hello headache. hello 190th :)

My head is aching like crazy.
This is my 190th post. Yay :)

Just some ABC pics before school began. [yes, my brother is a "gift". hahaha.]

[well. he was coin bearer. better?]
[ june 20 ]

Heading out to Global City again later. Yay!

Anyhoo yesterday was a fun day, I suppose ('cause I was euphoric! haha! and hung out w/ my besties) except PE is weird. I so don't want to wear a sweatband. :| And I was really sleepy I couldn't contain it.

But I slept late haha :) lolness yesterday.

xo.
i miss summer :(

calmed, i guess.

Well today was a shocker not only for me but like for the whole world to find out the King of Pop is dead.

Actually I didn't believe it at first, I was watching the news this morning and it said he was rushed to the hospital yesterday due to cardiac arrest.

It's really, really weird how the world's grieving over it :| Like there's some kind of silence....
The good part is even if he's dead his music's gonna live on for...uhh idk probably forever.

Okay anyways my day today is not much interesting but I got kind of pissed off when the afternoon came.

I can prolly say that I'm pretty talkative (or, TYPATIVE? lol) when I type but I am not in school (i act like a complete nerd in class!) so bear w/ me on that...lol :)) But I don't want to talk about anything concerning really odd things that are happening so far...oh idk maybe the fact that you always pass by and i always see you w/c is kinda annoying and i get this horrible tension so i quickly move away and pretend my eyes are fooling me as if i can't see and at least i don't pay much attention to those already...yeah that kind of thing. Haynako.

Awhile ago i got super pissed off this guy reprimanded me when I was crossing the street 'cause I wasn't looking DAW...well the other cars used the other lane and that was unfair because they can't do that! Ugh then yeah that pissed me off. I had a good day aheaddddddd :(

Whew at least now I'm calmed down. Tomorrow's Saturday! Weekend :)

xo~

nothing.

Apparently the beginning of school does not make any sense.
I don't like going to school, but there's nothing to do at home by all means.

And there's no Signal No. 1 today. It's a warm bright sunny day.

Things to do:

• Calculus note-taking (will have to do it right NOW)
• fix my messy stuff
• update random J
• design J (for Eng)! i have no concept yet
• make my life better by... idk :|

Speaking of "making my life better" although this is so off-topic, I had a horribly weird dream last night that mixed up all of the things that happened during the first two days of school...

(my mind must be REALLY imaginative.)

Some things I have done in the last week of summer:

• Finished "Remember Me" yay :) Super nice :)
• Bought JB's album double yay :) At least I'm not too LSS right now...I don't listen to music at the moment (Idk what is wrong with me i like to take breaks from doing hobbies like drawing, listening to music, tv, internet...blahdiblah...)
• Watch loads of TV and BOF haha.

I'm super hungry right now.
Out.

I'm going to go update my Illustrated Journal/random journal (i have no name for it yet) and be productive in life. I'm getting bored with the net (WHAT? haha).

Sana umulan. I would like someone to sympathize with me. :)

Ahem, Modeling by Nicole xD

dead & gone.

OMG I HAVEN'T BEEN ONLINE FOR A WEEK.
Not that I hate it, due to the fact that school started a week later and I had quite good fun for the last week, things have been...way better without internet. :)

Let me recall...
Oh, last June 12th I had fun w/ Den & Steff, we had the "ultimate" jam session (lol) just tuning Den's guitar which is exactly like mine, only older :)) Then since we were hungry (oh I wasn't, just to satisfy my dairy craving) we walked two blocks to Amazing Cones and had pizza + ice cream :) Delish :)

Well that was my only fun for the week. The rest of the days I spent at home, watching TV, updating my journal, eating & eating (lol i made paninis! YUM) and sleeping really late (which I'm so dead of because my dermatologist kept reprimanding me!) oh and having BOF marathons, which I am NEVER going to get sick of.

And last June 20 we attended a wedding. my goodness the hotel people were not planning to let me in 'cause my temperature was 37.6 :))

Um yeah I guess the day before school (Sunday) was quite decent...except I was really sleepy but the Fathers' Day lunch we had @ Century was REALLY good :> & some grocery shopping @ SnR is kinda fun :>

Let's move on to the highlight of it all...
FIRSTDAYOFSCHOOL.
Hmm let me remember.

Oh my gad it was horrible.
NAH. It was a bit, but it was the most decent first day I've had in my entire school life.
Well except for the fact that the very first step i took in the main gate I saw that person (that I NEVER want to see. promise. ayaw ko talaga.) HAYNAKO.
Pati dismissal. ANO BA. (wala lang, all this time i just want to avoid his face. please lang.)

Well the rest of the day I just kept ranting, " Uwi na tayo! " and gladly @ 3PM we left school, oh, wait, was that school? It didn't look so much like before. I feel like I've entered a newly renovated mall of some sorts.

Oh btw I'm promoted! Girl Marshal for 2 years and then Secretary? watda :)) Kind of creeped out a bit pero I'm hanging on :) I have to do the Word Box later and buy so much school supplies (some dumb excuse for let's go walk and shop!)

Yay for no classes today & tomorrow.
Yay yesterday for super strong rain.
and for Japanese dinner & Frozen yogurt (sorry, addict talaga ako!)

Our teachers are pretty good. I haven't met all of them so...yun. Joyce hangs out with us a lot now, I'm happy to say :) I've missed a year of her.

Till I get decent enough to write more decent entries (or maybe a hate entry? emo entry? ay basta) I'll have to go... IDK :) Enjoy my free day.

xo~

D A S <3

[one of my old photos with steff.]
[yes, i look very much different!! lol.]

I am a happy person today :)
I guess my mom forgave me. Weird term tho :|

I got Ahead notes from Den awhile ago and we just hung outside our houses (den, steff & me) and lol...i got a lot of insect bites, but i had loadssss of fun :) cant wait to see you guys again! super fun to catch up with things... and keep on laughing lolness :)

D A S is love <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjmOzB5bsdFlSGHrWl22If8CquOUnbWo7nsNyx4UifMlVpHqLdJYECzR8fTIyTnvgLDZkWA820tLG7eUTfk7mGhMUZEJZ2ajOPPNoGrUl1nMLUwKjQ14sU9YdOqJR4GuVpFzjRJXTAr5NA/s1600-h/d.a.s.JPG"> [2006, @ EK :)]

[2007, Timezone photobooth.]

In Twitter language:

Seriously, @denise720 && @stefflabordo, we should take more recent & decent photos :>
We all look so...young :))

xo~
good day :)

saved! (hopefully)

Let me just narrate what happened yesterday.

Finally I wrote some stuff in my randomjournal again. Now I know it's called an "Illustrated Journal" :) Thanks to the awesomest book I bought in my whole existence, probably :)

the "WAR" is semi-over I guess, but that probably doesn't mean I could convince her to let me watch Metro Station @ the Ayala Malls w/ Charm or, or going out w/ DAS which I can't wait for. I'm wishing....I'm wishing...

UGH I cannot believe summer is about to end, I feel like I need another week :>

So yesterday we took a different route on Sundays (I thought we were gonna stay home) and went to Bonifacio Global City, Taguig > I wanna live there! To be exact, we went to the Grand Hamptons residences to use the gym there :)) EVERY ONE of us used the gym, even my little sibs :)) I like the equipments they are newwww :)

[thegrandhamptons. i know. wow.]

After hitting the treadmill, bike, the random machines, my back and shoulders were already aching (remember: Wii Fit the day before) so we went to Bonifacio High Street, which I think is the classiest place to shop & dine & hangout in the whole Philippines.

[bonifacio high street.]
[the epidemy of high class shopping.]

First stop: Starbucks Coffee so I had a Green Tea frappe to cut some cals but I don't think it did :) Much better than coffee though :) And I checked Starbucks.com just now its actually 490 cals xD so much for not eating lunch :| Had some sandwiches :)

Second stop: Hobbes & Landes which wasn't really interesting, but I wanted to buy those cute toys that cost around P400 :>

Third stop: Fully Booked! which I loved 'cause of the 5 floors full of books and notebooks and random stuffs! I searched for "Cindy Ella" by Robin Palmer (which was suggested by Erika)



and I wanted to buy "Lucky T" too but it was the third person POV which I don't like. Went to FB w/ my aunt who bought Vegan recipebooks :> (she IS vegan) and then we were almost done but we went to the second floor (young adult) and I saw the Twilight: Director's Notebook OMG so cool I browsed through every page :) If you're a seriously obsessed twilight fan it's something you should buy, but I'm not a ultra huge fan and I didn't wanna waste P700+ :)

So then we went to the 3rd floor (religion) and I saw a corner of Self-Help books. And I stumbled onto a copy of this:

So I was like, ooh, interesting.
And I opened it. And OMG I really knew this may help me regain my artistry and creativity and it's for people who want to draw, how to find creativity in life again (that's me) and frustrated artists (that's sooooo me) so I'm going back to basics and hopefully this book will guide me to find my identity in art.

LOVES IT. I couldn't put the book down (although its on the floor right now xD) so I was like, I reallyyyyyy wanted to buy it (fully colored, P699) so my aunt said it's her advance Xmas gift :> I know, so long :) My bro naman he has advance gifts too for Bday & Xmas (Speed Stax which are sooo cool) so I'm not alone :) :)

YAY I'm so HAPPY about it :)
Sadly though, there are a lot of things I want to accomplish this week :(

My longggg list:

• Study Chemistry, take practice tests, move on to Math, Stats, Trigo, Geom. Hopefully I'll finish by Wednesday.
• Watch Metro Station (if my mom allows) - my excuse to go to the mall & hangout :)
• Visit DAS - Den & Steff :) If possible, go out too! :>
• Draw, draw, draw, be creative by reading The Creative License
• Finish packing my school stuff

Uhh it's few but the first palang it takes a LOT of time.

Back to my events yesterday, we had dinner around 10 na because we still walked around the whole place :> @ TGI Friday's yum I devoured half a burger (i rarely eat beef), some soup and yeah :) I'm a happy living being :)

So I'm gonna grab breakfast, fix my things and get to work, uh, I mean, studying.

xo~

soon-to-be.

I will someday become a frustrated artist.

Obviously because I am not doing anything related to drawing anymore. And not that I don't want to, I'm just not improving.

But let's hope that I won't end up giving up art. I would die if I did, it's one thing I will be remembered for anyhoo.

a taste of everything.

Today is by far the most productive day I've ever had this whole SUCKish week.

I did A LOT of things today, and though I'm not quite done, at least I did each of everything :)

I can conclude that going to my aunt's house helps me be a productive person. I should go there often :))

And despite my mother's attempts to make me feel invisible I don't care by all means. Just to tell her it's NOT my fault I had a breakdown yesterday (without crying. WITHOUT.)

• Read some TimeLife books - about arts/music & how our bodies work (omg, it's sooo kiddy but it was not boring so I had fun reading it!)
• Browsed through my Chem notes (currently on Quantum Numbers)
• Had a mini-siesta (in fact, me, my sis & my cous all slept, 2 of them were left playing Wii. so we were able to sleep with the noisiness :>)
• Ate YUMMY chocolate - KitKat, crispier AND creamier OMG :)) I ate 3 packs of 2 wafers OMG I am going to gain so much weight, I want it to be school na :<
• Then I used my MSA book to take a test about Gen Sci which was awful 'cause I got 69/100. But the wrong ones I really don't know the answers kasi :> So that's fine I guess.
  
• Played Wii FIT. Which reminds me, I WANT ONE grabe :)) We played 2Player running (OMG that was so tiring), ooh I did some Yoga (which was cool) and Hula Hoop! Yay! It was so much better playing in Wii rather than in real life ('cause I hulahoop when I exercise. it's like a 3lb big ring I twirl on. tiring :)) and it was easier 'cause I'm used to moving my wideeee hips around lol :)) FUN FUN FUN.
• Ate steak for dinner. My aunt cooks yummy food :) (walang kwenta yung Wii Fit, it probably burned the carbs I took in with the KitKat) with RED wine. OMG it tasted awful. I hate wine :<>
• Oh let me mention I tasted the BEST jasmine tea ever. My aunt got it from a different country and the tea leaves were real :> Wow.
• Lastly, I read a cookbook and the dishes were mouthwatering :O also ate some almond jelly w/ fruit cocktail. Something refreshing to clean my palate.

:)

Fun fun day, even if my mom won't talk to me.
Well she won't talaga.

xo. :)
I should go hula hoop tomorrow, if not I will be a pig .
lol. xD
Since my mom is deadma-ing me and I cannot go to the gym.
Oh well.
Cest la vie.

Mouth Shut.

Really, I should do that more often.

So when I went home from Makati awhile ago I was pretty sleepy and annoyed. You can tell I had a HORRIBLE day.

But when I got online it was fun :) I chatted with lots of people which made me happy and laugh :)
So now I'm alone and my mum comes up asking the same question with the furious voice: "Bakit ka ba nagagalit kanina? Biglang hindi ka lang nagsalita!"

I could have a long detailed list of reasons, but since it'd hurt anyone's eyes to actually read such long, boring, list, I'll just sum it up.

1. I was extremely sleepy. Yawn.
2. I was talking and commenting and I feel like my cousin (since she knows SOOO much more than me) could just tell my mom what I wanted to say.
3. So yeah apparently I was like an invisible freak there following them like I'm some kind of bodyguard.
4. They don't even agree on me and care only about THEMSELVES.
5. I mean, I wanted to look at a corner of clothes and told them and the both of them just went walking past the other side, not caring if I didn't follow them.
6. So I started sporting the ugliest face I ever could make. I was REALLY pissed and I wished I didn't go nalang. I could've stayed home and studied puking Chem!
7. Of course I won't tell them why I got angry and shut myself up. But then again, who cares if they wound up still wondering why?

Oh and a last reason would be:
8. I'm terrifying angry and mad at how the world turns. How it goes. It's just not right. Most things aren't. So yeah.

There.
I'm not telling them why I got angry, but i'm posting it here.
They won't read it, anyway.

xo.

PS
Todays a horrible day.
But thanks to Erika, Charm, Nix, Joyce, FB chat w/ Mathew & Daph, I kept laughing all night.

Except it came to a halt when my mom got mad AGAIN.
Well yeah she ought to.
But behind everything she knows about me she doesn't really understand me. Only out, not in.

In fact, no one understands me.
How sad.
But I don't understand one bit of myself anyway.
So what's the effin point?

PPS
Finished The Undomestic Goddess.
Maybe this is why I kinda got angry at the world. But I loved reading every page :)
It was a definite pageturner:)

Night :)

Impressions.

I am thinking I am writing very uninteresting blogs lately.
But sadly, my life is not really interesting as it sounds.

Okay anyways just wanted to tackle about impressions, mainly because :

1. I am reading a book that focuses on pretending someone you're not; e.g. a lawyer who just got fired but she really doesn't know life beyond the four-walled office ~
2. I'm probably confused whether to classify myself as an "Expressionist artist" or "Impressionist artist" but really, I'm too desperate to have my status (is that the right term?) as an artist > Abi, The Impressionist.

OMG it sounds like Ventriloquist x)
Gahhh, what the ekfjdskmxvj is wrong with me :[

3. I don't really feel like I deserve "good impression" when it comes to my attitude.

WHY?

Well, one of my aunts called in and she was like, "Why didn't you go? [to Dagupan, my grandparents' house ; it's a Thursday so everyone went.]" and I replied, "I'm studying." She was like, "For what?" I was like, "College entrance exams" so she just said I was soooo bait. Okay. Yeah.

And another thing, feels weird when people say, "Sipag mo talaga! Grabe!" or something like that. Or I am just being too humble but in my mind I am like, "Whuttttt????"

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Ok I am becoming a weirdo right now.
I should stop.
But anyways.
There's just something about staying in and wearing loose house clothes (that is so comfortable!) and sitting in a comfy couch, typing or reading some random chick lit book or watching an addictive Koreanovela that keeps me contented about my life.

Maybe 'cause I keep going out this week. It saddens me.

Actually I would prefer having no maids here so they won't have to go up and clean stuff or call me when it's time for lunch. It's 1 now, I'm not hungry at all. I'll decide what time I'll have some caloric intakes. (Had cookies for breakfast again. WTH? and some Soymilk I had to finish. And bread. talk about those, I'm not hungry at all! hahaha.)

So yeah don't think I'm all good 'cause I'm SOOOO not.
And now I'm going to tun on the air conditioning unit 'cause I'm sweating undeniably despite the fact that strong rain came awhile ago. Can't it just continue its job making the sky gloomy and freezing the weather so I don't need to turn on the aircon and save electricity and save the earth and i should stop typing now 'cause I don't really write like this and I'm terrifyingly bored but I'll continue reading The Undomestic Goddess so i could escape from reality which is my favorite thing.

Yes, thank goodness I stopped that sentence.

Until I get bored again and have something tacky and pointless to write about ;)
xo.

"Jake, run!"

[scream!]
[the vampire vs. werewolf duel is ON.]
[i must say, Jake looks semi-hot narin xD but i still like Edward's sharp/white face.]
[it looks so much like a CG. Wow. I'm astonished by it wow wow wowwwww.]
xo.

wobbly wednesday.

About the title: watda?
I am such a fuh-reak. :)

So today I have nothing to do, as in I literally wanted to lay in bed (ahem, lazyboy couch rather) and just listen to my shuffled iPod songs and eventually take a siesta. But no, I couldn't do that.

Although I can say today was a day full of CARBS ( chocolate chip cookies & gummies for breakfast, anyone?), PAIN (my face was stuck with tonsssss of needles) and CHILLS (i got quite wet 'cause of the rain). Lol much?

I've started reading "The Undomestic Goddess" by Sophie K. It's pretty cool. I'm now on page 70, probably gonna continue later. It's getting much more interesting the more I flip the pages :)

Anyways, besides that, I did some random doodling at my random notebook today.

Wow, that's Sooooo random :>

Seriously, I did. I even drew two ladies in semi-portrait. Glad I could still do that, I miss drawing like hell, I can't imagine not drawing for a year :| Okay let's not be too OTT hereeee :)

Things I did today that I usually DON'T do:

• listened to tons and tons of music (and never got sick of it! i <3>
• ate lots and lots of gummy bears (because we went to Sofitel yesterday)
• ate lots and lots of food (i'm supposed to be eating, ahem, "healthy"... whatever, i binged today)
• drew. nuff said. never drew anything for months.
• watched "Awimbawe" on YouTube. 'cause it reminded me of ArtsWork. and my siblings couldn't stop laughing at the uberly obese cute, grey hippo :)

Yeah that's just about it. I was really devastated of myself yesterday, hence I didn't make an entry. I was really frustrated because of some news. But now it's kind of shut so yeah, I should just trust myself better that this coming schoolyear, I will...

I will try to make a list of resolutions for the new S.Y.

• Stop being emo. 'cause it just sucks.
• Wear glasses, so that I could see everyone and smile at them and say Hi so they won't get scared of my evil, devilish, scary squinting eyes (i am NOT evil. hahaha. hello there ;D)
• Make more friends, so I won't end up crying during makabayan day & chinese day, the two hatest days in my school calendar.
• Be more helpful. I am really liking the job Airra will / might / uncertainly offer me. I like :D
• Study harder. I want a bright future.
• Pick the right courses at the different college universities I opted to apply in : ADMU, DLSU, UST, CSB (ADMU! crossing my fingers!)
• Lastly, not be emo about this person when i see him and i hope never to see his face again so i will be able to wear a happy face everyday (sorry, sama ko, not blaming you or anything. it just works that way.)

There. I will accomplish all those.
For sure.
Maybe.
Let's see :>

xo.
next entry: new moon poster which i like :)

the "awkward" silence.

I remember Erika telling me in ArtsWork that when there's an awkward silence, it can only mean one thing : a GAY is born.

OMGad that is sooo random but who knows if it's true?

But I didn't know another thing would be if you have the awkward silence with a person, there must be something between the two of you. True love, perhaps? Gah, whatever, I do wonder if there is such thing as an awkward silence, let alone if there's something like true love itself.

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As much as I wrote a bulleted list of what I'm supposed to be doing today, I ended up doing only two of them, which were:

• Read Rosie Dunne. (and finished it.)
  
• Know my section. (Section B.)

Change of plans is what you call it. Anyhoo, I preferred staying indoors today, drenched in the super cold air conditioning unit, drank iced Milo and yummy chips, listened to Hannah Montana and Jonas Brothers' songs (yes, I am one of their fans) to pump up my mood (which I like, 'cause Miley's songs really get me in a good mood), labeled my books (haven't wrapped yet), read Rosie Dunne (i keep mentioning it!) and took a nap, and finished reading the said book, my family members went home kinda pissed off (they're always like that without me, hmmm....), munched on a delicious original glazed Krispy Kreme doughnut, and now going online blogging about it.

:)

Anyways.
I have this really weird fact to share.

• When I read books, or when I finish the last sentence of the book rather, I always have this weird expression on my face which I cannot utterly describe, but I do have that expression and it's crazy. I don't smile. I look dumbfoundedly in shock.

Maybe it's just because I don't prefer things to eventually end so soon.
I mean, when I read Twilight twas either I smiled at the end or put on a sad face.

Speaking of Twilight, I've watched the New Moon trailer! OMGness :O Jacob looks good na din. It's a tough match but Edward looks so much better in this new movie 'cause I think Rob Pattinson acts better here, so does Kristen S.

Anyways my laptop is running low on batt, gotta jet before it runs out completely!

PS if you want to read Rosie Dunne, you have to like reading e-mails, chats, letters and the like.

Well I do :)

and you have to dig deep on the whole storyline. i laughed at the other parts though :) so funny :>

xo.
is not ready for SHHHCCCCKULLLLL.

Lines, Vines & Trying Times

that phrase is so cool. iloveit.

Anyways, I'm up this early to check the sections. Which are taking sooo long to load, but I can imagine. Imagine about 2000+ or more students wanting to view it...ugh they should've just gave us class permits and all is well. Except, one benefit of this would be seeing who your classmates are. *scream!* I hope to be classmates with good people. Yun lang. Not people who would haunt me (I didn't have that last year, thank goodness, but i didn't really like our class last year) again & again. I'm already sick of it :>

One more thing. IDK why I didn't like the Jonas Brothers' Third Album "A Little Bit Longer"... I just disliked it (hey, my opinion! don't kill me or what!) hopefully their fourth album (which I might buy) would sound much better and more like their second album (Jonas Brothers) which I really liked and got super addicted to.
[cover of their fourth album.]
[i like it.]
[except why does Joe have curly hair too? :<]
[it saddens me :( i liked it straight!! ]

I'm downloading "Fly With Me" which was the credits song (what? weird term) of Night at the Museum 2 (which I repeat, I didn't like). :>

Speaking of curls I was really bored yesterday after we went to Shang (wherein I saw two batchmates) so I was experimenting my hair and doing a "messy-bun-artist-look" hmmm it looks quite good. Then I got the curlingiron/straightiron (2-in-1) and curled my hair. It took a long time 'cause I had to style it pa and stuff but it looks really cool hahaha. I am soooo not gonna post the pic here :)) It's for private viewing (by myself) only :))

Anyways I gotta run.

Today I:

• have absolutely no plans of studying. will try to squeeze though. i will do studying tomorrow. i swear to lock myself in my little room, turn on the aircon, and the iPod, clear all the stuff in my desk, and put all my studying materials and study until i finish (thats what I did during the chem PT. hahaha)
• will probably go to the gym and burn all the yummy beef pepper rice I ate yesterday at Pepper Lunch (again.)
  
• is going to torture myself at the derma. it's my fault I kept sleeping at 1am.
• NEED to know my section. NEED.
• of course, am going to read Rosie Dunne.
• and lastly, make my day productive.

xo.