I made it to 150 posts! lol.

I feel like isolating myself for some reason. I need to study 100% diligently and really hard for the college entrance exams if I want to get in Ateneo. It's gonna be tough. :(

Wish me luck. It's no joke anymore. I gotta focus.

PS On a lighter note, can't wait for:

• Baguio : April 29-May2 with maternal relatives
• Ateneo Art Workshop : myself. what a challenge. i feel excited but nervous.
• HK/Macau : last minute getaway! June3-7. Shopping :>

xo~

I really need to study.
But I can't concentrate at all :(

Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow. -Doug Firebaugh

healthy yet guilty

The menu I planned today is quite healthy but I doubt.
lol x)
I did add a little healthy alternatives, like less sugar in French Toast, healthy granola for the parfait (I found a healthy recipe online hahaha) whole wheat spag for the pasta (Taste NOTHING like whole wheat lol)

Made it all this a.m. (for mom's bday) It was tiring! At least I didn't sweat much since it was early morning like 6am haha.

So Sleeepyyyy :| I'm gonna go eat somemore pasta :] For lunch. Hahaha.
Diets are off today :>
Hahaha x)

if we just don't get it our own way.

I'm positive that I am lazy enough to not finish my layout.
I have to apologize to myself for my lack of inspiration.

Oh, come on! [talks to my mind] why won't you work?

Kidding aside, that was SO awkward, people might think I'm an insane girl :O Of course not, just wondering why my artistic ability isn't as consistent. Actually, looking back, I remember the first time a person taught me basic body proportions (it was Krystle I think) was when I was in grade 4. Wow. I will never ever post my old drawings they are horrifyingly ugly x)

My "timeline":

Grade 4. Basic body proportions, anime-ish art, started to write letters. Haha I miss those times :>

Grade 5. Gayle's BOX. It's a box where I put pieces of stationery (w/ text, I write there my everyday happenings) and lock it. A twist on a typical journal-diary notebook.

Grade 6. Fashion designing. As in. I was known for that before ;) Then I started watching Project Runway. Still watches :) Awesome show.

High 1. All - in - One and Updates on Life. The summer before this schoolyear started I already bought a journal, so I wrote everyday stuffies. Basically this "era" was full - on writing. No art at all. During that summer (my fave one so far) I learned a lot in CSS thingamajigs + HTML, also, started to get inclined w/ music.

High 2. Behind everything. I was struggling at first, but then I found my place, I did doodles at first - a lot of people I knew sort of copied it I think, ahhh, I don't know what ya call it :> Then transformed into psychedelic and abstract. Very productive year for me, and spent a lot on buying fineliners x) Although I balanced both art and writing. I did post on my blog and had Updates on Life : on with the journey so it was really a creative "era" :)

High 3. Chasing rainbows xo. More of writing, drawing wasn't really my forte at this point, mostly because I have been drained I guess. I mean last year I kept drawing, writing... non stop! I may need a break. Hahaha! So I usually write in my blog, and lately have been doing CSS themes again :) Not much, but it resembles my 1st year, I also am musically addicted at the moment. Keeps me soothed and optimistic about life. :)

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Notice the alternate : Draw - write - draw - write - draw - write

Will draw be next again? :)
Let's wait & see.

xo~

hello, goodbye, so long.

Before I go all cheesy and like having a written speech, I'll just tell you what happened today.

We watched 17 Again! Yay :)Went to Shang w/ my folks (and I mean my mom, sis & bro) and my relatives (Jean + family). Walked around, I honestly am shocked I am not really that annoyed when I don't get to buy something. Although unlike awhile ago when I was picking my outfit I had a really hard time (wow, so weird, first time!) haha! Yesterday we also went to Shang (w/ my aunts) to find my mom's gift. Actually, it was really hard! I ended up purchasing a checkered blouse from Kamiseta (w/c cost P1199, split w/ sis) and called it a night. Hello, we walked for like 5 hours! Glad to know our dinner @ Green Tomato was yummy :) Gave me more energy to walk, walk, walk! The other stuff we found apparently had no stock (like the Crocs) so... hope she likes it! I think so, because as weird as it sounds whatever she likes, I like! Well not all, I dislike the loose blouse thingy. So preggy like, I only like the ones with the cut below the bust and accentuates the waist.

Okay back to what I was saying, we walked around...ate @ CPK, yum! :) had fun bonding w/ them, I'm kinda sick of just hanging out w/ my folks here. Superrr stuffed, then we watched at 6.55PM.

I LOLed the whole time. It was soooo funny! As in! And it's really an awesome movie 'cause it tackles w/ realistic events, although I am experiencing NONE of it. Hahaha :))

Zac Efron is super handsome to death! xD He's a really good actor I.M.O. :)

Then we are home.
And it is raining so hard.
Watching Lizzie McGuire movie, but not really attentive at it. I'm blogging!
BTW my eyebags are like, SO DEEP. Because I sleep really late.

Agenda for tomorrow:
Since I'm making breakfast for mum on her day (04.21 - I know, I'm really mabait, what a shocker!) I'm making the granola tomorrow (in advance) for the granola parfaits.

Menu Plan I made: (Breakfast)
Well since I'm not that good in the kitchen still (I tend to suck at times, sometimes I rock it xD) I gathered a few ideas from the net but here's what I will make:

Granola Parfait, French Toast (the classics :D), Whole Wheat Spaghetti w/ a light marinara sauce (tomato sauce)
Hopefully that would be successful x) I remember last year for Mothers' Day I made a lousy omelette :| Well for this menu I'm implementing HEALTHY alternatives :) lol I'm a health buff but definitely not all the time :]

Okay, it's raining, the thunder is frightening me.
Goodnight!

PS I haven't reviewed yet and I bought another review book, well it's handy :) Tiny but terrible :]

PPS Realized that everything happens for a reason (so cliche xD) and that at the moment I am not drawing AT ALL doesn't really mean its the end of my artistic side, I'm not really "quitting", but I'm like on a vacation without it :D Doesn't feel that bad, it's not my fault I'm not that compelled to do practically anything creative at the moment, I may need a break :) Goodbye and thank you to the people in the past who opened my life to art and discovering a part of me - but now it's shutting down so...hopefully in the future someone better would further open my world to better things, better experiences... :)

Quotes by Pablo Picasso:
“Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once we grow up.”
“Inspiration exists, but it has to find us working.”

xo~

breathe!

LOL I just finished adding some widgets to my blog. It's kind of messy still so I'll go fix it some time :)
Hello I still have to push through with my layout.
But now I'll be needing to have a bath.
It's so HOT! No other way to beat the heat xD

Well I did eat some ice cream - YUM!
Selecta Gold Chocolate Truffle! :)
HEAVEN at a reasonable price.

Imagine eating THIS in the form of ice cream ^_____^
P.S. Don't ask, I am a SUCKER for dark chocolate or even ganache ^ (mixture of chocolate & cream which is the inside filling of a truffle)

:) Insanity has struck.
xo~

first day of selfreview = horror.

3 words.

HOR RI BLE.

I suck at English my goodness. No, it's because I made it under time pressure. Anyways, I did test myself on the ff. areas:
Analogy (One Word Approach)
Spelling (quite confusing although I am pretty good at it since birth)
Correct usage of words (practical much)
Identifying Errors (gah, this sucks!)

Well I hope I can keep up. This is just English! There's still the dreaded Mathematics which has Trigonometry & Statistics (which I LOATHE) and the complicated Science which has DIFFICULTY written all over it.

But I did borrow an antique ALGEBRA I book from my lola's house for some help in Math. Hmm I'll probably follow Kristin and read the damned thing hahaha :)) Wala lang, it might be more effective that drowning myself in my old HS notes although my notes are pretty neat :)

Except Gen Sci notes gah. I didn't learn anything valuable there AT ALL.
As in ZEROOOO. :<

Too awkward for an honor student to write something like this :)
I'm so different from what people think.

One more thing, I'm not quite familiar w/ general information on things, I do know some, more in the field of health & fitness (you couldn't imagine how much times I have surfed online about dieting, metabolism, BMI, foods that have certain vitamins & minerals that keep us healthy - fiber, carbs, fat, monounsaturated fats, polysaturated, CALORIES, kiloujoules...yeah keep it coming! and all the random stuff in that area.) and cooking of course and some commonly known facts since I really love reading almanacs, encyclopedias (ahem, unless they are boring, I like colorful ones :D) and the like.

I need help :( It's making me LAZY you know.
I don't want to fail Ateneo :(

PS IDK why Multiply Customized Themes has not yet published my theme WTH?!


xo~

stars are streetlights to eternity

I love that statement ^

For the time being my blog will be drenched in pure white :)
I see quite a lot of PVs today. Thanks :)

I'm not really the best blogger, but it's a pleasure to write. It feels uber relaxing :D
I'm currently at a good, easy, calm mood :]

Listening to:

Rule the World by Take That from the movie Stardust

I love the song + the movie :)

At the moment I'm organizing my imeem account. I haven't opened it for quite a while so yeah. And 2 musicians invited me to be their friend : Secondhand Serenade! OMG! and All Time Low!

I feel so connected to the stars x) Such a freak :>

Actually, I have accounts in these places:
Friendster Multiply hi5 Blogger Xanga YouTube Imeem DeviantART Twitter Cbox Flickr iLike

:O

But I only check these regularly:
Multiply Blogger Twitter deviantART

:)

Why the title?
I made a Multiply Theme :) w/ that concept.
Go check it @ my multi only open for multiply users :>

xo~

unhappy ~

I hate the feeling of discontentment.

Well, most of the time I just try to bear with it, or not think about it, but sometimes I think it's a good way to make things better.

Me not liking my blog layout. I want it highclass :( Not really, but you gotta see the skins in www.blogskins.com and compare it to mine it just doesn't work :> So I might make.

But I'm not quite sure yet because I need a firm concept for my layout which will really describe or express ME as an artist/writer/student/person :)

Hopefully i won't have a hard time :>

I've been like, Tweeting since yesterday and it is quite fun :) Jenette McCurdy from iCarly is following me x) Cool lol. I'm following like, tons of celebs, even Joe Jonas :> and I see Miley & Perezhilton having a cat fight which is weird. I wonder if it's for real or just for show :| Anyways back to reality.

Will do a blog layout SOON. :)

xo~

new layout -

Yes naman :>

Nice to have my blog all drenched in blue green, one of my fave hues aside from violet and salmon pink.

And I so love the braces on the side, because it just blends in all the banner and bg and overall feel to the site.

Although it's not that good, I'm proud I accomplished it :) Takes an afternoon of inspiration and Photoshop experimentation to do that. In fact, I personally think you don't need to be thoroughly educated in art, it just comes when it desires to ;)

What do you think [about the layout]?

I had so many options of color as in super. It all boiled down to this :) Since my old blog is in salmonpink/red [xanga.com/grayishskies] I thought maybe this could give a different feel :)
But, this is not permanent yet. You know me, if there's a better way to make it better, then I will do it...but this one for the meantime just so my blog won't all be whitey and clean. :)

Banner by me hooray :) yay me :)
Brushes credits [I'll add another gadget w/ my credits, plus my playlist, so still under construction]

Time for evening relaxation :) Just had a sumptuous bowl of shabu-shabu and refreshing orange juice. Now time to sit back, and watch heck of lotsa TV :) Yeah X)

xo~

lazy :O

I shouldn't be sitting right now and acting like a couch potato.
But I'm pretty much thinking of making my blog layout...except I am not in the creative mood by all means.
:)
I am bored and it's so early! Just 9 in the a.m.!
Blogging maybe later.

*
Right now I'm:
checking my Twitter which I'm not really psyched about, no offense, blogging is better.
I told you, I hate short statements - I like everything in detail ~
Yeah I'm the queen of detail X)

xo~

exploring Bohol

This will be long. Haha.
But you guys know I'm fond of writing long entries.
Short is just not enough for me :]

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Trip Details
Date: April 9-12, 2009
Time: well our flight was 9am I think, takes only an hour to get there
Company: went with paternal relatives
Destination: Tagbilaran, Bohol [Tagbilaran Airport]
Accomodations: Bohol Beach Club in Panglao Island [30min-1hr trip from airport]
Places visited:


Double click for full view and better view~

Anyways, I'll just narrow down what we did there.

Day 1. Tourist Spots in Bohol.

Double click for full view ~

So we went to NAIA Terminal 3 for our flight, did see Judenites there... it's a newly opened terminal so it's really beautiful and clean and chic and so avant garde-ish. Flew to Bohol w/ Cebu Pacific [cheaper and better!] and arrived, HOT! Then we rode a bus and headed off to the Sanduguan which is where Miguel Lopez de Legaspi and Sukatuna* [not sure abt. the sp.] made a pact of some sort. I did learn this but forgot x) Lunch at Loboc River Cruise which I personally dislike. Then to Chocolate Hills, which was burning hot! Then to Tarsier viewing. Quite creepy though, they were really fragile and it is prohibited now to touch them. We headed to Baclayon Church and saw the inside and headed to dinner at Bohol Bee Farm.

* I personally recommend visiting Bohol Bee Farm. It reminds me of Sonya's Garden which is awesome too. Organic stuff, and the bags there are too cute! Not pricey, very affordable. Try having their dinner buffet there it's about P500-600 per adult. Yummy food! And the must buy there in my opinion are their cassava chips, camote bread [as a bread lover, me love this very much!], squash muffins [it's healthy!], their pure Molave Honey [very much organic], honey spread [yum! but I didn't buy] and pesto spread [yummmmm I just had to buy it] and if you want hot chocolate purchase a box of their Honeyed Organic Tableya - pretty good, except I drank this morning and it was burnt :( curse me! :) Also their necklaces are super cheap! Like P50-60 a piece and it's really pretty. Oh, we also bought a hat and place mats and my mom bought a raffia bag which is so beachy and affordable!

So it's a shopper's haven I tell you ;)*

Then we checked in at Bohol Beach Club, wow first day was tiring. We kept walking and sweating. lol.

Day 2. Beach disaster

Look at my leg w/ the bruises I got from that stinkin' jellyfish.
EWWWWW.
I've never been bruised like this EVER. But it is a fact that most of my injuries, bruises & wounds are in my legs, and knees. What's so controversial about it? *raises eyebrows*

Anyhow, day 2 was interesting, and yeah I got stung BAD...I was just like enjoying the water and then something bit me so I ran from the water and it hurt REAL bad. Really, so I put on vinegar and if you saw its condition during that time it was disgusting...eww....just eww...
I did eat a lot this day, and the next, as in BINGE. Well it's not my fault because it's for worthwhile [sulit, sayang eh!] purposes haha. I did chug down tons of water and walked real far [our room was far from the restaurant!] so that helped I guess. So that the calories won't get stuck in my body [else I will suffer!] haha :) All we did was like, swim. But I hate swimming so I just stood inside the pool :[

Day 3 we also went to the city of Tagbilaran, but there was nothing much, all I can say was the driver who took us home almost killed me to ultimate death. He was probably at 120mph or something. Imma kill him!

The last day was not much, we rode a glass bottom boat which wasn't really interesting, and I think it was because we were pretty much tired already...
Our flight was at 2pm and we arrived Manila @ 3pm. Home!

I didn't really notice that we were in Manila because the airport [as I have said] is so new and avant garde and awesome I thought we were in Japan [but, we're in NAIA Terminal 3] and the interior sort of reminds me of Hong Kong Airport mixed with Narita Airport [Japan] :)

Speaking of which can't wait for our next trip [not sure yet] in HongKong and Macau!
WOOOH! :D

Me with my cousins + family @ the new NAIA Terminal 3:
Stuff I bought:
Well I simply love the bag I purchased ^ bluish bohemian native feel, kind of costly (P425) but I just saw it in one place - in front of the Loboc River Cruise area so get one if you go there! :) Also bought Peanut Kisses which is their famous delicacy there. Although I'm not a fan of peanuts so I haven't opened a pack yet, and I don't plan to since I'll end up devouring the whole pack X)

Lucky if you're my contact, view the pics @ http://absclaudine.multiply.com :)

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Random notes:

• My self review starts Thursday [I've made a planner already, hope I'll be diligent enough!]
• Just watched KCA 2009 and I tell you it was CUT. Nickelodeon sucks! But it was pretty awesome. PCD performed awesome I love their song [Jai Ho] from Slumdog Millionaire and of course the JoBros! I love them even if I don't listen to their songs anymore and I've gotten over the Joe Jonas fever :))
• Boys before Flowers later on KBS! Episode 16 or 17 yey :) reminiscing! Channel 69 or 75 (Sky/HomeCable)
• I'm so dark! :(
• I don't know whether to cut my hair or not. Hahaha. I am still thinking about it X3

Anyways signing off~
Dinner!

P.S. Visit these sites if you're interested in seeing Bohol [wow I'm endorsing wth XD]
Bohol Bee Farm website
Bohol Beach Club website
:)

home sweet home~

I just got home from our trip about...3 hours ago.
I am semi-tired :D

Nice to be back, though.

So I will probably do an entry about it tomorrow...and I have to plan my review sessions [my SELFreview sessions.] Let's see if I'm diligent and disciplined enough :] Anyways I suppose I'll start this Tuesday or something..English, Science then Math...all upto June so it'll be kind of disarranged but I'll sort of jot it at a calendar for a more stable review. Plus I still have to attend the Humanities workshop which will be halfday morning for about 3 weeks in May. Wow. It's still so far.

Right now my agenda is:
Well, only a few. I'm not that of a busy girl you know.
Summer = relax, not be busy. ;)

1. Make my blog layout! Or simply just a pretty background will do. Simplicity, is in fact, always best.
2. Buy my mom's gift! So this is really panic. April 21 is the deadline, but she likes this pair of Crocs [yucks, I dislike these, but the style she wants is pretty cute, might fit myself into it] and I might purchase it [split with my sister] and this MNG top I can't find it in the net :) But I did find some awesome outfits. Haha makes me inspired to revamp my closet ;)
3. Which is actually my 3rd agenda, to alter my personal style and take it to another level. Like wearing more wholesome outfits, 'cause my usual bores me to death, which is a shirt w/ bermuda shorts [knee length]. Right now I opt for layering or sleeveless [hello, it's hot!] and shorts. And skirts :[ Not really a fan but I usually wear them but anyways, just want to dress nice and feel confident and all. When other people can, why can't I? :) It's a free world!
4. Prepare stuffies for Garage Sale. Well, not much of a bother though. :)
5. Get inspired = so I can do more art GAD! I haven't been drawing since February! Nyakk!! X3
6. Eat healthier. I need to stop my cravings. Hahaha. I finished my *craved foods* so I need not worry I hope. And at least right now I don't really feel bad about my body [except I just got back from Bohol and I am REALLY stuffed! Buffet food! XD] unlike before. All hail!
7. REVIEW. Hands Down. Must focus! I have loads of review books here all handmedowns :)
   

So far those are, my agendas ;)
I plan but don't make 'em :)
But some of these I have already accomplished. hahaha.

Some things I learned from Bohol + Some facts/opinions I got there:

1. My "million dollar legs" [ahem, I got these from mom!] got stung by that suck*** jellyfish because it is, well, "million dollar". The point is, DON'T GO TO A BEACH WITH NO PEOPLE. More chances of getting jellyfish infected. It doesn't feel good you know.
2. If you're staying at the Bohol Beach Club, stay at the Amihan rather than the Habagat. The place is better.
3. Request plastic from the waiter and take home the yummy cinnamon rolls, cheese rolls and camote bread from the bread section during breakfast. Hahaha :)
4. Jam w/ butter is YUM :)
5. Peanut Kisses is the famous pasalubong from Bohol. Please, if you want to buy, BUY AT THE BQ [Bohol Quality] SUPERMARKET. You'll save P4.00 off from the gift shops. ;)
6. When you're flying Cebu Pacific, bring a jacket. When we departed from Tagbilaran I was freezing to death 'cause I was in sleeveless [already layered!] but I was FREEZING as in!
7. When you want something, BUY IT. There's no other way.
   
8. The place is five times better than Boracay. Will tell you why in my next entry :)

Hmm, got addicted to writing eh?
More tomorrow :)

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credits:
Clothes/Outfits from http://www.mangoshop.com and http://www.promod.eu
Food Pics from http://www.foodnetwork.com [my fave website!]

Happy Easter!

bohol=byebye.

I'm out to see tarsiers & chocolate hills.
Wish me luck I won't dislike it.
Me + zoo + beach + hotness of weather = DISASTER.
Tried & tested, okay.
I'm excited to get outta my crib, though. Pretty boring now.
4 days' worth of [insert adjective here]

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Have a reflective Holy Week.
Well, as for me, I'll prolly refrain eating much, and eating meat.
xoxo~

lonely soul

I may not be all emo-ish anymore [thank god!] but I do quite a lot of contemplation lately. Hmm. Pretty weird, I'm not really this type of person.

And I tend to want to be alone these days. I don't like calling my friends, going online, socializing...lol I'm practically exploring my own persona before I have to get into others'.

And I have concluded that I will not be drawing for a specific time, maybe for 2 months? IDK, I'm not the type of artist that just grabs a pencil and paper and scribbles all the way, especially lately as I have matured and deviated from my usual typical art [back when I was still 14] 'cause I'm really critical, as in UBER critical. I can spend all day lamenting and belittling myself much more than I cn judge anyone else...which is weird...but I'm not all "low self-esteem" type, except, sometimes I still feel like that, esp. the fact that I have no friggin piece of art to show people, and I'm afraid I won't get any better. But seriously, the more I think about it, writing IS an art, which usually enhances my thinking skills and critical actions. Which is good ^___^ I may not be the best at everything but I could do them well. I guess, it's my opinion on myself. lol.

If there's something I probably am thinking of right now, it would be how complicatedly aweful life has become. The easy way out isn't always the easiest - well, this is how I see it. Kind of weird, there's so much to life and I feel as if I won't be having the chance to experience it by the least. It feels weird just sitting here and letting time pass when other people are wishing for more time, or doing worthy things to use time wisely, but me, I'm just like, sitting here, listening to my iPod, or surfing the net [well, I don't find this worthless at times, I do alot of research about random things just to increase my knowledge at some point - except I don't research anything about Math, Science, English...the boring stuff :>] waiting for life to happen. Weird huh.

Hmmmmm.....

By the way, who is 'person' are you from SJ? [I doubt, I think I was the only one accepted]
Well whoever you are lolz how did you get my blog link?
:|

xoxo~

Current playlist:
Yearning of the Heart by A'ST1*
Ever Ever After [cheessssyyyy!!!] by Carrie Underwood
Broken Strings by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado
Talk You Down by The Script [I love the Script! they ROCK!]
What Should I Do - Ji Sun [very sad song, and very beautiful as well]*

*Boys Before Flowers OST. [I'm still in aftershock after watching, it's awesome hahaha.]

~ :)

a letter.

Dear Successful ArtsWork Applicant,

Thank you for your interest in the Arts Workshop in Ateneo this Summer
2009. This time, we had 70 applicants from all over Metro Manila and
saw how much talent our youth have in this country. We had to be
thorough in the selection of the top 30 successful applicants because
everyone was very good.

I'm happy to inform you that your name has been counted among the top
30 applicants! Many congratulations!

*
Hmm. Ok.

It is weird.
But, wish me luck.

Anyways, I'm very undoubtfully happy today, and it's because...
I'm planning to ditch my past life woohoo!
I even came up with this idea to like take my art to the next level.
Well I'm not really sure but hopefully I'll conceptualize.
Hey, it's not easy formulating art styles. Last time I had to like, work hard to achieve what I have achieved despite its littleness* [meaning I'm not successful or something, meaning it's not a big deal for other people]
And I listen to upbeat songs right now.

My current faves are songs of HEY MONDAY!
I can't believe I prejudged this group, thinking they just followed Paramore.
Actually, they remind me of the Veronicas! Which used to be my favorite music artists so that's a good thing :>

My fave is Run, Don't Walk, How You Love Me Now and Should've tried Harder.
And Entertain The Pain by My favorite Highway is totally. Totally awesome.
Who couldn't forget the songs from Boys Before Flowers so awesome :) My fave is TMAX's Paradise [reminds me of the trip they went to New Celadonia] Yearning Heart! My fave! It reminds me of Dong Le by Tank in Hana Kimi.

See, I'm in a good mood, yahooooooo!! :))
LOL Bear with me!

xoxo~

chasing

So it seems like I'm the only one who got in.
Okay. Some people don't care anyway...
I wonder why I'm so prioritizing this thing like it's going to help me find myself.
Well, I'm hoping it will.
And it's because I'm chasing my dream after it.
I mean, how the hell will I want to pursue in college?
I can do art, I have passion, but it is temporary only.
I don't even know what force or insanity has been drilled into my head that I decided to attend this workshop rather than basking under the beauty of one of the best places to be in the world.
Great, I'm probably crazy for doing that.
But I don't even know how I'll survive being alone.
Hopefully I won't be.
Maybe I'll meet people who'll change my life forever.
Who knows.
Life's too good to be true.
I don't really know how it works - fate, destiny, by all means, love...
Is it just so easy to forego?
I can answer that, NO.
But I have to.
And even if I found out that he didn't submit at all,
I'm still going to chase my dream.
I've never been accepted. I've never won. I've never succeeded.
Yet.
Someday I wish I will. Someday.
How cowardly of me to say that I was going because I thought of you. If you would be there.

Now, I don't even care. Why bother, eh?
I am nothing to you, technically.
You are nothing to me, now.
Thanks anyway. For everything.

This will be the last time I'll be writing about you.
I don't like grieving over something that never even happened - in your eyes.

I'm chasing my dream, chasing the light. Well, I guess it is bright. I think. Hope it helps me decide on the future.

The future, that I hope, won't have you be fit in the picture once more.
Because then my picture wouldn't be picture-perfect anymore.

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wow.
you'd think I'd write some freaky statement like that one above? ^


That's TOTALLY not me. I swear.
HAHAHA.
I'm starting to feel good about writing again :D
Yay me :)

march1309

60 years of longlasting love.
And 30+ grandchildren :)
Loads of fun.

easy?

It's never that simple.
But I wonder.

The things that happened before - I think it's typically a fact that we tend to forget it and bereave it, whatever memorabilias were involved or something...Gah I'm being vague.

Right now I am waiting for life to happen. Well, actually it's supposed to be, "I am making my life happen" but I find that entirely impossible. My creativity is not alive at the moment, I am NOT inspired that's why! I need something new to happen in life or something extraordinary and I bet I will do randomly crazy but I hope - awesome artworks. So yeah.

Things I do for about a week now:

• watching B.B.F./B.O.F. [whatever, it is boys OVER or boys BEFORE flowers, I'm watchin it] and sleeping late. I'm in Ep14 now, I have to finish until 25 until next Wed! So I can enjoy Bohol without wondering WTH is the end of the Kdrama. hahaha.
• going to perezhilton.com to read juicy gossip. Hahaha. His entries are hilarious. :>
• going to Yahoo! Answers. Hahaha. I like looking at people's P-O-Vs once in awhile, see how they think without knowing I am looking at it :3
• watching TV and binging. Nah, kidding, I don't binge. I'm just addicted to Dark Raisinets at the moment 'cause my mom bought a big pack! I hate raisins, but, hello dark chocolate :]
• Sleeping and waking up late! Yay! But I'm adjusting. I'm an early bird so, I eat breakfast now at around 9-10 which is weird cause I usually eat aroung 7-8 believe it or not lol.
• I've made a Twitter account. But I just read the celebrities and what they're tweeting about. I'm such a stalker :O lol. Hello I AM BORED! Hahaha.

Updates on me [just because I dumped the fact that I still write journals, I have 17+ notebooks available but my mind won't conceptualize my writing skills :D]

• I got into the top 6 which is a big deal for me because I didn't expect it. Cheers to myself :) I'm proud of myself even if I'm not the top 3 or anything [Tssss. I can dream as if!] I'm already happy.
• I found my prom pic:) Yay it was inside my Chem ntbk. Now my mom won't reprimand me!
• Hmm, anyone tell me if you got in the Ateneo workshop!!!! Oh come on :( I feel loner-ish you knowwwww.
• So far my relationship w/ my cousins is in a good state, well, technically I used to be really far from Jean already [during the duration of last schoolyr] but this summer it's pretty okay I guess. That's nice :)
• Hey I think I didn't post the pics from our March13 party. I think. Lemme post at the next entry.
  

:)
haven't written this long.
I miss writing you know, and jotting my thoughts down. Very frustrating when I'm not writing.
Glad I did.

~abiii

hooked

There's just something about Asian drama that keeps me hooked every second. I don't really watch all the time, this is my second. My last marathon [Twdrama] was Hana Kimi. Now it's Boys Before/Over Flowers. lol. Kdrama time.

My cousin is such a BI lol I have been sleeping around 3am every night to watch F4 Korean style!

They are sooooo goodlooking :D :D :D lol. Insane me but this will keep me busy [watching] before I head off to Bohol. After Holy Week, I gotta start becoming a nerd again lol.

:)