggested by Erika)

and I wanted to buy "Lucky T" too but it was the third person POV which I don't like. Went to FB w/ my aunt who bought Vegan recipebooks :> (she IS vegan) and then we were almost done but we went to the second floor (young adult) and I saw the Twilight: Director's Notebook OMG so cool I browsed through every page :) If you're a seriously obsessed twilight fan it's something you should buy, but I'm not a ultra huge fan and I didn't wanna waste P700+ :)

So then we went to the 3rd floor (religion) and I saw a corner of Self-Help books. And I stumbled onto a copy of this:

So I was like, ooh, interesting.
And I opened it. And OMG I really knew this may help me regain my artistry and creativity and it's for people who want to draw, how to find creativity in life again (that's me) and frustrated artists (that's sooooo me) so I'm going back to basics and hopefully this book will guide me to find my identity in art.

LOVES IT. I couldn't put the book down (although its on the floor right now xD) so I was like, I reallyyyyyy wanted to buy it (fully colored, P699) so my aunt said it's her advance Xmas gift :> I know, so long :) My bro naman he has advance gifts too for Bday & Xmas (Speed Stax which are sooo cool) so I'm not alone :) :)

YAY I'm so HAPPY about it :)
Sadly though, there are a lot of things I want to accomplish this week :(

My longggg list:

Study Chemistry, take practice tests, move on to Math, Stats, Trigo, Geom. Hopefully I'll finish by Wednesday.
Watch Metro Station (if my mom allows) - my excuse to go to the mall & hangout :)
Visit DAS - Den & Steff :) If possible, go out too! :>
Draw, draw, draw, be creative by reading The Creative License
Finish packing my school stuff

Uhh it's few but the first palang it takes a LOT of time.

Back to my events yesterday, we had dinner around 10 na because we still walked around the whole place :> @ TGI Friday's yum I devoured half a burger (i rarely eat beef), some soup and yeah :) I'm a happy living being :)

So I'm gonna grab breakfast, fix my things and get to work, uh, I mean, studying.

xo~

soon-to-be.

2009-06-07T00:59:00.002+08:00

I will someday become a frustrated artist.

Obviously because I am not doing anything related to drawing anymore. And not that I don't want to, I'm just not improving.

But let's hope that I won't end up giving up art. I would die if I did, it's one thing I will be remembered for anyhoo.

a taste of everything.

2009-06-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

Today is by far the most productive day I've ever had this whole SUCKish week.

I did A LOT of things today, and though I'm not quite done, at least I did each of everything :)

I can conclude that going to my aunt's house helps me be a productive person. I should go there often :))

And despite my mother's attempts to make me feel invisible I don't care by all means. Just to tell her it's NOT my fault I had a breakdown yesterday (without crying. WITHOUT.)

Read some TimeLife books - about arts/music & how our bodies work (omg, it's sooo kiddy but it was not boring so I had fun reading it!)
Browsed through my Chem notes (currently on Quantum Numbers)
Had a mini-siesta (in fact, me, my sis & my cous all slept, 2 of them were left playing Wii. so we were able to sleep with the noisiness :>)
Ate YUMMY chocolate - KitKat, crispier AND creamier OMG :)) I ate 3 packs of 2 wafers OMG I am going to gain so much weight, I want it to be school na :<
Then I used my MSA book to take a test about Gen Sci which was awful 'cause I got 69/100. But the wrong ones I really don't know the answers kasi :> So that's fine I guess.
Played Wii FIT. Which reminds me, I WANT ONE grabe :)) We played 2Player running (OMG that was so tiring), ooh I did some Yoga (which was cool) and Hula Hoop! Yay! It was so much better playing in Wii rather than in real life ('cause I hulahoop when I exercise. it's like a 3lb big ring I twirl on. tiring :)) and it was easier 'cause I'm used to moving my wideeee hips around lol :)) FUN FUN FUN.
Ate steak for dinner. My aunt cooks yummy food :) (walang kwenta yung Wii Fit, it probably burned the carbs I took in with the KitKat) with RED wine. OMG it tasted awful. I hate wine :<>
Oh let me mention I tasted the BEST jasmine tea ever. My aunt got it from a different country and the tea leaves were real :> Wow.
Lastly, I read a cookbook and the dishes were mouthwatering :O also ate some almond jelly w/ fruit cocktail. Something refreshing to clean my palate.

:)

Fun fun day, even if my mom won't talk to me.
Well she won't talaga.

xo. :)
I should go hula hoop tomorrow, if not I will be a pig .
lol. xD
Since my mom is deadma-ing me and I cannot go to the gym.
Oh well.
Cest la vie.

Mouth Shut.

2009-06-05T23:14:00.002+08:00

Really, I should do that more often.

So when I went home from Makati awhile ago I was pretty sleepy and annoyed. You can tell I had a HORRIBLE day.

But when I got online it was fun :) I chatted with lots of people which made me happy and laugh :)
So now I'm alone and my mum comes up asking the same question with the furious voice: "Bakit ka ba nagagalit kanina? Biglang hindi ka lang nagsalita!"

I could have a long detailed list of reasons, but since it'd hurt anyone's eyes to actually read such long, boring, list, I'll just sum it up.

1. I was extremely sleepy. Yawn.
2. I was talking and commenting and I feel like my cousin (since she knows SOOO much more than me) could just tell my mom what I wanted to say.
3. So yeah apparently I was like an invisible freak there following them like I'm some kind of bodyguard.
4. They don't even agree on me and care only about THEMSELVES.
5. I mean, I wanted to look at a corner of clothes and told them and the both of them just went walking past the other side, not caring if I didn't follow them.
6. So I started sporting the ugliest face I ever could make. I was REALLY pissed and I wished I didn't go nalang. I could've stayed home and studied puking Chem!
7. Of course I won't tell them why I got angry and shut myself up. But then again, who cares if they wound up still wondering why?

Oh and a last reason would be:
8. I'm terrifying angry and mad at how the world turns. How it goes. It's just not right. Most things aren't. So yeah.

There.
I'm not telling them why I got angry, but i'm posting it here.
They won't read it, anyway.

xo.

PS
Todays a horrible day.
But thanks to Erika, Charm, Nix, Joyce, FB chat w/ Mathew & Daph, I kept laughing all night.

Except it came to a halt when my mom got mad AGAIN.
Well yeah she ought to.
But behind everything she knows about me she doesn't really understand me. Only out, not in.

In fact, no one understands me.
How sad.
But I don't understand one bit of myself anyway.
So what's the effin point?

PPS
Finished The Undomestic Goddess.
Maybe this is why I kinda got angry at the world. But I loved reading every page :)
It was a definite pageturner:)

Night :)

Impressions.

2009-06-04T12:42:00.002+08:00

I am thinking I am writing very uninteresting blogs lately.
But sadly, my life is not really interesting as it sounds.

Okay anyways just wanted to tackle about impressions, mainly because :

1. I am reading a book that focuses on pretending someone you're not; e.g. a lawyer who just got fired but she really doesn't know life beyond the four-walled office ~
2. I'm probably confused whether to classify myself as an "Expressionist artist" or "Impressionist artist" but really, I'm too desperate to have my status (is that the right term?) as an artist > Abi, The Impressionist.

OMG it sounds like Ventriloquist x)
Gahhh, what the ekfjdskmxvj is wrong with me :[

3. I don't really feel like I deserve "good impression" when it comes to my attitude.

WHY?

Well, one of my aunts called in and she was like, "Why didn't you go? [to Dagupan, my grandparents' house ; it's a Thursday so everyone went.]" and I replied, "I'm studying." She was like, "For what?" I was like, "College entrance exams" so she just said I was soooo bait. Okay. Yeah.

And another thing, feels weird when people say, "Sipag mo talaga! Grabe!" or something like that. Or I am just being too humble but in my mind I am like, "Whuttttt????"

===

Ok I am becoming a weirdo right now.
I should stop.
But anyways.
There's just something about staying in and wearing loose house clothes (that is so comfortable!) and sitting in a comfy couch, typing or reading some random chick lit book or watching an addictive Koreanovela that keeps me contented about my life.

Maybe 'cause I keep going out this week. It saddens me.

Actually I would prefer having no maids here so they won't have to go up and clean stuff or call me when it's time for lunch. It's 1 now, I'm not hungry at all. I'll decide what time I'll have some caloric intakes. (Had cookies for breakfast again. WTH? and some Soymilk I had to finish. And bread. talk about those, I'm not hungry at all! hahaha.)

So yeah don't think I'm all good 'cause I'm SOOOO not.
And now I'm going to tun on the air conditioning unit 'cause I'm sweating undeniably despite the fact that strong rain came awhile ago. Can't it just continue its job making the sky gloomy and freezing the weather so I don't need to turn on the aircon and save electricity and save the earth and i should stop typing now 'cause I don't really write like this and I'm terrifyingly bored but I'll continue reading The Undomestic Goddess so i could escape from reality which is my favorite thing.

Yes, thank goodness I stopped that sentence.

Until I get bored again and have something tacky and pointless to write about ;)
xo.

"Jake, run!"

2009-06-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

[scream!]
[the vampire vs. werewolf duel is ON.]
[i must say, Jake looks semi-hot narin xD but i still like Edward's sharp/white face.]
[it looks so much like a CG. Wow. I'm astonished by it wow wow wowwwww.]
xo.

wobbly wednesday.

2009-06-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

About the title: watda?
I am such a fuh-reak. :)

So today I have nothing to do, as in I literally wanted to lay in bed (ahem, lazyboy couch rather) and just listen to my shuffled iPod songs and eventually take a siesta. But no, I couldn't do that.

Although I can say today was a day full of CARBS ( chocolate chip cookies & gummies for breakfast, anyone?), PAIN (my face was stuck with tonsssss of needles) and CHILLS (i got quite wet 'cause of the rain). Lol much?

I've started reading "The Undomestic Goddess" by Sophie K. It's pretty cool. I'm now on page 70, probably gonna continue later. It's getting much more interesting the more I flip the pages :)

Anyways, besides that, I did some random doodling at my random notebook today.

Wow, that's Sooooo random :>

Seriously, I did. I even drew two ladies in semi-portrait. Glad I could still do that, I miss drawing like hell, I can't imagine not drawing for a year :| Okay let's not be too OTT hereeee :)

Things I did today that I usually DON'T do:

listened to tons and tons of music (and never got sick of it! i <3>
ate lots and lots of gummy bears (because we went to Sofitel yesterday)
ate lots and lots of food (i'm supposed to be eating, ahem, "healthy"... whatever, i binged today)
drew. nuff said. never drew anything for months.
watched "Awimbawe" on YouTube. 'cause it reminded me of ArtsWork. and my siblings couldn't stop laughing at the uberly obese cute, grey hippo :)

Yeah that's just about it. I was really devastated of myself yesterday, hence I didn't make an entry. I was really frustrated because of some news. But now it's kind of shut so yeah, I should just trust myself better that this coming schoolyear, I will...

I will try to make a list of resolutions for the new S.Y.

Stop being emo. 'cause it just sucks.
Wear glasses, so that I could see everyone and smile at them and say Hi so they won't get scared of my evil, devilish, scary squinting eyes (i am NOT evil. hahaha. hello there ;D)
Make more friends, so I won't end up crying during makabayan day & chinese day, the two hatest days in my school calendar.
Be more helpful. I am really liking the job Airra will / might / uncertainly offer me. I like :D
Study harder. I want a bright future.
Pick the right courses at the different college universities I opted to apply in : ADMU, DLSU, UST, CSB (ADMU! crossing my fingers!)
Lastly, not be emo about this person when i see him and i hope never to see his face again so i will be able to wear a happy face everyday (sorry, sama ko, not blaming you or anything. it just works that way.)

There. I will accomplish all those.
For sure.
Maybe.
Let's see :>

xo.
next entry: new moon poster which i like :)

the "awkward" silence.

2009-06-01T19:02:00.003+08:00

I remember Erika telling me in ArtsWork that when there's an awkward silence, it can only mean one thing : a GAY is born.

OMGad that is sooo random but who knows if it's true?

But I didn't know another thing would be if you have the awkward silence with a person, there must be something between the two of you. True love, perhaps? Gah, whatever, I do wonder if there is such thing as an awkward silence, let alone if there's something like true love itself.

====

As much as I wrote a bulleted list of what I'm supposed to be doing today, I ended up doing only two of them, which were:

Read Rosie Dunne. (and finished it.)
Know my section. (Section B.)

Change of plans is what you call it. Anyhoo, I preferred staying indoors today, drenched in the super cold air conditioning unit, drank iced Milo and yummy chips, listened to Hannah Montana and Jonas Brothers' songs (yes, I am one of their fans) to pump up my mood (which I like, 'cause Miley's songs really get me in a good mood), labeled my books (haven't wrapped yet), read Rosie Dunne (i keep mentioning it!) and took a nap, and finished reading the said book, my family members went home kinda pissed off (they're always like that without me, hmmm....), munched on a delicious original glazed Krispy Kreme doughnut, and now going online blogging about it.

:)

Anyways.
I have this really weird fact to share.

When I read books, or when I finish the last sentence of the book rather, I always have this weird expression on my face which I cannot utterly describe, but I do have that expression and it's crazy. I don't smile. I look dumbfoundedly in shock.

Maybe it's just because I don't prefer things to eventually end so soon.
I mean, when I read Twilight twas either I smiled at the end or put on a sad face.

Speaking of Twilight, I've watched the New Moon trailer! OMGness :O Jacob looks good na din. It's a tough match but Edward looks so much better in this new movie 'cause I think Rob Pattinson acts better here, so does Kristen S.

Anyways my laptop is running low on batt, gotta jet before it runs out completely!

PS if you want to read Rosie Dunne, you have to like reading e-mails, chats, letters and the like.

Well I do :)

and you have to dig deep on the whole storyline. i laughed at the other parts though :) so funny :>

xo.
is not ready for SHHHCCCCKULLLLL.

Lines, Vines & Trying Times

2009-06-01T09:04:00.002+08:00

that phrase is so cool. iloveit.

Anyways, I'm up this early to check the sections. Which are taking sooo long to load, but I can imagine. Imagine about 2000+ or more students wanting to view it...ugh they should've just gave us class permits and all is well. Except, one benefit of this would be seeing who your classmates are. *scream!* I hope to be classmates with good people. Yun lang. Not people who would haunt me (I didn't have that last year, thank goodness, but i didn't really like our class last year) again & again. I'm already sick of it :>

One more thing. IDK why I didn't like the Jonas Brothers' Third Album "A Little Bit Longer"... I just disliked it (hey, my opinion! don't kill me or what!) hopefully their fourth album (which I might buy) would sound much better and more like their second album (Jonas Brothers) which I really liked and got super addicted to.
[cover of their fourth album.]
[i like it.]
[except why does Joe have curly hair too? :<]
[it saddens me :( i liked it straight!! ]

I'm downloading "Fly With Me" which was the credits song (what? weird term) of Night at the Museum 2 (which I repeat, I didn't like). :>

Speaking of curls I was really bored yesterday after we went to Shang (wherein I saw two batchmates) so I was experimenting my hair and doing a "messy-bun-artist-look" hmmm it looks quite good. Then I got the curlingiron/straightiron (2-in-1) and curled my hair. It took a long time 'cause I had to style it pa and stuff but it looks really cool hahaha. I am soooo not gonna post the pic here :)) It's for private viewing (by myself) only :))

Anyways I gotta run.

Today I:

have absolutely no plans of studying. will try to squeeze though. i will do studying tomorrow. i swear to lock myself in my little room, turn on the aircon, and the iPod, clear all the stuff in my desk, and put all my studying materials and study until i finish (thats what I did during the chem PT. hahaha)
will probably go to the gym and burn all the yummy beef pepper rice I ate yesterday at Pepper Lunch (again.)
is going to torture myself at the derma. it's my fault I kept sleeping at 1am.
NEED to know my section. NEED.
of course, am going to read Rosie Dunne.
and lastly, make my day productive.

xo.

looking good ... not?

2009-05-31T17:14:00.002+08:00

I might be ecstatic lately, but things do bounce down.
I was mentally pissed off awhile ago, but it usually happens during Sundays, so I don't blame anyone on that. Except myself.

Yesterday was B.O.R.I.N.G.! I spent the whole day not studying (hay, when will i ever?) but reading Rosie Dunne by Cecelia Ahern (below)

So far I'm half way through reading non stop emails, chat, letters of Rosie to Alex & vice versa and also the other characters. Which is cool 'cause I like snooping on people's lives :>

Yeah and anyways after that we went to Jean's house for a party that I just spent binge eating. (wala talaga kwenta magdiet kapag summer. FACT.) Nah, kidding, the food was yum naman. Then we rushed up and I kept reading, socialized with my elderly cousins, played Wii's golf and Dance Dance Revo, where we all smelled my cousin's stinky feet! Hahaha :>

Today's not much of a good day. I haven't even put entries (or I mean, DESIGNED my entries) in my random notebook yet. I guess I'm just not in the mood. Not a productive morning. I just kept ranting on how lazy I am to go to the temple (YES, It's so nakakatamad! Super!) and I even said, "If I'm not mistaken I only have thirteen nights left to sleep late and fourteen days to wake up late!" so yeah, OA me. LOL.

Awhile ago we went to the temple and sweated and it rained so it was horrible. And the CR was creepy. Who knows :|

Okay, let's get straight to the point. Some short randomness only 'cause I gotta run.

There's just something about looking good that makes me very... eager to look good. But not in a over-the-top manner. Just picking a decent outfit for me is hard. I have no idea why. Plus, I'm very critical about myself so I can't just throw a plain top and jeans and pull it off.

Actually, sometimes I have no idea what I wear, really.

Anyways I have to cut short. Gotta go to Shang! Yes, again.
At least, I'll have a productive-ish day. :))

xo~

old friendships

2009-05-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

I miss my neighbors. My best friends, to be exact.
It's just that, maybe we're all busy? With our own lives.
Yes, kinda.

We're growing up already, and it's like those childhood memories are slowly fading away.
Hopefully someday we'll be able to catch up on each other. :)

Thank you for giving me awesome summers when I was young.

xo, abi

[ace&shang4.28.07]

How well do you know Abigail Sy?

2009-05-29T22:52:00.001+08:00

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Take my quiz!:)

what a day. :> :) :D

2009-05-29T22:09:00.003+08:00

I went out with Nix, and wow. Ang tagal namin. 12nn - 8pm, including the ride. Ganyan kami katagal.

Location: Shang! After 6pm, Podium. mall hopping kami :)
Stuff we did: (from home)

* Nix went here 8am. AGA noh?
* So I ate breakfast, we used the laptop.
* I watched Confessions of a Shopaholic. Nicole SLEPT. :D
* She still slept. After that, we left for Shang.
* Ate Lunch. Pepper Lunch, specifically. Yay :) Yum!
* Watched a movie, to waste time. Night At The Museum 2. IMO, I don't like it. Sorry :<
* Went to National Book Store (my paradise!). Applied for Laking National, bought Sophie K's The Undomestic Goddess.
* RusTan's to fetch mom (she was alone.)
* Plains & Prints, VNC, Bossini, Shoe Salon (nakaupo lang kami. I did buy a dress though. my mom did the shopping.)
* Podium! To get the crocs mom saw at Shoe Salon na may size pa daw :>
* Delifrance. Clubhouse, Pasta.
* Bestsellers! Yay! This time, Remember Me? still by Sophie K.
* Yogurbud. Froyo! Ayaw ni Nicole. Maasim daw. (i love yogurt, lol)
* Shoe Salon. get the shoes.
* Uwi. Pero traffic. It rained soooooo hard :) So we took pics. :D

[meet Tom. Nicole's kipling friend.]
[dressed up as a clown/jester. lol.]

[ at Podium.]
[pasensiya na, i really love this place.]

[we love Sophie K.]
[bought them today!]

[ooh you get to see my random notebook.]
[Nicole's making pakialam :)]

[yes, I am a fan of Hannah Montana.]
[i want to watch. NOW!]

xo-ness :)
BOF time :> :D

With all these stuff, I don't know how can I squeeze in browsing through my BIO & CHEM notes, plus MATH. How??

HELP!!! :(
2 weeks left.
Summer isn't enough. It's never enough anyway.

PS Tough rainstorm awhile ago. Keep it coming. I don't want to set foot in SJ by the 15th. maybe by the 30th :))

YUM.

2009-05-28T17:28:00.001+08:00

Since I just ate a mini pizza cone from Amazing Cones, it's a fact that I don't feel so full.
Well I did a bit of shrimp flavored chips which tasted bland. BLAND.

I want Kooltwist! Last time I ate them? LAST SUMMER. with Steffi.
Last summer was so long ago. And I don't even contact Steffi anymore. See?

BTW my 170th post! :)
xo~

fierce!

2009-05-28T11:47:00.002+08:00

ahem, Photo shoots.
it was really fun. never done anything like it before :>

all editing by yours truly.
xo~

ecstatic!

2009-05-27T21:46:00.002+08:00

I am feeling really happy right now, like things are getting so much better.

Yayness! I noticed. I keep laughing, smiling, I rarely fake a smile ('cause all of it IS real), I don't listen to emo songs, I make myself busy doing things I like...

I hope this keeps up. I just hope.

Goodbye yesterdays! Yes, you were my yesterday.
I just noticed, sorry, but, everything is so much better without you.
EVERYTHING about me is changing.

I've never been this happy so far in my own existence. :)
Sometimes I never realize what the hell is going on with me lol.

Oh, BTW, my "lost" mugshot which I edited.
Trust me, I look like a freak in the picture.

revamp n redone.

2009-05-27T18:50:00.001+08:00

I know, i know.
I love making over my site. Maybe every month?

But I reckon I still will, as school's fast appraoching :>
Because, well, new look, new concept.

Imagine.
wowness.
:>

what dyou guys think?
xo~<3

summer loves & raves :)

2009-05-27T13:37:00.004+08:00

Last year I wrote an entry about a "Secret Love" (Hana Kimi) and a "Forbidden Love" (Twilight). Which were two things I was addicted to during that time. (FYI, I hated summer after 2nd yr. it simply SUCKED.)
Here's the link if you're interested to read: Two Kinds of LOVE

But now, I've replaced them :> Nyahahaha >:)) to something so much better that after reading & watching these ... stuffs I still get the hang of it. :)

1. Boys Over Flowers (kkobotda namja)

Who doesn't love this series? :)

Funny and optimistic protagonist, Geum Jan Di (fighting!) accidentally gets a scholarship to the prestigious Shinhwa High by saving a guy who wanted to commit suicide because of the F4 RED CARD. So yeah, and then Jan Di meets Ji Hoo, and falls for him (ahem, soulmate) 'cause he keeps saving her from Gu Jun Pyo's attempts of letting Jan Di surrender from his terrible tactics. And then he develops feelings for Jan Di. Wow, the more you hate , the more you definitely love. :>

In the end, well, go watch it and find out. There are a lot of plot twists and turns.

I give this a five stars ★★★★★ :)

Review:
(ahem, so professional-much?)
I keep watching this even if I finished it already by the 2nd week of April.
'Cause it's a nice mix of romance & comedy with a light drama. Although Jan Di is not that pretty, I kind of liked it that way 'cause people are soooo stereotypical these days and it kind of breaks that thought about people. Of course, how can I not forget the good-looking F4 to the point that they are even more beautiful than me x) lolness. I like Kim Bum :) Yay :) and Ga Eul :) Yay :)

BTW their OST is really nice, I love all their songs! Preferred ones are: What Should I Do - Ji Sun, Paradise - T-max, Fight The Bad Feeling (Dance ver.) - T-max, 가슴이 어떻게 됐나봐 - A &T, Wish Ur My Love - T-max & J.

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2. Can You Keep A Secret?

Emma Corrigan, your typical twenty-something Marketing Assistant at the Panther Corporation, gets in big trouble as she accidentally spills all her random secrets to a stranger (male, to be exact) in a plane. Astonished, she decides to forget about it and move on with her boring, old life. Until she finds out that he is Jack Harper, the CEO of Panther Corporation.

And all hell breaks loose.
Nah, just kidding. Emma's life gets topsy turvy as she tries to keep it steady and get her life into place. But what if all her little secrets get blurted out?

This book will definitely get you going, you won't be thinking twice whether to read it.

Spoiler: GOOD ENDING, but it is BITIN. :<>

I give this a good four-star rating: ★★★★ :)

Why four stars?
I thought it would be another boring Sophie Kinsella book, 'cause I didn't really like the Shopaholic series that much. But I was wrong :) Anyhoo, it's an awesome book :)

Review:
I just finished reading it, actually. I ditched Science for chick lit x) Smart huh?
Thanks to Erika, for forcing me to buy the book at Bestsellers :>

I like the light feeling, not heavy drama (I loathe those, actually) and I come to realize that of all genres of books, I prefer mostly Chick Lit :) a little romance, a little friendship life, work life. It's nice to sneak into a person's head (like what usually happens when one reads a book, since it's in the first-person POV.) and know his/her (preferably her) thoughts.

I also like the novel's simple take on feminism haha. It's kind of funny. And of course the romance thing. Makes me wonder if there's such thing as that.

Although this is chick lit, it's not for young people, like below 15 or something. Contains a little x-rated stuff, which kind of disgusts me but it's only a few.

But the storyline is really cool, I want to read it over & over :D

BTW it's going to be made into a movie, but I'm disappointed because Kate Hudson will be cast as Emma Corrigan. I mean, Emma is not skinny, she weighs 128 lbs.! xD And I'd rather have a not-so-pretty protagonist (ahem, stereotype) against a goodlooking love interest. LOL. If they're both beautiful (like in Twilight) I reckon it makes any sense at all.
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Okay, yeah, so go buy a fake DVD or watch BOF at ABS-CBN, 6pm, weekdays.
And go buy a copy of Can You Keep A Secret? by Sophie Kinsella for only P259.

:) :> wth I'm plugging? x)

xo~
P.S. summaries written by yours truly. (c) to me!

UHOHS.

2009-05-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

Apparently my layout was deleted by moi, so I have to find a new layout in blogskins, since, I am out of time to make layouts for myself.

I still have to review Science, Math & English.

And at the moment, my legs are aching. So is my back and my shoulders. Poor me:(

Night! ~

life after ArtsWork.

2009-05-24T18:06:00.002+08:00

Is like a plain canvas. I'm completely drained. lol.
Kidding aside, since yesterday I've been having a terrible headache that goes on and off. Let's just hope it stops, 'cause it sucks! :)

Anyways, since I haven't written anything in my random notebook (it has no name yet), I better write some whatevers here. 'Cause I'm bored. And tomorrow, REALLY, SURELY, HOPEFULLY, HAS TO BE, the day I start continuing my review for Science. I SHOULD. Or else, I'm DEAD. D-E-A-D. I might not get into Ateneo, which will, really, terribly sadden me.

I still want to see that awesome place and buy another shirt :>

Speaking of Ateneo, things have changed since I've gotten there.

Because of ArtsWork, I've been able to...

Be more confident in myself. So true. I probably prefer them more than my batchmates. (what??) haha. Kidding. They make my life interesting by all means.
Laugh often. Which feels soooo good. Well, yeah, Erika always makes me laugh, so, that works :)
Find my style. I can dress WHATEVER I want during the workshop, and it's cool 'cause of our dresscodes :) I will really miss that.
Take a lot of pictures. Nuff said. :>
Socialize with different kinds of people, well not all, but you know, you talk to everyone, say hi, smile, those stuffs. I don't do that in school. as in wala.
Be a part of the SESQUIBATCH of ArtsWork! Yay! :))

I'm still reminiscing the stuffs in ArtsWork. Like I feel it's not over yet. I mean, I never realized how fun it was until it was over, so, thanks so much to the School of Humanities for accepting me :) I mean come on these people are sooo talented and it's an honor to be part of them :> :>

Anyways, yesterday was really awful because:
1. I woke up late, went to my grandrents' house, had a headache. But it became better when I bought a dress and PJs in tutuban :> [yes, I thrift-shop but I do it wisely ;)]
2. I started to degrade myself again, which I have been trying to get over for months. Right now though I'm not anymore. :)

And today was a so-so day because:
1. I didn't buy anything at MOA. But I just wasn't in the mood to shop. I wanted to go to NBS but I wasn't able to (that is by far my favorite store. ever. ever!!)
2. The Science Discovery Center (which we went in for free) was not really interesting. I do like the ambiance. I feel like I'm in HK/Japan. (I WANNA GO :( CURSEYOUSWINEFLU >:( )
3. Still have a headache. Ouchies.

So yeah, tomorrow I will probably/maybe/hopefully/MUST:
1. Review! Study! Currently reading Integrated Science.
2. Not read "Can You Keep A Secret?" by Sophie Kinsella first. Should study.
3. Maybe, if my mom's in the mood,or if we wake up early, hit the gym. (I never do this. I get in for free xD 'Cause I rarely go naman eh. But yeah. Sana. Or not. Whatever na.)

As of now, I am:
1. Uploading pics in Multiply
2. Going to finish reading the novel - it's nice ah! In fairness, I prefer it over the Shopaholic series, which I never finished.

BTW Last Friday was my sister's birthday! So we went to CPK and had dinner. At first I was really pissed off but in the end I just kept laughing :> :> Because of our inside joke we couldn't tell sorry >:)

Anyways I'm signing off at the moment. :)
ArtsWork ArtsWork ArtsWork :))
Wala lang. Really gonna miss it :>

xo~<3

Visit my multiply for more pictures. I've posted the ones during semiformal/prom day & our last day pics :>

And if you wonder why its public, it's because Nadine's gonna view it. haha :) Or else it would be for contacts only. :D

today is THE DAY.

2009-05-22T14:21:00.005+08:00

Just some photos from today's activities.
But there's more on other ArtsWork peoples' cameras.
Pasteal later :)
I now have to find a way to develop them all and put it in an album:> without moneyspending too much :>

[whats written in my page.]
[i have NO MUGSHOT:(]
[i love my broadway hat! :))]

[with mikko & nadine.]
[my NY tophat!:>]

[it's David Archuleta! yay! :> kidding.]
[he does look like him.]
[with Luis. and my signed shirt.]

[some things just need some attention.]
[my signed shirt, certificate & brochure.]

[last few pictures before leaving!]
[mai, patrick, nadine, erika, henni.]
[gonna missyouguys!]

xo~<3