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It's probably common for people to say "I don't care anymore" or "It's not in my mind" just because you're willing to forget something for good.

Of course, one of them is me. I can say it's one of my resolutions this summer. But seriously, I doubt my subconscious mind would be conscious enough to know that.

Anyways, I've been dreaming about that person. And I don't plan to do anything about it, the plus factor there is I get to sleep :) Sometimes I end up watching tv until 3am and force myself to bed so yeah. At least I sleep lol. I don't even remember anything important about what happened to it before. The words "our friendship" have already been flushed down to the depths of my existence.

I feel sort of apathic right now because of it. I think it's hard for me to practically adjust to it, the least. I have not erected enough creativity to do good works, to write well, to play with my explorations and experiement with my artistic capabilities. I lack the interest to do practically anything, at the most. In fact, I'm also subconscious that I am feeling very deadly. Despite the beauty of the weather right now with a blue sky, I feel trapped, still, by gray skies.

I think I will always be.

You would know my mood is like this. The songs I've been listening to are a twist to my usual playlist. All emo. But I love them :)

Say (All I Need) - OneRepublic
Mercy - OneRepublic
You Found Me - The Fray
Do You Remember - The Summer Obsession
In My Heart - My Favorite Highway
What Are You Waiting For - My Favorite Highway
Save You - Simple Plan
Breakeven - The Script
The Man Who Can't Be Moved - The Script

Well, I have an ironic one. It's giving me the LSS.
Ever Ever After - Carrie Underwood

P.S.
Credits to the new blog title:
Got it from OneRepublic's "Say (All I Need)"

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There's nothing more satisfying than seeing the unexpected heap of raindrops falling at this point of time.

I mean, I don't particularly like rain, especially when I'm out, but it gives a break to this hot tropical weather which perspires me. I hate perspiration. lol.

Summer is so like summer. I bet I'm gonna be a couch potato. I mean it. At least I don't eat too much while in front of the TV. If I did, I'd be obese by June. Hahaha.

I am BORED. Argh. My communication is shut with everybody else, except Tin, Nix, Joyce & my family. Not that I want it to, it just so happens that way.

So let it be.

goodbye 5-21-18-15-16-5 [Europe]

Today, I am extremely supremely tired.
And I want to sleep.
:|
I had to wake up at 7am awhile ago.
The best part?

I went to school, attended mass, I saw Andrea :) My "little sister"
She's so cute she even hugged me! ^o^

Then we went to fix the European papers. Which I won't be involved in. I can't believe I'm wasting my chance of going to the continent of my DREAMS!

Optimistically speaking, hello Ateneo????

Then to my cous' house, played Wii. It was so painful! My arms are swelling x) Then socialized with my cousinkins :)

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Tomorrow, since I won't be doing anything x) I will *crosses fingers* give my blog a NEW layout.
I WILL MAKE. :)

But, let's just hope my creative juices would flow well :]

If not I'm going to watch The Reader :)) I've already watched Slumdog Millionaire [which is overthetop awesome] and Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist [which is really a good movie:)] this summer. I also want to watch PS I Love You, Message in a Bottle & The Notebook. But I shall download first :))

Anyways,
I was wondering who among us 5 got in.
I am really curious.
If I was the only one who got in,
I WILL BE A LONER. Patay.
Plus, the artworks I've passed are really good, BUT, I don't do art now.
NOOOOOOOO :(

Expect me to get muscles on my legs after those 3 weeks of workshop stuff, I'll probably walk around the whole campus and get lost xD I'm not going to Europe because of this, so I hope it's really WORTH IT. Gaaaaaaaaah.

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My list of things-to-do this summer that I pledge to do:

* Finish painting my room! And provide a TV inside :) lolxxxxx.
* Save money but purchase [still] affordable fashion finds. Yes I'm revamping my style, altering it a bit.
* Make a PS collage of F4L. Because I figured it's time to :)
* Make a PS banner for my blog. Something that would really reflect me.
* Let's not forget me REVIEWING once in a while. I need to regain my old knowledge. They've gotten out of my system.
* Read books! But I am not in the mood to x) Currently reading PS I Love you but kind of lazy-ish x)
* Lastbutnotleast. WATCH TONS AND TONS OF TV AND MOVIES. I don't know why, I pick up a lot of info just by doing this. One bad thing though, it makes me a couch potato. :|


xoxo~

anticipation

This is probably the day I think, in my calendar, summer has officially begun.

*Haven't been writing here, only because I doubt people check this, and I am not in writing mood. Well now I am :)

Had fun today - uber fun :)

Went to GH with my bestfriends, and they sort of hung out at my house, and we cooked random stuff. Nix is sleeping over - so impromptu! x) We'll probably watch a movie later :)

Took LOTs of pictures mygad. Haha. I miss being vain xD

One more thing. Goodbye Europe.
Hello Ateneo ArtsWork.

Yes, I got in. *cheers*
I don't know whether the other 3 in our batch [Kristin didn't get in :(] are in.

I was 70% glad people actually like my work. :]
30% sad I'm not going to see the best continent in the world.

I actually prayed last night and asked for nothing. Because whichever I will take is fine with me BUT I am pretty anxious I'll end up like a freak and a loner in that workshop thingamajig.

So wish me luck. It's still in May lol. x)

xoxo~

neverlasting

Some things just never last.
In my opinion, that is.

PT week is opening its way to terror upon our weary souls. I am so dead x.x Term paper's due on Friday and as much as I loathe cramming, I have to only because I have not finished the book :) and of course the luxury of time is unluckily not controlled by me so yeah. Let's see if I can get through this week without getting insane. It's like the final judgment of third yr! But actually, I hate this year. And it obviously because there is Nothing that has become of me. I did not grow, I did not fall. I was at the middle, like some sort of plateau :[ Which I really hate.

Let's hope for a better year next year :)

Anyhow, I am looking forward to the dawning of summer! And despite its hotness that I will really hate [yes, I hate hot weather, I hate cold weather. Cold weather kills my stomach, hot weather kills my body x)] I hope I will enjoy the rest of the three month break - STUDYING. Yuck. No, seriously. I have got loads of plans to pump up my summer. :)

Things I'm awaiting for:
March10.
- why? LAST DAY of PERIO. Hallelujah! Goodbye junioryr! :)
March13.
- why? Party :) But I think we are having a dance number :( Waaah!
- why? Ateneo ArtsWork09 results. In or out? WHO of us 5 would get in? [very. intriguing.]
April9.10.11.12.
- why? Bohol. No, I'm just excited 'cause we're going out of town that's it.

Nothing much yet.

I might change my blogsite. ONly because ... I don't know. I'm fond of changing. It depends whether my life eventually takes its random turn on things. I base it on what happens. Mostly in this blog it's all emoish which I hate. So I might leave. lol.

x)

I'm so lazy doing marginal notes.

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Current addictions of music.
Thinkingofyou by Katy Perry.
Alwaysbe by JEW.
Breakeven by TheScript.
I'monlymewhenI'mwithyou by Taylor Swift.
-signingoff~