because there is time and i am bored

[unedited. will add photos later.]

The most random ideas pop in my head at this second. Unusually, I am in a point in my life wherein I'd like to quit living and pause for a while.

As if I could do that by all means.

I've had massive mood swings this week x_x

So this week's agenda was really full. Let me highlight some good parts - and bad ones, a lot of bad ones I suppose.


10/25
Philippine Fashion Week

• PRO: front seat @ Sassa Jimenez's show. She was awesome, hands down.
• CON: I feel inferior and regretful for not wearing fashionable clothing. I felt like a freak x_x

10/26
Outreach @ Malacanang Palace

• PRO: saw the palace before I'd leave SJ! took lots of pictures, ate lunch there, bonded w/ friends while repacking rice, felt good helping people through our volunteer work.
• CON: since I carried, tied and packed rice as quickly as I could (and I don't know why) my arms were so sore after the morning activity - in the afternoon we had a sleeping session. hah!

10/27
Brother Sun, Sister Moon

• PRO: Took lots of pictures! My shobe was sooo cute - Caryll Tiu :) Had the fighting spirit to win the games.
• CON: I had to ask people to sign the attendance, including unwanted people T_T It was super hot, super tiring. Super sleepy after lunch.

10/28
Northedsa w/ Nix

SUPER FUN! That's what I could say about it. We walked from SM The Block to Trinoma, then to North Edsa then back again. Imagine that :) Fitting room vanity + foodtrip + notebook shopping = best bonding everrrr!

• I bought a TeNeues 2010 planner - Jenny Frean, a great textile & pattern maker. WOOT! Goodbye Starbucks planner. I was supposed to buy Gustav Klimt and Monet but I ended up with the contemporary one :]
  
• Also purchased a Rolling Stone shirt from People Are People.
• Saw a lovely cardigan and a petite mini dress from Topshop. I was broke that time so I wasn't able to buy :( And it was quite expensive. Will save up for December/January (Xmas/Birthday)
• Found my dream ankle boots! Without the cowboy thing x3 @ Wade, P1000+ hello Xmas Wishlist!
• Ate Red Mango woot :))
• FUNctional is a great brand for notebooks - the cute ones. Fully Booked - hands down \m/ we stayed there for more than an hour just looking at notebooks. HA HA.
  
• Kimono Ken for dinner. Super loaded but delish.
• New Moon hot posters! Love :))
  
• We were there for 6 hours!
• LOLNESS 24/7 :]

Best gimmick so far. I had sooo much fun!

10/29
1% LUCKY DAY

• PRO: none.
• CON: woke up late, found out I had super high cholesterol. The range was 150-200 and I', 198. GREAT. Terrified me, ate lunch super late because of it. Problematic about it. Well, that's life. Full of problems x_x Headed to Jean's and got pissed, went to some more places and still got pissed, and still pissed right now because I wasn't able to do things I wanted to do today that I should've done hours ago.

Oh well. One day you're ecstatic, the next you're all emo.
And I have not updated the Gazette because I feel frustrated updating it.

Right, have I mentioned I got low grades in the PTs this quarter? When the heck would I get honor, I don't know. Whatevs. I worked my effin butt off >_>

Anyways, my agenda for tom:

• Go to cemetery with mom ( I want to see dad x( but we're going to visit my great grandparents)
• Start a drawing inspired by Owl City ? If I have time.
• Derma.
• Buy Wii Fit Balance Board.
• Hopefully I'd update my Gazette.

Until my next update! Check my tweets they're much more accurate :))

See ya!

in reverse

Minutes before now I was really pissed off at life.
And I'm hearing "Strangers Like Me" played on TV (Tarzan on Disney) and I get all alive. Haha.

I still don't find the logic between my existence and everyone else's. Okay, very weird thought but I've always thought whether there's more to life than what I live in right now. Of course there is - but I don't feel that I'll get there as well.

*WTH I'm writing nonsense!
Be back later for another decent entry.

T2DO this P.M.

• do PS collage (as ordered by panini)
• oh, and make paninis! haha!
  
• finish vintage drawing? puhlease.
  I want to do a Halloween drawing if it's possible :))
• review chinese history.
• sleep if possible.
• enjoy the rest of the p.m. :D
• LISTEN TO NEW MOON! Hah. I'm lazy to get the cd.

:D

LTNU ! [randomness]

I hate having LTNU portions in my blog and my journal. It just makes me feel less interested to jot down the very details of my existences for those particular days. Call me weird but, I happen to like writing every bit of information about the things that are happening, obviously because they are not coming back the same way again.

So... Long Time No Update! It's Perio Week, I'm currently at the state of post-Filipino mid-English as I'm typing. That means, I'm almost done studying Filipino and midway in English. Cheers to that :) I thought I'd end up studying for forever (well I think I will. haha.)

Physics & BW today was so-so, was it just me or the Physics perio wasn't as hard as the reviewer (which apparently had so much typographical errors)?

Anyways, life is pretty crazy and I'm glad to say that I fulfilled ONE thing in my wishlist!

I got myself a copy of the New Moon OST.

which...I haven't listened to yet. But I was ecstatic 'cause there's a poster inside wee :3

Moreover, other than that there's a new gadget living in the house but is still inside the box = Wii! I know it's like, so late but my bro asked it from my aunt for his birthday & xmas present. And me & my sister get the benefit :> Will go look for a Wii Balance Board soon! ~

Speaking of bro's birthday, it was FUN I suppose. Then again, I'm not in the mood to elaborate on the days that have passed by. It's been a week since! And lotsa things have happened.

Err...Calculus PT? So-so. Studied! Physics? let's hope! Math & History (Chinese) are my concerns right now :(

Another random thought: last Saturday we headed to my cousin Jean's house for dinner + PBB watching w/ Jenina (cousin. haha we kept going up & down the stairs just to watch the nomination night! hello Dear Darla Yellowcab :D) ++ saw some flyers for debut thingy. Haaaaaaaaaaaah. You heard it.

DEBUT?
It's still going to be in 2011 - long way to go.
But I'm still going to list down some Pros & Cons + Plans (like where, what theme etc etc) maybe during Sem Break. I'm ecstatic! I hope :D

Err anyways, what else have I been pondering on? Oh yeah, me wants a POLAROID :( Next year if we go to HongKong.

I feel like having a RTFTW :))

• I'm broke in Pet Soc and the Halloween Specials are awesome! Will earn money tomorrow. Aww.
• I feel bad spending my P450 on New Moon OST. But I want it. WTH :))
• Supermarket shopping @ Landmark Supermarket last Saturday was AWESOME! w/ mom & bro, yay for SoyMilk + Special K ++ Chef Tony + lots of food. Super loaded @ home though x_x
• I so want this week to end! Pt Week is terror.
• T2DO is also used by Joca. Wahahaha. I'm such an influence >:)
• Post-it is so much better than Stick-on (a cheaper version)
• Nix & I are still undecided whether to go to Serendra or Eastwood mall for notebook shopping. Suggestions?
• Awhile ago an earthquake occurred. Which was...creepy.
• And yesterday there was a holdup in GB5. Creepy still.
• And next sunday is my DLSU Test.
• GREAT. I have not studied for that yet :(
• That night I'll be heading to SMX to watch a fashion show for Philippine fashion week. How cool is that? :))
• And 2 days after that night is SEM BREAK!
• Hello Wii :)
• Why do I feel happy about things that are not yet happening?
• Why don't we have halloween parties? I want oneeeee. :(
  

I am so weird. I admit it.
Well, have a good life! Gluck to everyone tomorrow ;)

because your real life is tragic

Yeah you built up a world of magic.

x

Anyways, as ironic as it seems, I had a good sleep last Wednesday night despite my 2 a.m. insomniatic approach (I did have a 2 hr nap) and for the past night I have slept undertime, meaning 5-6 hours of restless dreaming about TLE and Accounting.

Hah. What the heck. So I survived today TYVM to my aunt :) And a couple of good things happened today, I guess. Free period! And I didn't sleep. What a shocker :))

So much for that, I'm procrastinating and lazy to study Calculus and Li Shr, and I hate being lazy. But it's the wrath of Blogger, Twitter, Facebook and Pet Society that BIs me, really.

I have to change that for goodness' sake x_x

Needless to say, my life is pretty much back in shape from all the chechebureches that have happened. I'm hoping that it stays this way, and no more unexpected phenomena please. My life's too dramatic - and not to mention, I forgot that I haven't been journaling for a week, and have not been touching the TwilightJ (well I just got stuck with it over the 1 week break, so yeah, no Twilight or New Moon ATM, wait till November!) since classes began again.

Saturday tomorrow! TGIF :)

Happy Birthday Clarence! My brother's turning 8 this Sunday and I have not found a gift. Wow. What a greaaaat sister :))

*will now go back to limits of a function*

awake and alive.

It's 11 minutes after 1 and I am shocked that I am fully alive and not dead.

So much for sleeping a heapful of two hours when I got home. I didn't feel like studying so I felt like taking a rest and closing my eyes to see the world in the dark. What the heck am I saying o_o I'm such a freak.

On the other hand...I am not! I finally got a neat skin courtesy of Blogskins.com with me doing the rather minor edits in the about me sections and all the title stuff. It's quite black and white, and if I have time I might turn the black into brown (hello vintage freak) :)

I have a clean slate so far, nothing too much hard to handle (except Speech PT next week) and tomorrow's a Thursday FTW :) Oh wait, it's already Thursday hahaha.

I've got nothing on my mind to turn emo, and I've been having a blast with my buddies, so I guess it's all good.

First it's T2DO (things to do) now it's time for...

RTFTW (random thoughts for the win):
xD

• I just tasted Butterfinger today in my whole sixteen years of existence. And it was good. Thanks Joca! So much for a peace/piece offering :>
• Telephone calls suck. I hate answering them 'cause it's not for me.
• The Bear Brand logo is white and the mascot is brown (according to Joyce. lolness.) so what's the point?
• "I say Sarsarap, you say sarsaya!" still from Joyce :D
• I thought of having a Corny Meter. OMG so corny. Hahaha. Idk if me or Joyce would win, we're both sort of fair with that :))
• 5000 coin count in Pet Society. Yay!
• I love chocolate. But I hate chocolate muffins and cupcakes. (maybe I'll still accept cupcakes, but no to muffins x_x)
• Since Paris is such a common name, I thought of the name Eiffel, named after the Eiffel Tower. I love the name! So I used it for my pet. tee hee :x
• Sometimes I still wonder how I survive every day life. Well today was awesome ftw :))

So much for being so random. It's just destressing to get out some subconscious things in my head that have been staying (in my head) for so long. I like to think a lot and that's why my mind functions weirder than everyone else :D

Err...Oh! I got this announcement yesterday that Semestral Break is cancelled and there will be no classes on November 1 & 2 in reverence to All Saints' Day and All Souls' Day. Hopefully I'll go notebook shopping w/ Nix on the 2nd (: PTs next quarter are cancelled. Shocker :O Double the effort, double pressure, but it's gonna be a lighter feeling 'cause PTs are like total hell weeks in a Judenite's life. Ha ha ha. Anyways, Christmas is getting near too. OMG. This year's going to end in 3 months! :O

I gtg and will make the most out of my life. Lawl. x)

Good morning!

a week's worth.

Another week is going to end hours from now.
What a crazy week.

Things I did:

• Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. Lovely written book. I love it <3>
• Read New Moon. More like immersed myself into books :)) I didn't reread the whole thing; only the part when Edward leaves Bella and when he comes back. The whole werewolf thing bores me out x_x
• Got first prize in today's dice game. Except I had to split it 'cause we had the same rank (4 4s 8th place) Seriously? I was furious na so I diced super hard. As in last minute - they were going to give the P2000 to the only winner and then I came in the picture. We each had P1,250 (it became 2500 because there was a leftover 250 + additional 250) [: Yay I could use it to complete my wishlist!
• Attended an exhibit. My grandmother's uncle's to be exact. He's really good - they said I got my genetics from him, but I don't think so. The paintings were awesome, but not modern. Makes me want to have an exhibit someday (: Maybe on my 18th birthday. Hah! Still on the planning process :x
• Hated a lot of people. Not my friends - in fact, random people. Yesterday I was very much in a bad mood (hence the useless, weird entry) but other days, like the days before, I really hated people. One of them would be the immature guy who bumped his push cart on my ankle in S&R and didn't bother to apologize. I eyed him bad >:P Others would be relatives whom I keep seeing everyday, sometimes I get sick of hanging with them too often. I'd rather see them only during events. And err...yeah I hated everybody.
• Had a movie marathon. Watched Wild Child (awesome movie! I want to go to Abbey Mount xD), Twilight (vampire love <3) style="font-style: italic;">Moulin Rouge (not done yet though), Sydney White (HBO) and browsed through some Filipino movies. I never have movie marathons. So that was good :>
• Helped victims through donation of relief goods. My mom was probably shocked I'd convince her to do such thing but, I do have a good side in me at the least (: That was very fulfilling.
• Ate a lot. From restaurants and going out (Shakey's, Pepper Lunch :]) to staying in with A LOT of items from the grocery (Pretzel Crisps, Soda Pops, Muffins :3)
  
• Studied 5% of the whole break. Hah. Chinese and a little Physics but it didn't help, really.
• Made a random blueprint of my room. Which I have not finished (:
• Leveled up in Pet Society. Can't wait for next week's special! :)

Anyways, my mom's practically letting me leave the laptop so she could print my bro's "label" for his Up giveaway x_x I haven't even bought him a gift yet! October 11. I have...a week x3

Till nextime.
And I mean in a long time - Tuesday is the beginning of beating up for me x3

xo.

Everything ends.

I happen to like that line from Death Cab for Cutie's Meet Me on the Equinox, which, apparently, is in the New Moon OST (that I am sure to buy when it comes out).

Well, yeah, everything does end. It's a known fact to everybody. So uh, does my happiness end as well?

I woke today with a unusual morning, and a few hours later I'm sitting here wondering what to do. Oh, right, I have this Economics poster I have to do, and I'm having a problem because there are not enough pictures and I'm supposed to do a sportswear advertisement.

Fabulous.

x

Nothing can satisfy me today. Not that I need any sort of satisfaction, I don't feel like doing anything practically interesting today. Nonetheless, I'd rather not watch the rest of my days unfold. The past few days have been unplanned, it was whether I go out, stay home, do something to provoke my inner creativity, or study. Sadly I didn't do quite a lot but read books, having movie marathons and getting a life out of myself. In fact, I have not been communicating with any of my friends, which is kinda weird. But really, I don't feel like talking to them. Sometimes I don't even know if I exist in their life, or it's just me.

There's nothing more interesting to blog about.
I'm off to cure my own sickness.

I'm so not looking forward to Monday.
xo

WAH.

Guess what. I stayed home ^_^

And I spent the whole afternoon watching half of Moulin Rouge and the whole of Twilight.
So much for movie marathon - I rarely have that.

Err..I am blank.

dear dear dear dear diary . . . xo

[Twilight journal: page one (the ONLY public page)]

[the side thingy. haha.]

[Gazette: Do you remember the time?]

[Gazette : LSS ]

Just the randomness of my life. I decided to take a picture. Sorry for the poor quality x)
I'll take snaps of my notebook collection in a few (:
xo.

Freedom

I woke up a whopping 7:00 a.m. today because I'm supposed to go swimming with my cousins. But unfortunately, my mind was stirred to doing other things. And besides, it's a rare occasion for me to swim. I'm afraid of water, has been, always been. So I declined at the last minute.

It's still unlikely or rather new to me how weird I get when I need to decide. A simple scenario like, "Should I go out today? Or stay home?" bothers me to death. Maybe because I don't like wasting a day with things I don't like to have. For say, today my mom's asking me to accompany them, have lunch @ Century Seafood, then head to my grandparents' house for the rest of the afternoon - typical Thursday setting.

I don't know if I should go.
No one's home. Only me & the maid.

Err...

I don't know!
I wouldn't suggest going out 'cause I'll eat more :x and for this week I've eaten loads of stuff. [i hate breaks.] Then again, I don't feel like talking to anyone today, I feel like I want to close myself today, which is kinda weird. Okay, fine, I got all emo last night 'cause I was reading New Moon (again, it's already a year old!) and I shut the book, grabbed the TJ and wrote a page's worth of words in. And listened to my "Downpouring" playlist. Hah. So much for emotional outburst - sometimes you can't just be happy all the time.

Of course I feel free today - I can do anything I want, but I don't know if my creative energy would cooperate with me. It's not like I can just draw in an instant even if I want to.

So should I go out?

I don't know. Haha. Let's see where things take me.

xo