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So it's a few days until Christmas.
It's just unusual how this year's about to end.

Hmm. Our Xmas break has begun today, but I still need to head to school later for our Sportsfest.
Go Seniors!

RTFTW:

• We lost. It's just that I feel like when I join something I never win. Nevertheless, our voices weren't loud, I did my best in projection, but apparently some did not. I think they said we even placed 4th. Either way, luckily I got out of my depression state yesterday in the afternoon LOL-ing at our shooting for the Jose Rizal movie thing. From the beat boxing (c/o Charm) to the funny incidents and stories plus gift opening with Nix, I've recovered much :)
• I got a total of 5 notebooks! Wow. And I got a lot of necklaces. my jewelry box is like, full. xD
• Excited to shop & have a mini photo shoot w/ Nix on Saturday, Dec. 19 :) Woot. Maybe, just maybe, I may finally have a post for lookbook :) LOL.
  
• I'm still undecided whether to spend my savings on those flat boots from Zara, or the band vest still from Zara or to buy mary janes, a beanie, lace tights and tops instead of the above mentioned Zara items. Aaaaaah.
• I want a Canon Powershot for graduation! xD
• I think I'm too materialistic. It's just that I wanna look good in Dubai xD
• and for all the days of my life xD
• Anyways, it's Xmas Break! WOOT.
• You're so useless.

MY CLOSET
I just bought super lots of stuff since the end of November until now.

• Topshop Dark Vio Cardigan
• The Ramp suede violet booties
  
• MNG Xbody bag
• BAYO red sailor-ish dress
• Giordano full-length semi-glossy leggings
  
• St. James Bazaar sequined ponytail
• St. James Bazaar vintage heart necklace
• St. James Bazaar violet wavy headband
• 168 Mall Harajuku Lovers bag
• 168 Mall grey & black striped knee high socks
• 168 Mall gold wired star necklace
• 168 Mall Eiffel Tower clock necklace
• WTC Bazaar fake Ray-Ban clear lens wayfarers
• WTC Bazaar grey braided headband (I love this!)
  

MY DRAWER
Stuff I bought that are not pieces of clothing xD

• Teen Vogue December/January
• St. James Bazaar scrapbook paper
• WTC Bazaar mail box coin bank (super vintage. super legit!)

THANKYOU
I opened some gifts the past few days. 2 left under the tree. HAHA. Sorry, I'm kind of..old already so my siblings have more gifts than me xD

• Silver detailed bangle from Jean
• Anna Pashmina gold crumpled wristbag from godparents
• Golla case from godparents
• Crabtree & Evelyn Jojoba Oil Soap from godparents
• Elle B/W bag from godparents

THANKYOUFRIENDS
I got 5 notebooks FTW!

• Scribe Plain Notebook from Sarah (my next journal woot!)
• Personalized Spiral Paisley Notebook from Ellie (superrrr cool \m/)
• Eiffel Tower organizer (FUNctional xD) from Jenyap (thankssss)
• Moleskine mini autumn red color (set of 3) from Charmosaur (exchange gift TYVM!)
• Moleskine baby aqua blue (set of 2) from GeGe (super cute)
• Eiffel Tower necklace from Yunini (aaaaah!)
• Heart & guitar necklace from Joyce :)
• Chef Tony Popcorn from Joca (lolness)
• Cute socks, cell charm, cute pen & bracelet from Nix
• Super cute alien cell charm from Tin
• Squishy sort of thing from Alvin
• Cell charm from Mang Jani
• Starbucks necklace from Jenyap (Kris Kringle)
• Cake towel from Lynn (Kris Kringle)
  

I forgot the others xDDD But thanks!

I still have a lot of things to accomplish this Xmas Break.

Off to do my list!
xo

It's really a fact that I love making lists. xD

New perspective

I can say that the littlest of things can alter an entirety of myself.
Not for bragging purposes, but I'm glad my hard work paid off. Finally.

It's a different Sunday for me today, opening the laptop at 7 in the morning. What happened to me lol. Anyways, I'm hoping I get a lot of shopping bags today >:) I'm paying half of it tho ;D

Nope. Nothing to write.

Playlist:

• Careful - Paramore
• Turn It Off - Paramore
• Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore
• Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
• New Perspective - Panic at the Disco
• Drop Out (The So Unknown) - Jack's Mannequin
• The End Where I Begin - The Script
• All At Once - The Fray
• Pasko Na - Bukas Palad
• Fireflies - Owl City
• The Bird & The Worm - Owl City
• The Saltwater Room - Owl City
• Tip of the Iceberg - Owl City
• Cave In - Owl City

To see nothing in the light.

I have not updated both my Gazette & this blog. Is that bad?

Despite the fact that I do want to update my life and make it memorable 24/7, if I am lazy, I AM lazy. I'll deal with it.

On the brighter side, I've been enjoying these past few days (: Even if I thought wrong.

I wasn't ecstatic I got honor, but I wasn't sad either, so that's good. Okay. Fine. I'm glad I did get in the list. If I didn't, I'd ditched Third Qtr. Promise.

Anyways, other things that have occurred this week:

• Choir Practice - I'm no singer, but I can sing, that's for sure. Batch choir for Xmas Chorale Contest. I've got my fingers crossed! People there are interesting I guess. Even if, well, I don't want to see some of them. They're okay. I don't hate practices all of a sudden anymore :)
• Batch Play Auditions. Considering I was the #3 I was one of the firsts to perform. I'm crossing my fingers!
• Card Distri Day. The day when I was shocked to know I got in. I'm happy I suppose :)
• Oh, I bought a dress awhile ago. WOOT for that! From BAYO. a red one. awesomeness \m/ Can't wait to post looks on lookbook.nu when I find the perfect shoes for it!

Well. Random.

Oh, yeah, the other day I tried not eating after 6. And my stomach erupted. I dreamt of someone before I woke up with a squealing stomach. What a weird dream T___T

I'm off now (:

Don't get shocked if I will keep writing about fashion stuff and random thoughts about it. I've been sketching once again, I love it! Might study fashion after college.

xo!

I am not myself

There's something about this layout that doesn't convince me or persuade me to write an entry here. Which is...weird.

Certain times in my life I've felt this. Like some kind of demon enters through me, and despite all the productivity I've had so far, my head hurts, my mind wanders, I get some kind of weirdo memory loss and I turn berzerk and later on, I don't get to study well.

I am done w/ Chinese & Math, though. But I need to brush up on Chinese.
I still have Physics, and the Don Quixote script + puppet drawing.

Talk about my life.

I really don't like to be the leader for the nth time! I am sick of it. But what the heck can I do. Oh well. Maybe it's a way of saying I need to work my butt off since I've been emoting for the past few days like hell- as you've noticed, reading the entries below.

Luckily I got ahold of myself, I hope. I'm currently telling myself to hang by the moment and not fast forward too much. As much as I'm pretty ecstatic to watch New Moon, go Xmas shopping for C, L & B (cardigans, leggings, boots & other items!) , celebrate Christmas, post on LOOKBOOK and turn 17, I still need to know that there is such thing called SCHOOL.

And all the drama that goes with it. It's one hell of a ride by all means. New seating arrangements have been done, tomorrow's the beginning! I will miss my seatmates :( And all the randomness. On the bright side, I've been placed in the middle row, 2nd seat! YAY. I know I should groan, but if I want to be productive, I need to sit there.

So that's all for all the info. I have yet to do other things. Gah.

Oh yeah I have a playlist now. New one! It's a mix of pop rock & electric.

• Fireflies - Owl City
• The Bird and The Worm - Owl City
• Turn It Off - Paramore
• Meet Me On The Equinox - Death Cab for Cutie
• Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
• Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore

Just those. lol.
See ya!

8 days till New Moon.
42 days till Xmas.
62 days till I'm seventeen.
(:

Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
Cool. New "term" - Yuletide (Xmas) Seventeen (bday) \m/
It's so ironic I like using \m/ lol. I'll get over it soon :]

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
CLOTHING EDITION

• Suede Booties
• Topshop dark vio cardigan
• Body bag ('cause my Zara one faded out)
• Minidress (lots of weddings next year. 5 i think.)
• Nerdy glasses (4B nerd theme please!)
• P O L A R O I D
• In short, I'd love to have a shopping spree :]

PERSONAL EDITION

• 2nd honor
• Closure w/ people
• Spend time w/ D A S 'cause I've been missing them!
• Have a fun Xmas.
• I would actually love to go to HK.
• Be more open to things and accept life.

Notes to self + Goals this Xmas

• Avoid buying graphic tees. I have too much.
  
• Buy more blouses, and shoes, and as always, hoping for the cardigan Y_Y
• Never think to myself that I suck. (@charm_next_door)
• Post looks on lookbook.nu starting next year, hopefully I'll have an updated closet
• Enjoy every second of 2009 before it's gone

I am blank. Haha.
To be updated

Patience is a virtue

13 + 48 + 67 days!
New Moon. Xmas. Seventeenth.

I can't wait 'till the Eighteenth!

Moving along, I'm in the present now, regardless of all those future things I am not sure will happen. gah creepy x___x

Anyways, as if I live a good life! I'm practically drowned in my own thoughts, locked in my own world, trying to escape from things I dislike the most. Which is very, very psycho of me. Like I don't know myself or who I am or to what is my extent in life.

I need a psychological analysis on my life.
Or I may be psychotic in afew

Things I've accomplished

• Win a contest outside school, I don't care what & how much I will win.
• Visit a Papemelroti store, and admire the quotes, drawings & paper products.
• Get my cousin to buy a Wacom Penable Tablet PC Pen in amazon.com or wacom.com from the US of A and give it to us when he gets back.
• Watch UP in theaters August 26.
• Make friends with new people 'cause time is just short.
• Spend a day with my best friends F4L and shop & have a meal together and talk about the randomness of life :)
• Get tons of Green Tea bags in the grocery and have an infinite supply of tea > I drink tea EVERY DAY. So much for being a health buff xD
• Learn to overcome my shyness in school ('cause I'm only "wild" when I'm with my circle of friends)

the bittersweet life

My mood right now is sort of up and down.
I am so weird ;DD

Prepare for a random entry today.

I would like to procrastinate right now.
15 days until New Moon!
50 days until Xmas!
69 days until I'm seventeen!

One thing I wish for this Xmas would be that I'd celebrate it with joy and happiness (: Despite the presents. I still want my cardigan-minidress-boots outfit though. xD

Oh, right! I am so dead. I pinky swore w/ my siblings that I'd join them in opening the gifts exactly on the evening of the 24th. lawl x)

I feel good listening to Owl City. I guess?

Last night I gorged on some Parmesan pop corn from Chef Tony's :> I hadn't eaten any merienda since I stayed for the choir thingy. Which was weird. Unfortunately I'm on a low cholesterol diet (I need it) but fortunately it IS low in cholesterol and I am learning to eat healthier again! Yay.

Record: haven't eaten chocolates, eggs, and any fried food for...3 days. What the :))

It was hard writing his letter last night. I had nothing decent to write. As in blank.

Speaking of last night, my aunt gave me a notebook she bought from Shanghai. Not the best and most legit quality, but, I like.

I would want to collect notebooks from all over the world :]

And I'm stoked to use the TeNeues planner next year!

I'm excited to turn seventeen!

I don't even feel sixteen now. I feel like...I should be older (I really think a lot. maturely T_T)

I miss summer despite the boredom.

Sometimes I have awful suicidal attempts. Horrible, I know.

Oh! I better check my T I WANT TO DO that I listed down months ago. Will see if I finished some already.

:)

I've never been so random in my life.

because there is time and i am bored

[unedited. will add photos later.]

The most random ideas pop in my head at this second. Unusually, I am in a point in my life wherein I'd like to quit living and pause for a while.

As if I could do that by all means.

I've had massive mood swings this week x_x

So this week's agenda was really full. Let me highlight some good parts - and bad ones, a lot of bad ones I suppose.


10/25
Philippine Fashion Week

• PRO: front seat @ Sassa Jimenez's show. She was awesome, hands down.
• CON: I feel inferior and regretful for not wearing fashionable clothing. I felt like a freak x_x

10/26
Outreach @ Malacanang Palace

• PRO: saw the palace before I'd leave SJ! took lots of pictures, ate lunch there, bonded w/ friends while repacking rice, felt good helping people through our volunteer work.
• CON: since I carried, tied and packed rice as quickly as I could (and I don't know why) my arms were so sore after the morning activity - in the afternoon we had a sleeping session. hah!

10/27
Brother Sun, Sister Moon

• PRO: Took lots of pictures! My shobe was sooo cute - Caryll Tiu :) Had the fighting spirit to win the games.
• CON: I had to ask people to sign the attendance, including unwanted people T_T It was super hot, super tiring. Super sleepy after lunch.

10/28
Northedsa w/ Nix

SUPER FUN! That's what I could say about it. We walked from SM The Block to Trinoma, then to North Edsa then back again. Imagine that :) Fitting room vanity + foodtrip + notebook shopping = best bonding everrrr!

• I bought a TeNeues 2010 planner - Jenny Frean, a great textile & pattern maker. WOOT! Goodbye Starbucks planner. I was supposed to buy Gustav Klimt and Monet but I ended up with the contemporary one :]
  
• Also purchased a Rolling Stone shirt from People Are People.
• Saw a lovely cardigan and a petite mini dress from Topshop. I was broke that time so I wasn't able to buy :( And it was quite expensive. Will save up for December/January (Xmas/Birthday)
• Found my dream ankle boots! Without the cowboy thing x3 @ Wade, P1000+ hello Xmas Wishlist!
• Ate Red Mango woot :))
• FUNctional is a great brand for notebooks - the cute ones. Fully Booked - hands down \m/ we stayed there for more than an hour just looking at notebooks. HA HA.
  
• Kimono Ken for dinner. Super loaded but delish.
• New Moon hot posters! Love :))
  
• We were there for 6 hours!
• LOLNESS 24/7 :]

Best gimmick so far. I had sooo much fun!

10/29
1% LUCKY DAY

• PRO: none.
• CON: woke up late, found out I had super high cholesterol. The range was 150-200 and I', 198. GREAT. Terrified me, ate lunch super late because of it. Problematic about it. Well, that's life. Full of problems x_x Headed to Jean's and got pissed, went to some more places and still got pissed, and still pissed right now because I wasn't able to do things I wanted to do today that I should've done hours ago.

Oh well. One day you're ecstatic, the next you're all emo.
And I have not updated the Gazette because I feel frustrated updating it.

Right, have I mentioned I got low grades in the PTs this quarter? When the heck would I get honor, I don't know. Whatevs. I worked my effin butt off >_>

Anyways, my agenda for tom:

• Go to cemetery with mom ( I want to see dad x( but we're going to visit my great grandparents)
• Start a drawing inspired by Owl City ? If I have time.
• Derma.
• Buy Wii Fit Balance Board.
• Hopefully I'd update my Gazette.

Until my next update! Check my tweets they're much more accurate :))

See ya!

in reverse

Minutes before now I was really pissed off at life.
And I'm hearing "Strangers Like Me" played on TV (Tarzan on Disney) and I get all alive. Haha.

I still don't find the logic between my existence and everyone else's. Okay, very weird thought but I've always thought whether there's more to life than what I live in right now. Of course there is - but I don't feel that I'll get there as well.

*WTH I'm writing nonsense!
Be back later for another decent entry.

T2DO this P.M.

• do PS collage (as ordered by panini)
• oh, and make paninis! haha!
  
• finish vintage drawing? puhlease.
  I want to do a Halloween drawing if it's possible :))
• review chinese history.
• sleep if possible.
• enjoy the rest of the p.m. :D
• LISTEN TO NEW MOON! Hah. I'm lazy to get the cd.

:D

LTNU ! [randomness]

I hate having LTNU portions in my blog and my journal. It just makes me feel less interested to jot down the very details of my existences for those particular days. Call me weird but, I happen to like writing every bit of information about the things that are happening, obviously because they are not coming back the same way again.

So... Long Time No Update! It's Perio Week, I'm currently at the state of post-Filipino mid-English as I'm typing. That means, I'm almost done studying Filipino and midway in English. Cheers to that :) I thought I'd end up studying for forever (well I think I will. haha.)

Physics & BW today was so-so, was it just me or the Physics perio wasn't as hard as the reviewer (which apparently had so much typographical errors)?

Anyways, life is pretty crazy and I'm glad to say that I fulfilled ONE thing in my wishlist!

I got myself a copy of the New Moon OST.

which...I haven't listened to yet. But I was ecstatic 'cause there's a poster inside wee :3

Moreover, other than that there's a new gadget living in the house but is still inside the box = Wii! I know it's like, so late but my bro asked it from my aunt for his birthday & xmas present. And me & my sister get the benefit :> Will go look for a Wii Balance Board soon! ~

Speaking of bro's birthday, it was FUN I suppose. Then again, I'm not in the mood to elaborate on the days that have passed by. It's been a week since! And lotsa things have happened.

Err...Calculus PT? So-so. Studied! Physics? let's hope! Math & History (Chinese) are my concerns right now :(

Another random thought: last Saturday we headed to my cousin Jean's house for dinner + PBB watching w/ Jenina (cousin. haha we kept going up & down the stairs just to watch the nomination night! hello Dear Darla Yellowcab :D) ++ saw some flyers for debut thingy. Haaaaaaaaaaaah. You heard it.

DEBUT?
It's still going to be in 2011 - long way to go.
But I'm still going to list down some Pros & Cons + Plans (like where, what theme etc etc) maybe during Sem Break. I'm ecstatic! I hope :D

Err anyways, what else have I been pondering on? Oh yeah, me wants a POLAROID :( Next year if we go to HongKong.

I feel like having a RTFTW :))

• I'm broke in Pet Soc and the Halloween Specials are awesome! Will earn money tomorrow. Aww.
• I feel bad spending my P450 on New Moon OST. But I want it. WTH :))
• Supermarket shopping @ Landmark Supermarket last Saturday was AWESOME! w/ mom & bro, yay for SoyMilk + Special K ++ Chef Tony + lots of food. Super loaded @ home though x_x
• I so want this week to end! Pt Week is terror.
• T2DO is also used by Joca. Wahahaha. I'm such an influence >:)
• Post-it is so much better than Stick-on (a cheaper version)
• Nix & I are still undecided whether to go to Serendra or Eastwood mall for notebook shopping. Suggestions?
• Awhile ago an earthquake occurred. Which was...creepy.
• And yesterday there was a holdup in GB5. Creepy still.
• And next sunday is my DLSU Test.
• GREAT. I have not studied for that yet :(
• That night I'll be heading to SMX to watch a fashion show for Philippine fashion week. How cool is that? :))
• And 2 days after that night is SEM BREAK!
• Hello Wii :)
• Why do I feel happy about things that are not yet happening?
• Why don't we have halloween parties? I want oneeeee. :(
  

I am so weird. I admit it.
Well, have a good life! Gluck to everyone tomorrow ;)

because your real life is tragic

Yeah you built up a world of magic.

x

Anyways, as ironic as it seems, I had a good sleep last Wednesday night despite my 2 a.m. insomniatic approach (I did have a 2 hr nap) and for the past night I have slept undertime, meaning 5-6 hours of restless dreaming about TLE and Accounting.

Hah. What the heck. So I survived today TYVM to my aunt :) And a couple of good things happened today, I guess. Free period! And I didn't sleep. What a shocker :))

So much for that, I'm procrastinating and lazy to study Calculus and Li Shr, and I hate being lazy. But it's the wrath of Blogger, Twitter, Facebook and Pet Society that BIs me, really.

I have to change that for goodness' sake x_x

Needless to say, my life is pretty much back in shape from all the chechebureches that have happened. I'm hoping that it stays this way, and no more unexpected phenomena please. My life's too dramatic - and not to mention, I forgot that I haven't been journaling for a week, and have not been touching the TwilightJ (well I just got stuck with it over the 1 week break, so yeah, no Twilight or New Moon ATM, wait till November!) since classes began again.

Saturday tomorrow! TGIF :)

Happy Birthday Clarence! My brother's turning 8 this Sunday and I have not found a gift. Wow. What a greaaaat sister :))

*will now go back to limits of a function*

awake and alive.

It's 11 minutes after 1 and I am shocked that I am fully alive and not dead.

So much for sleeping a heapful of two hours when I got home. I didn't feel like studying so I felt like taking a rest and closing my eyes to see the world in the dark. What the heck am I saying o_o I'm such a freak.

On the other hand...I am not! I finally got a neat skin courtesy of Blogskins.com with me doing the rather minor edits in the about me sections and all the title stuff. It's quite black and white, and if I have time I might turn the black into brown (hello vintage freak) :)

I have a clean slate so far, nothing too much hard to handle (except Speech PT next week) and tomorrow's a Thursday FTW :) Oh wait, it's already Thursday hahaha.

I've got nothing on my mind to turn emo, and I've been having a blast with my buddies, so I guess it's all good.

First it's T2DO (things to do) now it's time for...

RTFTW (random thoughts for the win):
xD

• I just tasted Butterfinger today in my whole sixteen years of existence. And it was good. Thanks Joca! So much for a peace/piece offering :>
• Telephone calls suck. I hate answering them 'cause it's not for me.
• The Bear Brand logo is white and the mascot is brown (according to Joyce. lolness.) so what's the point?
• "I say Sarsarap, you say sarsaya!" still from Joyce :D
• I thought of having a Corny Meter. OMG so corny. Hahaha. Idk if me or Joyce would win, we're both sort of fair with that :))
• 5000 coin count in Pet Society. Yay!
• I love chocolate. But I hate chocolate muffins and cupcakes. (maybe I'll still accept cupcakes, but no to muffins x_x)
• Since Paris is such a common name, I thought of the name Eiffel, named after the Eiffel Tower. I love the name! So I used it for my pet. tee hee :x
• Sometimes I still wonder how I survive every day life. Well today was awesome ftw :))

So much for being so random. It's just destressing to get out some subconscious things in my head that have been staying (in my head) for so long. I like to think a lot and that's why my mind functions weirder than everyone else :D

Err...Oh! I got this announcement yesterday that Semestral Break is cancelled and there will be no classes on November 1 & 2 in reverence to All Saints' Day and All Souls' Day. Hopefully I'll go notebook shopping w/ Nix on the 2nd (: PTs next quarter are cancelled. Shocker :O Double the effort, double pressure, but it's gonna be a lighter feeling 'cause PTs are like total hell weeks in a Judenite's life. Ha ha ha. Anyways, Christmas is getting near too. OMG. This year's going to end in 3 months! :O

I gtg and will make the most out of my life. Lawl. x)

Good morning!

a week's worth.

Another week is going to end hours from now.
What a crazy week.

Things I did:

• Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. Lovely written book. I love it <3>
• Read New Moon. More like immersed myself into books :)) I didn't reread the whole thing; only the part when Edward leaves Bella and when he comes back. The whole werewolf thing bores me out x_x
• Got first prize in today's dice game. Except I had to split it 'cause we had the same rank (4 4s 8th place) Seriously? I was furious na so I diced super hard. As in last minute - they were going to give the P2000 to the only winner and then I came in the picture. We each had P1,250 (it became 2500 because there was a leftover 250 + additional 250) [: Yay I could use it to complete my wishlist!
• Attended an exhibit. My grandmother's uncle's to be exact. He's really good - they said I got my genetics from him, but I don't think so. The paintings were awesome, but not modern. Makes me want to have an exhibit someday (: Maybe on my 18th birthday. Hah! Still on the planning process :x
• Hated a lot of people. Not my friends - in fact, random people. Yesterday I was very much in a bad mood (hence the useless, weird entry) but other days, like the days before, I really hated people. One of them would be the immature guy who bumped his push cart on my ankle in S&R and didn't bother to apologize. I eyed him bad >:P Others would be relatives whom I keep seeing everyday, sometimes I get sick of hanging with them too often. I'd rather see them only during events. And err...yeah I hated everybody.
• Had a movie marathon. Watched Wild Child (awesome movie! I want to go to Abbey Mount xD), Twilight (vampire love <3) style="font-style: italic;">Moulin Rouge (not done yet though), Sydney White (HBO) and browsed through some Filipino movies. I never have movie marathons. So that was good :>
• Helped victims through donation of relief goods. My mom was probably shocked I'd convince her to do such thing but, I do have a good side in me at the least (: That was very fulfilling.
• Ate a lot. From restaurants and going out (Shakey's, Pepper Lunch :]) to staying in with A LOT of items from the grocery (Pretzel Crisps, Soda Pops, Muffins :3)
  
• Studied 5% of the whole break. Hah. Chinese and a little Physics but it didn't help, really.
• Made a random blueprint of my room. Which I have not finished (:
• Leveled up in Pet Society. Can't wait for next week's special! :)

Anyways, my mom's practically letting me leave the laptop so she could print my bro's "label" for his Up giveaway x_x I haven't even bought him a gift yet! October 11. I have...a week x3

Till nextime.
And I mean in a long time - Tuesday is the beginning of beating up for me x3

xo.

Everything ends.

I happen to like that line from Death Cab for Cutie's Meet Me on the Equinox, which, apparently, is in the New Moon OST (that I am sure to buy when it comes out).

Well, yeah, everything does end. It's a known fact to everybody. So uh, does my happiness end as well?

I woke today with a unusual morning, and a few hours later I'm sitting here wondering what to do. Oh, right, I have this Economics poster I have to do, and I'm having a problem because there are not enough pictures and I'm supposed to do a sportswear advertisement.

Fabulous.

x

Nothing can satisfy me today. Not that I need any sort of satisfaction, I don't feel like doing anything practically interesting today. Nonetheless, I'd rather not watch the rest of my days unfold. The past few days have been unplanned, it was whether I go out, stay home, do something to provoke my inner creativity, or study. Sadly I didn't do quite a lot but read books, having movie marathons and getting a life out of myself. In fact, I have not been communicating with any of my friends, which is kinda weird. But really, I don't feel like talking to them. Sometimes I don't even know if I exist in their life, or it's just me.

There's nothing more interesting to blog about.
I'm off to cure my own sickness.

I'm so not looking forward to Monday.
xo

WAH.

Guess what. I stayed home ^_^

And I spent the whole afternoon watching half of Moulin Rouge and the whole of Twilight.
So much for movie marathon - I rarely have that.

Err..I am blank.

dear dear dear dear diary . . . xo

[Twilight journal: page one (the ONLY public page)]

[the side thingy. haha.]

[Gazette: Do you remember the time?]

[Gazette : LSS ]

Just the randomness of my life. I decided to take a picture. Sorry for the poor quality x)
I'll take snaps of my notebook collection in a few (:
xo.

Freedom

I woke up a whopping 7:00 a.m. today because I'm supposed to go swimming with my cousins. But unfortunately, my mind was stirred to doing other things. And besides, it's a rare occasion for me to swim. I'm afraid of water, has been, always been. So I declined at the last minute.

It's still unlikely or rather new to me how weird I get when I need to decide. A simple scenario like, "Should I go out today? Or stay home?" bothers me to death. Maybe because I don't like wasting a day with things I don't like to have. For say, today my mom's asking me to accompany them, have lunch @ Century Seafood, then head to my grandparents' house for the rest of the afternoon - typical Thursday setting.

I don't know if I should go.
No one's home. Only me & the maid.

Err...

I don't know!
I wouldn't suggest going out 'cause I'll eat more :x and for this week I've eaten loads of stuff. [i hate breaks.] Then again, I don't feel like talking to anyone today, I feel like I want to close myself today, which is kinda weird. Okay, fine, I got all emo last night 'cause I was reading New Moon (again, it's already a year old!) and I shut the book, grabbed the TJ and wrote a page's worth of words in. And listened to my "Downpouring" playlist. Hah. So much for emotional outburst - sometimes you can't just be happy all the time.

Of course I feel free today - I can do anything I want, but I don't know if my creative energy would cooperate with me. It's not like I can just draw in an instant even if I want to.

So should I go out?

I don't know. Haha. Let's see where things take me.

xo

I have four days to make the most out of myself.
And as I watch the hours flow by so quickly, I wonder what condition other people are in.

But as for me, I'm hoping I get a lot out of this break.

• Make a blueprint of my "future" room
• Look up articles concerning wall painting and preparation for painting
• Read a book (I was thinking of rereading New Moon)
• Revamp my blog. I am sick of it.

I'm off to...I don't know. Refrain myself from using too much internet.
xo.