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So it's a few days until Christmas.
It's just unusual how this year's about to end.

Hmm. Our Xmas break has begun today, but I still need to head to school later for our Sportsfest.
Go Seniors!

RTFTW:

• We lost. It's just that I feel like when I join something I never win. Nevertheless, our voices weren't loud, I did my best in projection, but apparently some did not. I think they said we even placed 4th. Either way, luckily I got out of my depression state yesterday in the afternoon LOL-ing at our shooting for the Jose Rizal movie thing. From the beat boxing (c/o Charm) to the funny incidents and stories plus gift opening with Nix, I've recovered much :)
• I got a total of 5 notebooks! Wow. And I got a lot of necklaces. my jewelry box is like, full. xD
• Excited to shop & have a mini photo shoot w/ Nix on Saturday, Dec. 19 :) Woot. Maybe, just maybe, I may finally have a post for lookbook :) LOL.
  
• I'm still undecided whether to spend my savings on those flat boots from Zara, or the band vest still from Zara or to buy mary janes, a beanie, lace tights and tops instead of the above mentioned Zara items. Aaaaaah.
• I want a Canon Powershot for graduation! xD
• I think I'm too materialistic. It's just that I wanna look good in Dubai xD
• and for all the days of my life xD
• Anyways, it's Xmas Break! WOOT.
• You're so useless.

MY CLOSET
I just bought super lots of stuff since the end of November until now.

• Topshop Dark Vio Cardigan
• The Ramp suede violet booties
  
• MNG Xbody bag
• BAYO red sailor-ish dress
• Giordano full-length semi-glossy leggings
  
• St. James Bazaar sequined ponytail
• St. James Bazaar vintage heart necklace
• St. James Bazaar violet wavy headband
• 168 Mall Harajuku Lovers bag
• 168 Mall grey & black striped knee high socks
• 168 Mall gold wired star necklace
• 168 Mall Eiffel Tower clock necklace
• WTC Bazaar fake Ray-Ban clear lens wayfarers
• WTC Bazaar grey braided headband (I love this!)
  

MY DRAWER
Stuff I bought that are not pieces of clothing xD

• Teen Vogue December/January
• St. James Bazaar scrapbook paper
• WTC Bazaar mail box coin bank (super vintage. super legit!)

THANKYOU
I opened some gifts the past few days. 2 left under the tree. HAHA. Sorry, I'm kind of..old already so my siblings have more gifts than me xD

• Silver detailed bangle from Jean
• Anna Pashmina gold crumpled wristbag from godparents
• Golla case from godparents
• Crabtree & Evelyn Jojoba Oil Soap from godparents
• Elle B/W bag from godparents

THANKYOUFRIENDS
I got 5 notebooks FTW!

• Scribe Plain Notebook from Sarah (my next journal woot!)
• Personalized Spiral Paisley Notebook from Ellie (superrrr cool \m/)
• Eiffel Tower organizer (FUNctional xD) from Jenyap (thankssss)
• Moleskine mini autumn red color (set of 3) from Charmosaur (exchange gift TYVM!)
• Moleskine baby aqua blue (set of 2) from GeGe (super cute)
• Eiffel Tower necklace from Yunini (aaaaah!)
• Heart & guitar necklace from Joyce :)
• Chef Tony Popcorn from Joca (lolness)
• Cute socks, cell charm, cute pen & bracelet from Nix
• Super cute alien cell charm from Tin
• Squishy sort of thing from Alvin
• Cell charm from Mang Jani
• Starbucks necklace from Jenyap (Kris Kringle)
• Cake towel from Lynn (Kris Kringle)
  

I forgot the others xDDD But thanks!

I still have a lot of things to accomplish this Xmas Break.

Off to do my list!
xo

It's really a fact that I love making lists. xD

New perspective

I can say that the littlest of things can alter an entirety of myself.
Not for bragging purposes, but I'm glad my hard work paid off. Finally.

It's a different Sunday for me today, opening the laptop at 7 in the morning. What happened to me lol. Anyways, I'm hoping I get a lot of shopping bags today >:) I'm paying half of it tho ;D

Nope. Nothing to write.

Playlist:

• Careful - Paramore
• Turn It Off - Paramore
• Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore
• Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
• New Perspective - Panic at the Disco
• Drop Out (The So Unknown) - Jack's Mannequin
• The End Where I Begin - The Script
• All At Once - The Fray
• Pasko Na - Bukas Palad
• Fireflies - Owl City
• The Bird & The Worm - Owl City
• The Saltwater Room - Owl City
• Tip of the Iceberg - Owl City
• Cave In - Owl City

To see nothing in the light.

I have not updated both my Gazette & this blog. Is that bad?

Despite the fact that I do want to update my life and make it memorable 24/7, if I am lazy, I AM lazy. I'll deal with it.

On the brighter side, I've been enjoying these past few days (: Even if I thought wrong.

I wasn't ecstatic I got honor, but I wasn't sad either, so that's good. Okay. Fine. I'm glad I did get in the list. If I didn't, I'd ditched Third Qtr. Promise.

Anyways, other things that have occurred this week:

• Choir Practice - I'm no singer, but I can sing, that's for sure. Batch choir for Xmas Chorale Contest. I've got my fingers crossed! People there are interesting I guess. Even if, well, I don't want to see some of them. They're okay. I don't hate practices all of a sudden anymore :)
• Batch Play Auditions. Considering I was the #3 I was one of the firsts to perform. I'm crossing my fingers!
• Card Distri Day. The day when I was shocked to know I got in. I'm happy I suppose :)
• Oh, I bought a dress awhile ago. WOOT for that! From BAYO. a red one. awesomeness \m/ Can't wait to post looks on lookbook.nu when I find the perfect shoes for it!

Well. Random.

Oh, yeah, the other day I tried not eating after 6. And my stomach erupted. I dreamt of someone before I woke up with a squealing stomach. What a weird dream T___T

I'm off now (:

Don't get shocked if I will keep writing about fashion stuff and random thoughts about it. I've been sketching once again, I love it! Might study fashion after college.

xo!

I am not myself

There's something about this layout that doesn't convince me or persuade me to write an entry here. Which is...weird.

Certain times in my life I've felt this. Like some kind of demon enters through me, and despite all the productivity I've had so far, my head hurts, my mind wanders, I get some kind of weirdo memory loss and I turn berzerk and later on, I don't get to study well.

I am done w/ Chinese & Math, though. But I need to brush up on Chinese.
I still have Physics, and the Don Quixote script + puppet drawing.

Talk about my life.

I really don't like to be the leader for the nth time! I am sick of it. But what the heck can I do. Oh well. Maybe it's a way of saying I need to work my butt off since I've been emoting for the past few days like hell- as you've noticed, reading the entries below.

Luckily I got ahold of myself, I hope. I'm currently telling myself to hang by the moment and not fast forward too much. As much as I'm pretty ecstatic to watch New Moon, go Xmas shopping for C, L & B (cardigans, leggings, boots & other items!) , celebrate Christmas, post on LOOKBOOK and turn 17, I still need to know that there is such thing called SCHOOL.

And all the drama that goes with it. It's one hell of a ride by all means. New seating arrangements have been done, tomorrow's the beginning! I will miss my seatmates :( And all the randomness. On the bright side, I've been placed in the middle row, 2nd seat! YAY. I know I should groan, but if I want to be productive, I need to sit there.

So that's all for all the info. I have yet to do other things. Gah.

Oh yeah I have a playlist now. New one! It's a mix of pop rock & electric.

• Fireflies - Owl City
• The Bird and The Worm - Owl City
• Turn It Off - Paramore
• Meet Me On The Equinox - Death Cab for Cutie
• Brick by Boring Brick - Paramore
• Where The Lines Overlap - Paramore

Just those. lol.
See ya!

8 days till New Moon.
42 days till Xmas.
62 days till I'm seventeen.
(:

Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
Cool. New "term" - Yuletide (Xmas) Seventeen (bday) \m/
It's so ironic I like using \m/ lol. I'll get over it soon :]

What I want for [YuletideSeventeen]
CLOTHING EDITION

• Suede Booties
• Topshop dark vio cardigan
• Body bag ('cause my Zara one faded out)
• Minidress (lots of weddings next year. 5 i think.)
• Nerdy glasses (4B nerd theme please!)
• P O L A R O I D
• In short, I'd love to have a shopping spree :]

PERSONAL EDITION

• 2nd honor
• Closure w/ people
• Spend time w/ D A S 'cause I've been missing them!
• Have a fun Xmas.
• I would actually love to go to HK.
• Be more open to things and accept life.

Notes to self + Goals this Xmas

• Avoid buying graphic tees. I have too much.
  
• Buy more blouses, and shoes, and as always, hoping for the cardigan Y_Y
• Never think to myself that I suck. (@charm_next_door)
• Post looks on lookbook.nu starting next year, hopefully I'll have an updated closet
• Enjoy every second of 2009 before it's gone

I am blank. Haha.
To be updated

Patience is a virtue

13 + 48 + 67 days!
New Moon. Xmas. Seventeenth.

I can't wait 'till the Eighteenth!

Moving along, I'm in the present now, regardless of all those future things I am not sure will happen. gah creepy x___x

Anyways, as if I live a good life! I'm practically drowned in my own thoughts, locked in my own world, trying to escape from things I dislike the most. Which is very, very psycho of me. Like I don't know myself or who I am or to what is my extent in life.

I need a psychological analysis on my life.
Or I may be psychotic in afew

Things I've accomplished

• Win a contest outside school, I don't care what & how much I will win.
• Visit a Papemelroti store, and admire the quotes, drawings & paper products.
• Get my cousin to buy a Wacom Penable Tablet PC Pen in amazon.com or wacom.com from the US of A and give it to us when he gets back.
• Watch UP in theaters August 26.
• Make friends with new people 'cause time is just short.
• Spend a day with my best friends F4L and shop & have a meal together and talk about the randomness of life :)
• Get tons of Green Tea bags in the grocery and have an infinite supply of tea > I drink tea EVERY DAY. So much for being a health buff xD
• Learn to overcome my shyness in school ('cause I'm only "wild" when I'm with my circle of friends)

the bittersweet life

My mood right now is sort of up and down.
I am so weird ;DD

Prepare for a random entry today.

I would like to procrastinate right now.
15 days until New Moon!
50 days until Xmas!
69 days until I'm seventeen!

One thing I wish for this Xmas would be that I'd celebrate it with joy and happiness (: Despite the presents. I still want my cardigan-minidress-boots outfit though. xD

Oh, right! I am so dead. I pinky swore w/ my siblings that I'd join them in opening the gifts exactly on the evening of the 24th. lawl x)

I feel good listening to Owl City. I guess?

Last night I gorged on some Parmesan pop corn from Chef Tony's :> I hadn't eaten any merienda since I stayed for the choir thingy. Which was weird. Unfortunately I'm on a low cholesterol diet (I need it) but fortunately it IS low in cholesterol and I am learning to eat healthier again! Yay.

Record: haven't eaten chocolates, eggs, and any fried food for...3 days. What the :))

It was hard writing his letter last night. I had nothing decent to write. As in blank.

Speaking of last night, my aunt gave me a notebook she bought from Shanghai. Not the best and most legit quality, but, I like.

I would want to collect notebooks from all over the world :]

And I'm stoked to use the TeNeues planner next year!

I'm excited to turn seventeen!

I don't even feel sixteen now. I feel like...I should be older (I really think a lot. maturely T_T)

I miss summer despite the boredom.

Sometimes I have awful suicidal attempts. Horrible, I know.

Oh! I better check my T I WANT TO DO that I listed down months ago. Will see if I finished some already.

:)

I've never been so random in my life.

because there is time and i am bored

[unedited. will add photos later.]

The most random ideas pop in my head at this second. Unusually, I am in a point in my life wherein I'd like to quit living and pause for a while.

As if I could do that by all means.

I've had massive mood swings this week x_x

So this week's agenda was really full. Let me highlight some good parts - and bad ones, a lot of bad ones I suppose.


10/25
Philippine Fashion Week

• PRO: front seat @ Sassa Jimenez's show. She was awesome, hands down.
• CON: I feel inferior and regretful for not wearing fashionable clothing. I felt like a freak x_x

10/26
Outreach @ Malacanang Palace

• PRO: saw the palace before I'd leave SJ! took lots of pictures, ate lunch there, bonded w/ friends while repacking rice, felt good helping people through our volunteer work.
• CON: since I carried, tied and packed rice as quickly as I could (and I don't know why) my arms were so sore after the morning activity - in the afternoon we had a sleeping session. hah!

10/27
Brother Sun, Sister Moon

• PRO: Took lots of pictures! My shobe was sooo cute - Caryll Tiu :) Had the fighting spirit to win the games.
• CON: I had to ask people to sign the attendance, including unwanted people T_T It was super hot, super tiring. Super sleepy after lunch.

10/28
Northedsa w/ Nix

SUPER FUN! That's what I could say about it. We walked from SM The Block to Trinoma, then to North Edsa then back again. Imagine that :) Fitting room vanity + foodtrip + notebook shopping = best bonding everrrr!

• I bought a TeNeues 2010 planner - Jenny Frean, a great textile & pattern maker. WOOT! Goodbye Starbucks planner. I was supposed to buy Gustav Klimt and Monet but I ended up with the contemporary one :]
  
• Also purchased a Rolling Stone shirt from People Are People.
• Saw a lovely cardigan and a petite mini dress from Topshop. I was broke that time so I wasn't able to buy :( And it was quite expensive. Will save up for December/January (Xmas/Birthday)
• Found my dream ankle boots! Without the cowboy thing x3 @ Wade, P1000+ hello Xmas Wishlist!
• Ate Red Mango woot :))
• FUNctional is a great brand for notebooks - the cute ones. Fully Booked - hands down \m/ we stayed there for more than an hour just looking at notebooks. HA HA.
  
• Kimono Ken for dinner. Super loaded but delish.
• New Moon hot posters! Love :))
  
• We were there for 6 hours!
• LOLNESS 24/7 :]

Best gimmick so far. I had sooo much fun!

10/29
1% LUCKY DAY

• PRO: none.
• CON: woke up late, found out I had super high cholesterol. The range was 150-200 and I', 198. GREAT. Terrified me, ate lunch super late because of it. Problematic about it. Well, that's life. Full of problems x_x Headed to Jean's and got pissed, went to some more places and still got pissed, and still pissed right now because I wasn't able to do things I wanted to do today that I should've done hours ago.

Oh well. One day you're ecstatic, the next you're all emo.
And I have not updated the Gazette because I feel frustrated updating it.

Right, have I mentioned I got low grades in the PTs this quarter? When the heck would I get honor, I don't know. Whatevs. I worked my effin butt off >_>

Anyways, my agenda for tom:

• Go to cemetery with mom ( I want to see dad x( but we're going to visit my great grandparents)
• Start a drawing inspired by Owl City ? If I have time.
• Derma.
• Buy Wii Fit Balance Board.
• Hopefully I'd update my Gazette.

Until my next update! Check my tweets they're much more accurate :))

See ya!

in reverse

Minutes before now I was really pissed off at life.
And I'm hearing "Strangers Like Me" played on TV (Tarzan on Disney) and I get all alive. Haha.

I still don't find the logic between my existence and everyone else's. Okay, very weird thought but I've always thought whether there's more to life than what I live in right now. Of course there is - but I don't feel that I'll get there as well.

*WTH I'm writing nonsense!
Be back later for another decent entry.

T2DO this P.M.

• do PS collage (as ordered by panini)
• oh, and make paninis! haha!
  
• finish vintage drawing? puhlease.
  I want to do a Halloween drawing if it's possible :))
• review chinese history.
• sleep if possible.
• enjoy the rest of the p.m. :D
• LISTEN TO NEW MOON! Hah. I'm lazy to get the cd.

:D

LTNU ! [randomness]

I hate having LTNU portions in my blog and my journal. It just makes me feel less interested to jot down the very details of my existences for those particular days. Call me weird but, I happen to like writing every bit of information about the things that are happening, obviously because they are not coming back the same way again.

So... Long Time No Update! It's Perio Week, I'm currently at the state of post-Filipino mid-English as I'm typing. That means, I'm almost done studying Filipino and midway in English. Cheers to that :) I thought I'd end up studying for forever (well I think I will. haha.)

Physics & BW today was so-so, was it just me or the Physics perio wasn't as hard as the reviewer (which apparently had so much typographical errors)?

Anyways, life is pretty crazy and I'm glad to say that I fulfilled ONE thing in my wishlist!

I got myself a copy of the New Moon OST.

which...I haven't listened to yet. But I was ecstatic 'cause there's a poster inside wee :3

Moreover, other than that there's a new gadget living in the house but is still inside the box = Wii! I know it's like, so late but my bro asked it from my aunt for his birthday & xmas present. And me & my sister get the benefit :> Will go look for a Wii Balance Board soon! ~

Speaking of bro's birthday, it was FUN I suppose. Then again, I'm not in the mood to elaborate on the days that have passed by. It's been a week since! And lotsa things have happened.

Err...Calculus PT? So-so. Studied! Physics? let's hope! Math & History (Chinese) are my concerns right now :(

Another random thought: last Saturday we headed to my cousin Jean's house for dinner + PBB watching w/ Jenina (cousin. haha we kept going up & down the stairs just to watch the nomination night! hello Dear Darla Yellowcab :D) ++ saw some flyers for debut thingy. Haaaaaaaaaaaah. You heard it.

DEBUT?
It's still going to be in 2011 - long way to go.
But I'm still going to list down some Pros & Cons + Plans (like where, what theme etc etc) maybe during Sem Break. I'm ecstatic! I hope :D

Err anyways, what else have I been pondering on? Oh yeah, me wants a POLAROID :( Next year if we go to HongKong.

I feel like having a RTFTW :))

• I'm broke in Pet Soc and the Halloween Specials are awesome! Will earn money tomorrow. Aww.
• I feel bad spending my P450 on New Moon OST. But I want it. WTH :))
• Supermarket shopping @ Landmark Supermarket last Saturday was AWESOME! w/ mom & bro, yay for SoyMilk + Special K ++ Chef Tony + lots of food. Super loaded @ home though x_x
• I so want this week to end! Pt Week is terror.
• T2DO is also used by Joca. Wahahaha. I'm such an influence >:)
• Post-it is so much better than Stick-on (a cheaper version)
• Nix & I are still undecided whether to go to Serendra or Eastwood mall for notebook shopping. Suggestions?
• Awhile ago an earthquake occurred. Which was...creepy.
• And yesterday there was a holdup in GB5. Creepy still.
• And next sunday is my DLSU Test.
• GREAT. I have not studied for that yet :(
• That night I'll be heading to SMX to watch a fashion show for Philippine fashion week. How cool is that? :))
• And 2 days after that night is SEM BREAK!
• Hello Wii :)
• Why do I feel happy about things that are not yet happening?
• Why don't we have halloween parties? I want oneeeee. :(
  

I am so weird. I admit it.
Well, have a good life! Gluck to everyone tomorrow ;)

because your real life is tragic

Yeah you built up a world of magic.

x

Anyways, as ironic as it seems, I had a good sleep last Wednesday night despite my 2 a.m. insomniatic approach (I did have a 2 hr nap) and for the past night I have slept undertime, meaning 5-6 hours of restless dreaming about TLE and Accounting.

Hah. What the heck. So I survived today TYVM to my aunt :) And a couple of good things happened today, I guess. Free period! And I didn't sleep. What a shocker :))

So much for that, I'm procrastinating and lazy to study Calculus and Li Shr, and I hate being lazy. But it's the wrath of Blogger, Twitter, Facebook and Pet Society that BIs me, really.

I have to change that for goodness' sake x_x

Needless to say, my life is pretty much back in shape from all the chechebureches that have happened. I'm hoping that it stays this way, and no more unexpected phenomena please. My life's too dramatic - and not to mention, I forgot that I haven't been journaling for a week, and have not been touching the TwilightJ (well I just got stuck with it over the 1 week break, so yeah, no Twilight or New Moon ATM, wait till November!) since classes began again.

Saturday tomorrow! TGIF :)

Happy Birthday Clarence! My brother's turning 8 this Sunday and I have not found a gift. Wow. What a greaaaat sister :))

*will now go back to limits of a function*

awake and alive.

It's 11 minutes after 1 and I am shocked that I am fully alive and not dead.

So much for sleeping a heapful of two hours when I got home. I didn't feel like studying so I felt like taking a rest and closing my eyes to see the world in the dark. What the heck am I saying o_o I'm such a freak.

On the other hand...I am not! I finally got a neat skin courtesy of Blogskins.com with me doing the rather minor edits in the about me sections and all the title stuff. It's quite black and white, and if I have time I might turn the black into brown (hello vintage freak) :)

I have a clean slate so far, nothing too much hard to handle (except Speech PT next week) and tomorrow's a Thursday FTW :) Oh wait, it's already Thursday hahaha.

I've got nothing on my mind to turn emo, and I've been having a blast with my buddies, so I guess it's all good.

First it's T2DO (things to do) now it's time for...

RTFTW (random thoughts for the win):
xD

• I just tasted Butterfinger today in my whole sixteen years of existence. And it was good. Thanks Joca! So much for a peace/piece offering :>
• Telephone calls suck. I hate answering them 'cause it's not for me.
• The Bear Brand logo is white and the mascot is brown (according to Joyce. lolness.) so what's the point?
• "I say Sarsarap, you say sarsaya!" still from Joyce :D
• I thought of having a Corny Meter. OMG so corny. Hahaha. Idk if me or Joyce would win, we're both sort of fair with that :))
• 5000 coin count in Pet Society. Yay!
• I love chocolate. But I hate chocolate muffins and cupcakes. (maybe I'll still accept cupcakes, but no to muffins x_x)
• Since Paris is such a common name, I thought of the name Eiffel, named after the Eiffel Tower. I love the name! So I used it for my pet. tee hee :x
• Sometimes I still wonder how I survive every day life. Well today was awesome ftw :))

So much for being so random. It's just destressing to get out some subconscious things in my head that have been staying (in my head) for so long. I like to think a lot and that's why my mind functions weirder than everyone else :D

Err...Oh! I got this announcement yesterday that Semestral Break is cancelled and there will be no classes on November 1 & 2 in reverence to All Saints' Day and All Souls' Day. Hopefully I'll go notebook shopping w/ Nix on the 2nd (: PTs next quarter are cancelled. Shocker :O Double the effort, double pressure, but it's gonna be a lighter feeling 'cause PTs are like total hell weeks in a Judenite's life. Ha ha ha. Anyways, Christmas is getting near too. OMG. This year's going to end in 3 months! :O

I gtg and will make the most out of my life. Lawl. x)

Good morning!

a week's worth.

Another week is going to end hours from now.
What a crazy week.

Things I did:

• Finished reading By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept. Lovely written book. I love it <3>
• Read New Moon. More like immersed myself into books :)) I didn't reread the whole thing; only the part when Edward leaves Bella and when he comes back. The whole werewolf thing bores me out x_x
• Got first prize in today's dice game. Except I had to split it 'cause we had the same rank (4 4s 8th place) Seriously? I was furious na so I diced super hard. As in last minute - they were going to give the P2000 to the only winner and then I came in the picture. We each had P1,250 (it became 2500 because there was a leftover 250 + additional 250) [: Yay I could use it to complete my wishlist!
• Attended an exhibit. My grandmother's uncle's to be exact. He's really good - they said I got my genetics from him, but I don't think so. The paintings were awesome, but not modern. Makes me want to have an exhibit someday (: Maybe on my 18th birthday. Hah! Still on the planning process :x
• Hated a lot of people. Not my friends - in fact, random people. Yesterday I was very much in a bad mood (hence the useless, weird entry) but other days, like the days before, I really hated people. One of them would be the immature guy who bumped his push cart on my ankle in S&R and didn't bother to apologize. I eyed him bad >:P Others would be relatives whom I keep seeing everyday, sometimes I get sick of hanging with them too often. I'd rather see them only during events. And err...yeah I hated everybody.
• Had a movie marathon. Watched Wild Child (awesome movie! I want to go to Abbey Mount xD), Twilight (vampire love <3) style="font-style: italic;">Moulin Rouge (not done yet though), Sydney White (HBO) and browsed through some Filipino movies. I never have movie marathons. So that was good :>
• Helped victims through donation of relief goods. My mom was probably shocked I'd convince her to do such thing but, I do have a good side in me at the least (: That was very fulfilling.
• Ate a lot. From restaurants and going out (Shakey's, Pepper Lunch :]) to staying in with A LOT of items from the grocery (Pretzel Crisps, Soda Pops, Muffins :3)
  
• Studied 5% of the whole break. Hah. Chinese and a little Physics but it didn't help, really.
• Made a random blueprint of my room. Which I have not finished (:
• Leveled up in Pet Society. Can't wait for next week's special! :)

Anyways, my mom's practically letting me leave the laptop so she could print my bro's "label" for his Up giveaway x_x I haven't even bought him a gift yet! October 11. I have...a week x3

Till nextime.
And I mean in a long time - Tuesday is the beginning of beating up for me x3

xo.

Everything ends.

I happen to like that line from Death Cab for Cutie's Meet Me on the Equinox, which, apparently, is in the New Moon OST (that I am sure to buy when it comes out).

Well, yeah, everything does end. It's a known fact to everybody. So uh, does my happiness end as well?

I woke today with a unusual morning, and a few hours later I'm sitting here wondering what to do. Oh, right, I have this Economics poster I have to do, and I'm having a problem because there are not enough pictures and I'm supposed to do a sportswear advertisement.

Fabulous.

x

Nothing can satisfy me today. Not that I need any sort of satisfaction, I don't feel like doing anything practically interesting today. Nonetheless, I'd rather not watch the rest of my days unfold. The past few days have been unplanned, it was whether I go out, stay home, do something to provoke my inner creativity, or study. Sadly I didn't do quite a lot but read books, having movie marathons and getting a life out of myself. In fact, I have not been communicating with any of my friends, which is kinda weird. But really, I don't feel like talking to them. Sometimes I don't even know if I exist in their life, or it's just me.

There's nothing more interesting to blog about.
I'm off to cure my own sickness.

I'm so not looking forward to Monday.
xo

WAH.

Guess what. I stayed home ^_^

And I spent the whole afternoon watching half of Moulin Rouge and the whole of Twilight.
So much for movie marathon - I rarely have that.

Err..I am blank.

dear dear dear dear diary . . . xo

[Twilight journal: page one (the ONLY public page)]

[the side thingy. haha.]

[Gazette: Do you remember the time?]

[Gazette : LSS ]

Just the randomness of my life. I decided to take a picture. Sorry for the poor quality x)
I'll take snaps of my notebook collection in a few (:
xo.

Freedom

I woke up a whopping 7:00 a.m. today because I'm supposed to go swimming with my cousins. But unfortunately, my mind was stirred to doing other things. And besides, it's a rare occasion for me to swim. I'm afraid of water, has been, always been. So I declined at the last minute.

It's still unlikely or rather new to me how weird I get when I need to decide. A simple scenario like, "Should I go out today? Or stay home?" bothers me to death. Maybe because I don't like wasting a day with things I don't like to have. For say, today my mom's asking me to accompany them, have lunch @ Century Seafood, then head to my grandparents' house for the rest of the afternoon - typical Thursday setting.

I don't know if I should go.
No one's home. Only me & the maid.

Err...

I don't know!
I wouldn't suggest going out 'cause I'll eat more :x and for this week I've eaten loads of stuff. [i hate breaks.] Then again, I don't feel like talking to anyone today, I feel like I want to close myself today, which is kinda weird. Okay, fine, I got all emo last night 'cause I was reading New Moon (again, it's already a year old!) and I shut the book, grabbed the TJ and wrote a page's worth of words in. And listened to my "Downpouring" playlist. Hah. So much for emotional outburst - sometimes you can't just be happy all the time.

Of course I feel free today - I can do anything I want, but I don't know if my creative energy would cooperate with me. It's not like I can just draw in an instant even if I want to.

So should I go out?

I don't know. Haha. Let's see where things take me.

xo

I have four days to make the most out of myself.
And as I watch the hours flow by so quickly, I wonder what condition other people are in.

But as for me, I'm hoping I get a lot out of this break.

• Make a blueprint of my "future" room
• Look up articles concerning wall painting and preparation for painting
• Read a book (I was thinking of rereading New Moon)
• Revamp my blog. I am sick of it.

I'm off to...I don't know. Refrain myself from using too much internet.
xo.

Survival of the Craziest

[what I did this morning w/ mom :)]

Things I did today:

A.M.

• 7:oo a.m. - I am greeted with a sunny hot day, with the sound of DZMM Teleradyo (you know my mom she loves watching that) and a sleepy feeling x_x
• 9:00 a.m. - ready to go out and buy stuff
• 10-11 a.m. - went to Nestle Staff Shop and bought boxes of mineral water, milk, cereal packs as relief goods for the victims of the typhoon.
• 11: 30+ a.m. - went to Sct. Bayoran cor. Tomas Morato to donate the stuff. It felt weird - a lot of people were looking at me ("chinese" daw kasi) but anyways, I felt happy donating. I suggested mom to 'cause we have no problem here at home.
  
• Went home around 12+ in time for lunch.

P.M.

• 1:00 p.m. - went online to play Pet Society and got high with the awesome new stuff in Furniture, DIY, Gadgets, Luxury, Food and Clothes! lawl.
• 2:00 p.m. - went to cousin's house, went to GH w/ mom & aunt lookalike
• 2:30 p.m. - arrived @ GH, walked a lot
• 3:00++ - went to National Bookstore and got crazy over scrapbooking materials. I bought a lot of scrapbook paper and candy mag (JB on the cover!) + drawing & writing stuff. Used my Laking National. P30.oo epurse yay :>
• 4:30++ - had merienda @ Shakey's, lovin' the Mojos!
• 5:00++ - went to hardware stores, UniMart (Panic buying! well we weren't. But a lot of people were there lining the counters. Nakalusot kami :> Guess who I saw? Say Alonzo (PBB Season 1) and RR Enriquez (Wowowee host) and then went home.

What a day!
So right now I'm spending the last hours of my freedom, because tomorrow I am flooded with homeworks. I mean it :c

T.I.WILL.DO.TOM:

• wake up :]
• study hua wen + memo last wen ta
• study physics + practice solving
• print BW notes
• read religion notes for test + answer guide questions
• book report - marginal notes
• tweet, facebook, tumblr (duh)
• and hopefully balance everything tomorrow.

xo, let's pray for everyone's wellness and safety as another day ends.

• 
  

Hello Homework.

Assignment so far:

• 华文 Ling Tse (GE)
  
• Physics quiz on Energy, Power, Work
• Business Writing 6 Writing Activities
• By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept Book Report - Marginal Notes
• Calculus GE on Limits of a Function
• Math Test (?)
• Economics advertisement poster
• TLE test on Accounting, Journal, Ledger
  

And many more. Although not all are due Friday; I have effin no idea when will regular classes will resume will all this tragic outburst of natural calamity.

Oh, what's more, my aunt's here at home lamenting and criticizing my every act. Oh, not only me, everyone. All she says is, "I've had enough calories", or "She looks fat" or "She is so thin! I'm jealous!" and tells me, "Don't drink too much tea" when she drinks more than me or "You know, these earrings are so in right now" as if I care about fashion, or even "You know the latest workout? I need to lose weight I'm so fat!"

Well guess what, last year I was kind of weight conscious 'cause alot of people kept talking about those. Thank goodness right now I just care about not gaining weight and eating healthy. I would not like to eat less and suffer the consequences - my stomach's kind of sensitive and I'd die if I didn't eat food (literally). Anyways, I'll move the topic now - I just hate people like that.

What's with physical features anyway?

Oh BTW I think I can have a part time job of being a critic ^^ I've criticized half of the time I've been watching our batch play. Sorry, judging is something I like to do considering my imperfections.

GAH! Enough about me and my inferiority. I'm off to...tweet, tumblr, facebook and will help spread the word. That's the best I can do for now.

Ciao~ xo.

Tragic.

[SJCS yesterday morning]

[Last night I think. My picture is there pa. Hah. (bottom right)]

[St. Jude Archdiocesan Shrine. Grabe talaga!]

I didn't expect this typhoon to kill so many lives and ruin so much infrastructures.
Even our school got affected. Okay, typically, our school does get flooded during rainy days but the flood this time was higher than usual. And I'm sure the Grade 1 classrooms are drenched in water - my mom's kinda scared that my bro's books will be affected.

These days, the only thing possible is to hope for the best in the Philippines.

Visit my TUMBLR for more photos.

Even American celebs are supporting like Demi Lovato, John Mayer & Demi Moore (from Twitter). Thanks Twitter. I'm so updated because of you (:

Anyways, classes are suspended until Tuesday, and I don't know if I'm still supposed to continue the photo shoot we are to have at my classmate's house for Economics (I hope they move the submission date!) My mom's planning to go to the Sagip Kapamilya Drop Off tomorrow, I hope she does pursue it - I wanna go.

I don't feel like sitting at home, journaling, using the net, watching tv and enjoying the good life. I feel really lucky that I didn't get flooded, didn't get any electricity cut-off, didn't get any food or water shortage or internet cut-off, thanks to my dad for choosing this area as our home. TYVM, IMY. Anyhow, I feel bad 'cause a lot of people are in a super horrible condition - ack I wanna go out and donate some stuff :c

Err...I didn't even study :[ Is that bad? I'm so not in the mood to get my books or stuff. I've been watching tv all day to catch the latest news. So yeah that's what I've been doing since yesterday.

Let's hope tomorrow more lives will be saved. What a tragedy.

I can remember last time when I was in First Year and typhoon Milenyo hit the Philippines. Although it wasn't that strong, we got a one week suspension of classes and the Teachers' Day celeb was moved to October 2. Don't ask why I remembered - it was during those times that something devastating happened to me.

On a lighter (okay, a heavier) note, I'm halfway through By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept and the storyline is so awesome, I feel compelled to read it, and I feel sorry for Pilar because her friend can't decide between his calling and his love for Pilar. Anyways, I am to unfold the story bit by bit, hopefully I'll finish tomorrow.

Good night. Let's pray for a brighter day tomorrow :( I mean it.

xo.

Rainpower

What the hell is that word? Hah!

Good morning world, and I am greeted with a grayish sky @ 6:35 in the a.m.

I'm lucky today. I slept @ 1 a.m. last night doing Aeneas' map and crossing my fingers that this day would have no school - besides, I'm not quite interested with the Batch Party and all that shinanigans by all means. And I remember telling Nix, "In any minute, they're gonna announce...CLASSES A R E S U S P E N D E D " and well, so much for predicting the future x)

I'm supposed to go notebook shopping w/ Nix today, to worsen my NAD (notebook addiction disorder) but she had to go to the dentist. And I'm supposed to go out with my mom instead and buy stuff for the mooncake dice game on October 4th but the rain doesn't want to. So, I guess I'm stuck here at home and I think any minute now, the internet connection will go out.

But guess what, I'm pretty stoked today (hopefully it'll last) 'cause I feel like editing my whole blog layout and my "about me" section and all the ahdkjsuahdj that come with it. And maybe later I'll have the energy to update my Gazette which is actually so fat it needs to go on a diet x3

So that's the power of the rain - stirs up my creative juices.

I'm hoping for a productive day today!

T2DO:

• Revamp blog layout.
• "By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" - finish reading
• Update Gazette
• If I feel like it, write on TJ (Twilight Journal)
• Xiao Khai
• Study Chinese

Well, yeah, that's it.

Rain, err...please leave. You're too extreme xD

xo.

Like we used to.

I am a blank book today - meaning I have nothing quite interesting to jot about, or tackle about by all means.

So things are pretty off-track for me, I'm not quite myself, there's nothing interesting that enables me to keep moving forward with life. That's what bothers me - someday I'll get sick of everything and I'll lose the appetite to enjoy the varieties of flavor life has to offer. Anyhow, there's just really something wrong with the way I think. Typical - I do think I have a mental disorder x)

Some good things that happened today would be getting the grad pic samples (which were so tiny) and I took 9 shots overall, and I only found 2 decent ones. Wow O_O I'm happy with it I guess. Then the class pics also came, which everyone drooled over. Hahaha. And Sir Rillo was asking volunteers for the Chimes, I'm so on! I've always wanted to do our yearbook (subconsciously. haha.) and be proud of it, I hope :>

Err. Yeah that was the only thing that made me smile today, other than watching the TDR of Moulin Rouge. Haha.

Let's hope for a better day, shall we?

xo.

It's not perfection yet.

I don't know if it's nature, or just me, that has this tendency to be picky with notebooks. I mean, yeah, everybody does like picking the best quality & design for their notebooks. But how unlikely is it that I decide what to use for my Gazette does not depend on the design nor the quality. Something about the personality of the notebook itself queries me - and I don't know why.

I've torn pages from two or three notebooks that I once considered my every day journals and I don't exactly know where the pages are anymore xD Anyways, whatever those were may not seem so important to me. Haha.

So...yesterday we had our last Fieldtrip in Saint Jude. Aw. That's sad :( I guess I could say it was pretty fun, even if trekking made me sweat like crazy and made my pants drench in mud, and even if the canopy ride creeped me out at first. Haha :) We arrived home around 10, and my legs were aching like hell O_O It was fun going back home with all the darkness + Mr. Rillo's comments about us (I was touched. Ha!) + Mega LOLness with Nix at the bus (don't ask why. we're just plain insane xD) Overall, I had a lot of fun. AH! And another thing. I was at the CR cubicle with Nix and we heard some nasty stuff. Oooh gossip :x Nuff said.

Today is pretty boring, I started fulfilling my T2DO (I finally bought my own Post-It! it's Best Buy because I'm so thrifty ahaha) and now I'm blogging. And I removed my blog template because I hate it. So I'll be revamping this instead. Errr...lunch out, melted fro yo (weird), walked around the supermarket and looking at products, went home. Studied. That's what I did today.

And it's really weird today 'cause I have this feeling of me dreaming - like since awhile ago my head was flooded with my own desires in life - materialistically, perhaps. I do wonder sometimes if I get these things that I'd still feel like this.

Oh, I've read 50 pages of "By The River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept" by Paolo Coelho for our book report. I like Pilar, the main character. I see a part of myself in her. And the storyline is pretty good even if I love chick lit haha :>

Current stuff I so want to have as in right now but have to wait for Xmas (for some of them only, the others I have no idea when to get):

• A frikin bookshelf that can display all my books (which are currently at the lamp table here at the master's bedroom and it's all hidden)
• A new notebook for my 2nd edition of Gazette 'cause it's hard for me to find the 'perfect' one for it
• A polaroid and all the fun that comes with it
• A lamp beside my bed I have never used
• A couple buckets of paint for repainting my room and the door (which I vandalized)

Actually that's just it. :)

But this today is creeping me out - I'm not quite myself and I feel full of pride today, like I want to pay attention to my own thoughts only. I don't even feel like talking today as in verbally.

Maybe it's because I've had too much stress?

[Seriously, I've had too much stress.]

So...what to do now? Oh, will watch vlogs. I'll see if I can cheer myself up with that.

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Things I want to remove out of my system right now:

• My desire to go have a good life in another country, work a job I enjoy in, living a city life and working my way up to the ladder of success
• My hopes of getting into college as in right now (and ironically, my mindset is not in Ateneo already, but La Salle)
• My sense of inferiority that I feel everytime I see my test papers and results
• My laziness to update my journal and awaken my creativity
• My laziness to memorize Chinese
• My dead outlook on life the day after today.
  

I am really the weirdest person you'll ever meet. For years I'm trying to decipher my own personality, so don't wonder.

xo.

PS

Goodbye FILSCRAPRESSURE.

Let's hope my hard work pays off.

Here it goes :)

It's amazing how I get hyped up with the song "Here It Goes" by Jimmy Eat World that I feel compelled to come up with a very detailed entry today.

I really have this feeling today will be crucial for me; I've just taken the ACET a few hours ago, dreaded over the word problems, vocabulary very alien-like to my dictionary, and the random people I encounter at the testing area.

Wait....I think it was not that hard, eh? Only some math parts which I didn't study about, but I expected more difficulty! But thank goodness it wasn't super hard. I didn't study, so let's hope I pass, even if I don't plan to enter Ateneo anymore. Oh, speaking of which, saw my friends from ArtsWork awhile ago :)

Anyways, senior life is getting crazier by the minute. If I were that weak I'd break down of the burdens I've been having right now - I have to do A LOT, considering the position I am given - leader for the Filipino scrapbook. So yeah, life's pretty crazy. I'm going to study Chinese History right after this blogging of mine.

BTW I already bought the Twilight Journals! *Squeal* My mom bought it and it costs me 2 weeks allowance! The box is awesome and I can't wait to write some decent stuff there - kind of like a reflective journal, and I'll probably paste photos of Twilight & stuff... and write about my love story that never became a love story?! *rofl* Haha. Guess what. I've been having nightmares of that ghost again. It's awful! At least when I wake up I don't get the sad, depressed emotion I usually get after dreaming of him (again and again - 2 days straight now) I don't know if it's subconscious but the scenarios of the dreams I've had are pretty typical - mostly in school. Hahaha. I haven't even written them down yet! Will do so when...I have time.

Time is so not on my side right now. So I gtg.
Will update sooonnnnnnnnnn!

T2DO SCHED:
09/20

• 4-5:30 - study Chinese History, brush up on my least known topics.
• and! create design for pop-up page x(
  
• 5:30-6:30 - take a bath, get dressed for tonight's wedding reception I'll be attending w/ mom
• 6:30-night - maybe I'll bring Gazette and update :x or a small copy of Chinese History. trust me, I will do nothing at the reception but eat again x) (but i want to go out, what an excuse!)

09/21

• 8:30-9:30 - time interval of me waking up + having breakfast + taking a bath
• 9:30-10:30 - Chinese (test myself mode)
• 10:30 - 12:00 - start w/ scrapbook I guess, + wait for Jorn to bring the scrapbook materials over
• 12:00 - 1:00 - idk, have lunch, wait for Elkein & Charm to show up
• When they come, we'll be doing it until the end of the day

Yes, I'm fully booked.
Great.
I'm so in demand >:)
LAWL.
xo.

How could you be so heartless?

I'm no fan of rnb music so I preferred how The Fray played this song. And the video was so cool :> Anyhow, I'm not here to rant about who did it better - really love that statement from the song "Heartless". Been writing that statement over & over at my journal since summer. lawl.

This week was pretty weird, obviously because things have been twisted and turned. And I'm glad it's the weekend :) Except, I'm not sure if I'm 100% knowledgeable about our test in Math & Calculus tomorrow. Either way, today's a all-out day for me - going to See Fam Reunion later means I'll satisfy my craving of ice cream :) Yay :)

Fast Rewind:

• Sept. 8 - i forgot or if i remember, nothing good happened today.
• Sept. 9 - deliciously sucky dinner @ Century. delicious food, hated the company.
• Sept. 10 - grad pic day! damn why did they put up my hair? *crosses the fingers*
• Sept. 11 - card day. aw. 3 points and i didn't make Calculus cross the finish line. oh well, my scores were mostly 80+ but I was happy I got good scores from subjects I was scared about.
• Sept. 12 - Half day happiness. Hyperness during Li Shr :) Hooray for 97! Never been happier since the beginning of 4th year about my grades. And a 90 in Math doesn't sound so bad :) YAY :) Headed to grandparents' house for lunch + siesta time + school supplies buying @ Natio = a.m to p.m.

Oh by the way it was sooooo awesome. I saw a tin box and it was labeled "The Twilight Journals" and it costs P900+ I think, but if you're a Laking National cardholder it will be 20% off, around P700+ I think. Hello, I'm a Laking National cardholder. WAH X_X

An article from Entertainment Weekly website:

'Twilight' publisher releasing new titles tied to the franchise

by EW staff

Categories: Books

Stephenie Meyer might have already released her Twilight finale, but thatdoesn’t mean fans of the franchise will have to let go of the series just yet.Little, Brown will be publishing several books this fall that are tied in withthe franchise. Along with movie tie-in literature for this year’s NewMoon adaptation, the publisher will also release a limited special editionof Breaking Dawn, as well as journals that feature cover art for all fourbooks.

According to a press release from the publisher, the BreakingDawn Special Edition, on stands Aug. 4, will include a DVD of theBreaking Dawn concert series and interviews with Meyer. Those who pick upthe hardcover book can also expect a poster and reproduction of handwrittenlyrics for “My Never,” by Blue October’s Justin Furstenfeld. The TwilightJournals(pictured), out Oct. 13, are packaged in a tin and include “decorative quotes”from each book. For those hoping to buy books tied into New Moon, Little,Brown will release New Moon: The Complete Illustrated Movie Companion onOct. 6 and New Moon trade and mass-market paperback tie-ins in Septemberand November, respectively. They will also publish a New Moon Collector’sEdition on Oct. 6.

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If only I brought my money I would've bought it. Me being a fan of Twilight AND a journal/notebook collector w/ NAD (Notebook Addiction Disorder) I'm probably gonna buy when I go to Natio again. Yay can't wait :)

Also went to Jean's house yesterday night - it's becoming a sorta tradition for 2 weeks now. Viewed her newly purchased "Miles To Go" - Miley's autobiography and I read a couple of pages and the photos. Awesome :) Will borrow hers. I'm not so much of a Miley fan so I'll probably borrow it from her. Had some sour gummy worms sprinkled with sugar *squeal!* and got caught in the act by Jean for grabbing a couple more before heading to dinner x) Danced @ Wii's Ravin Rabbids. It was tiring x___x but fun. Hah! Super tired when I got home - good night @ 12 a.m.

Hello today. err...it's around 1:30 -ish in the afternoon now and I'm supposed to be doing last minute reviews of math, calc & chinese but I'm not.

T2DO as of 1:53 pm:

• Review Calc
• Find a good presentable new outfit for Reunion (people tend to dress good for this.)
• Review Math
• Bring Hua Wen Pi Tsi (my BFF! hahaha.)
• Print Filipino draft (which I accidentally already pasted on the scrapbook)
• If in the mood, update my journal
• And dream about the reality of maybe getting the Twilight Journals x) I really have NAD. Gosh.
• CHARGE IPOD :( I forgotttttt.

xo. I gtg.

r e m i n i s c e n c e : )

If there's one NOTE2SELF that I will never forget to do, it would be to bring a CAMERA everytime I will attend a concert. Who knows what would happen, right?

Well today was not what I expected to turn out, since my day was pretty boring. Haha :) Err...I woke up late, had noodles for breakfast, a not-so-much-like-a-lunch lunch, headed to my aunt's for Accounting tutorials, headed to Natio for paper shopping, and went to school around 3+ to check out the Sunday version of Fair 100 and I was disappointed. There were no more booths upstairs and the merch in the 2nd floor Podium and the Caterpillar ride was about to close. So I had a photo shoot w/ my mates here at home at the photo booth, made sticker labels of my lovely name with Claudine (since Abigail Sy is a common name), then met up w/ Tin, rode Caterpillar last ride! bought cute stuff from the remaining 80 chits I had, had dinner (wait, that wasn't dinner) @ McDo before heading to the concert.

You know what, I really didn't want to go to the concert thinking it was a waste of time and I didn't really like Spongecola. HA. I WAS WRONG.

I think I forgot the fact that my grade six & freshmen years consisted of OPM music in my playlist and one of the bands other than Callalily, Hale & Cueshe was Spongecola and I really loved their songs ever since they came out w/ KLSP (which I'm listening to now xD) then Gemini then Una then Bitiw and also Jeepney! Top 5 lol. I don't like Filipino lyrics but these songs really made me feel so much Pinoy and I feel like who I was 4 years ago :) Problem-free, and very carefree.

Anyways the bands before them who played were pretty good, but they kind of stole the show which is what they were supposed to do haha :) Err...I didn't know what they sang at first 'cause I'm kinda not updated w/ local songs nowadays - I'm all with the foreign! Then I think, oh yeah they sang "Tuliro" and "Puso" which rocks! Then when they performed "Gemini" okay I started shouting HAHAHA. I really love that song and it's years since I listened to that but I still remember the lyrics! x) [The vacuous night steps aside to give meaning to Gemini's dreaming, the moon on its back and the seemingly veiled room's lit by the same star. ] I forgot what else they played...oh, right! Nakapagtataka by APO which they remade, and Closer You & I was awesome. Then they were like, "This will be our last song" and I so crossed my fingers it would be "Bitiw" which became my all time fave song ever since!

AND IT WAS. and you don't know how crazy I get in concerts - my last crazy concert was FOB last 2007, and this is my second crazy concert :))

Too bad we didn't have a cam, we 3 (tin, nix & i) rushed to the front where Yael (lead singer) was singing and I was singing na rin! I was shouting and jumping - kulang nalang I'd kill myself and wonder why the hell I was so wild x)) It was crazy there - a lot of people were crowded w/ us and we were all pushing to get to the super super front but we were able to go really forward - thank goodness the people weren't so pushy! WAH and then I wasn't able to get ahold of Yael's hand while he was singing Bitiw but I love that song. lol [Ating tinig, ating himig, abot langit heto na tayo! Heto na tayo!] then we shouted as in and YAY they agreed to play another song.

[BEWARE: If you continue reading you will see that my hidden wilderness will eventually come out - let's just say that when it comes to music, I get crazier than usual.]

OKAY I had to scream out loud when they played "Jeepney" for an encore. I remembered listening to that when I was in Grade 6. Imagine! 4 years have gone since then. But it was awesome! Oh, and I got to touch Yael's hand! xD And! I was in front of him while he was singing and he was smiling (at me) HAHA I am so insane. I probably looked like a nerd w/ those glasses. Hah! I really love that song (Bitiw) and probably got very starstruck (hence, my blogging at this time is very ... not me). Reminded me of "Touch My Hand" by David A lol. Trust me, I didn't feel so much alive ever since...you know, the complications of life came about.

LOLness in the car (sbay-ed w/ Nix) and we kept laughing at the car. haha. :))

That was definitely an awesome concert - I MEAN IT! I'm so glad I went! Thanks Spongecola for making me feel alive. Hahaha :)) This is much wilder than FOB before xD

Sadly I didn't have a camera. So I feel very sad about it :( But then I will (or was supposed to tonight) update my Gazette (journal) ASAP about it but since it's so late and I haven't studied I still have to wake up early tomorrow.

Since I couldn't upload a pic of Spongecola up close (AW) I will try uploading my entry in my Gazette about the concert - lucky! My journal's private now :>

BTW I ate Tempura w/ rice when I got home. HAHA. Hungry much? Energy-less perhaps. Haha it was good ;) Take out from where my family ate (w/o me. awness. ohwell. i had fun getting crazy!)

BTW2 I will list down a pre-Xmas + Bday wishlist since it's already the beginning of BER months :)

XMBDAY.WLIST.

• R O O M M A K E O V E R - - new bookshelf, new table, new coat of paint :)
• C E L L P H O N E - - w/ Wi Fi access and nice camera :) 3.2 MP or up :)
• N E W J O U R N A L - - this will never go out of my list :)
• H O N O R S - - kahit sa class lang masaya na ako :)
• W I I F I T - - so I could drop some pounds. haha :)
• A G O O D & H E A L T H Y L I F E - - I don't like being absent. lawl.

T2DO TOMORROW:
In order :D

• Wake up. Rise & SHINE :)
• Update Gazette & study Hua Wen
  
• Transfer Spongecola songs to iPod (HA!) to remember tonight's awesomeness & my baliw-ness :>
  
• Open PC, load new ink, print Tin's reco letters, print some pics :)
  
• Calculus GE review
• MATH Test review (Fri)
• Study a bit of Physics so I won't get lost
• Derma
  

So far that's all. Okay. I'm very happy to know that it's not a lot. Will do the first four in the morning and the rest in the p.m. :)

I've never been this happy since...I forgot.

FAIR 100 is AWESOME. It's stamped on my head. From F4L to the painstaking duty to face paint kids to the people to the stuff to the vanity to the awesome Spongecola concert, everything was great :) What a way to spend a 5 day break :) Life is good :) I'm crossing my fingers that my optimism will continue on until....idk :>

Let's hope time will make friends with me tomorrow.
Imma go view F4L MOA pics last Sept.4 & yesterday's pics from the Fair 100. :>

xo. good day!

P.S. View my twitter updates in this blog and see that I'm really crazy for Spongecola x)

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P.P.P.P.S.
Current playlist as of Sept. 7, 2009 1:48 AM

IN RANDOM ORDER :))

1. Here It Goes - Jimmy Eat World
2. Bloodshot - Jack's Mannequin
3. The Good Life - Hannah Montana
4. Puso - Spongecola
5. Bitiw - Spongecola
6. Jump - Flo Ri Da feat. Nelly Furtado
7. Gemini- Spongecola
8. Jeepney - Spongecola
9. Movie - Spongecola
10. Reach - Caleigh Peters
11. Ignorance - Paramore
12. Decode - Paramore
13. Forever & Always - Taylor Swift
14. Hey Stephen - Taylor Swift
15. Before The Worst - The Script
16. Bad Habits - My Favorite Highway
17. Bittersweet Life - My Favorite Highway
18. Goodbye Apathy - OneRepublic
19. You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
20. Battlefield - Jordin Sparks

OKAI.

BTW3 Why the title Reminiscence? Well obviously it was due to the concert which made me reminisce the old times and wished I had them back :) When everything was so simple and very laid back. Oh speaking of laid back past shennanigans me, tin & nix had a circa 1980s photoshoot w/ Nix's camphone :) Sepia and good friends rock \m/

BTW4 It's obvious I have a lot to write today considering the thousands of words in this entry. So I congratulate you if you have read the entirety of this entry. Do tell me and I will mention you in my next entry :)

xo once again. I need sleep! (:

Fast Lane.

I'm shocked and really curious how do I get through days and accomplishing stuff when I always feel that time is never at the essence and it won't keep up with my slow pace. Really, it's so weird! Tomorrow's Monday, and the next day after that, school waves a big hello saying, "Fun's over!" and I haven't even bothered to touch my Calculus & Math notebook and have not accomplished anything related to studying. I should really change my awful studying habits x(

Speaking of school and its toll on me, it's sad to know that the Card Distribution will be on Friday and I'm not shocked if all my grades are 80+ because, well, I don't know. Maybe I haven't immersed myself much this Senior Year, or maybe I don't get to combine my brain with the difficult subjects we are taking up this year. Whatever the reason, I sure hope this 2nd Qtr. I get my worth back. lol x)

Yesterday was our FAIR 100. And when I entered, I can say it looked so weird. So... i don't know! But it was weird. We just walked around the ground floor, 2nd floor podium, 5th floor and over and over again. At least we sold lots of stationeries while walking x) Oh, right, I went to jail >:) So much for wearing bermuda shorts - it was HOT! Well the benefits of being an ex-convict was getting my picture taken w/ the 40 SJ dollars bail. Haha. Then the afternoon came on so slowly but I had to sacrifice all my energy to face paint...wait, I forgot I think I painted 30+ faces for three hours! I was literally energy-less after that. But it was quite fulfilling :) Anyways, we rode the Caterpillar afterwards. FUN :> Then walked around to buy stuff. I bought an SJ lanyard, a button pin w/c says [BEWARE, I'm MOODY - so true] and a celfone charm w/ a star biscuit shape. CUTE :> Then before we left I had corn :D and Nix treated me & Joyce to another caterpillar ride and well, all of us rode in one and duh, it was masikip xD BB daw. HAHA joyce :)) We played @ the Preschool playground afterwards. I'm pretty glad my wide hips fit the slide, 'cause the one we have here at home doesn't. :P

[meet the convicts.]



[the vain threesome riding the caterpillar]

[the owner of this blog reliving childhood memories.]

Overall I had fun but I WAS TIRED! We had dinner @ my cousin's house afterwards which had delicious takeouts from Century :) And played Wii Fit's Super Hula Hoop! Haha I miss hula hooping but I love it better w/ Wii Fit :> Err...I did some journal writing but I'm not even done yet :( And copied some Chinese notes.

Speaking of Wii Fit which is part of my wishlist my mom told us we'd get a room makeover as an Xmas gift so I hope she does that. I'd get that better than the Wii Fit xD And Boots? Ha ha ha.

Randomness~

Saw these boots in Terranova. LOVE! :)

[the vain threesome :>]

Want to see Tin's reco letter?
Here is one.
I made 24 designs :)

Lucky if I let you write for Tin :) lolness.
I gtg. Will shower and get ready to go to the fair. again.

xo.

LTNU!

LTNU (long time no update) in both Blogger & Gazette (my private journal) waaaaah!
Alot of thingamajigs has occurred this week that can sum up the craziness of my entire life. I just got home from a long ride w/ friends + ice skating + shopping (yay i bought something. YAY) and all those randomness.

Fast Rewind :

• 08.31 - headed home from Tagaytay and was super tired!
• 09.01 Happy September! Hell day for me.
• 09.02 ABSENT! My head was literally spinning in circles - lack of sleep, lack of food. Half day - went to school in the p.m. and feels much better.
• 09.03 went to school, bonded w/ nix & joyce, had lunch at home, went to buy statios (fair) and grandparents' house. Gossip time w. jean :)
• 09.04 TODAY :) Went to MOA w/ F4L - ice skating, shopping fun :) Just got home a few minutes ago. Very traffic lol.

Okai tomorrow's our school fair and will update you on that. Quite busy now...pet soc :))

xo.

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thankful

I'm so glad I'm still alive today (: Good morning! It's 27 minutes past 12:00 as I'm typing this, and apparently this day wasn't very productive as such. Homeworks have been piled up, project deadlines have been moved, disruption of classes will be prominent next week.

Yay?

So the Filipino thingy got moved to September 19th, and I didn't realize it was still three weeks away! I can calm myself which is good. Other assignments will officially kill me. Today I have finished redesigning the Scratch Club Shirt & writing Calligraphy. (I didn't study Chinese History! *scream*!) Very few accomplishments.

And tomorrow we're heading to Tagaytay Woodlands and I have just memo-ed 4 out of 9 Q & As aka Wen Ta :( So I ought to do my best. So I can maximize my stay in Tagaytay - but I am taking this with me; I need to do an essay.

Aw let's just do some T2DO. Life is better with it :)

T2DO:

• Answer Calc. OMG I couldn't help not sleeping awhile ago. Everyone was very tired today. *school life woes*
• Study everything about Chi History. Test on Tuesday. The horror.
• Do a 200-word essay about anything. Aw this is hard - anything is a wide subject. :(
• Edit some write-ups.

Hmm. Not much - I've cancelled the ones that were still due on Wednesday :) Too lift up my spirits. I'm such a busy gal but my emotional aspects are quite stable these days. Which is undoubtfully good :> No more nostalgic depression.

BTW I found a pretty decent layout for my blog. When time comes and I have a good idea I'll make my own. Watch me! (: Errr...Under construction.

Some new things I experienced today:

• Our Chinese teacher reprimanding us. Wow that was a first. I remember yesterday my teacher embarrassed me - it was horrible. TYVM to you. I even cried.
• Took a pic w/ Charm w/ her Baby Holga. Cute :3
• Exercising the weirdest exercises during PE.
• Nearly sleeping during Calculus. Sorry, I'll try not to!
  
• Eating dirty ice cream in the CR. hahaha! x)
• Buying an ice cream in cup rather than cone (MINI STOP haha)
• Wrote Calligraphy very early. And Pet Soc-ed when I say I wouldn't x)

Oh well, I'm tempted to go Pet Soc for a few minutes and doze off. 8 hours = 9am?

Good night/day/midnight! :)

xo.

preoccupied.

I've posted a Dear Dumb Diary entry on Tumblr, check it out: CLICK:)

Oh btw if you feel like procrastinating and hating the world right now, listen to Paramore's Ignorance. SHUCKS I am so hookedddddddddddddddddddddd :3

Moving on, I'm supposed to write a T2DO list that will be lasting for 3-5 days until Monday, Aug 31 but I thought I'd write about my notebook addiction - oh wait, I'll reserve that for the next entry.

I don't take it as a problem though, I'm quite kuripot when I buy things, so I don't buy a lot at the same time. I have to decide LONGGG :D

T2DO:

• get a good layout from blogskins ('cause I'm sick of mine. ha ha ha.)
• study Chinese History tomorrow until Monday
• take a picture of my notebook collection and classify it (it's a lot. i'm excited to post about it! :>)
• do the headings for the four parts of the Filipino scrapbook
• edit write ups
• assemble everything and bring them to Tagaytay
• pack for Tagaytay (Sunday)
• browse my closet for cool outfits I've never tried
• ask people for more playlist suggestions
• finish updating my "all about me" portion of Gazette
• finish updating Gazette before I head to Tagaytay
• ask allowance from mom (I spent a lot on scrapbooking stuff today.)
• get good night's rest every night to avoid drowsiness and spots on teh face.
• be all ears during class hours. except if i get the lesson :)
• plan for Sept. 4 - gimmick w/ F4L
• plan outfits for Fair - 2 outfits for 2 days
• take lots of pics in Tagaytay! and Fair!
• look forward to next week and hope it will not suck and i will have an awesome time

Well I don't know what else is up. But I want to do these stuffies. Aww.
xo.

I'm holding on to the day that I can be really free to do things I wanna do. But I doubt that day will ever come.

Not on my side.

Everyone's not on my side today.
Or I'm just having a mental complication at this very moment.
You decide.
xx

It's sad to feel very alone in one's own thoughts. Though I am fond of contemplating myself, nothing hurts more than thinking how things that have been far behind, and I've never thought they'd still come back and haunt me.

Over and over again I get the same kind of treatment from my conscientious mind - I emote, I get happy and so PR, I think, I become random, I turn into a nerd, I shut myself up, and make myself be rational again. That's probably how my mood works, excluding the fact that I hate being pressured when time is not at the essence. So unfortunately my brain cells right now are half-functioning, half-deteriorating. I feel very drained right now.

So today we had our NCAE. I had a good sleep every time I finished taking a test x) I probably was the fastest in the class. It was...so-so. I was just glad we were dismissed at 2 pm and I visited the library to look at Chimes. I love the old ones they're just so vintage. [@ the Learning Resource Center]

Any ways...then we went to Coffee Nook and I had some meal w/ F4L and it was fun I guess. Erm but I wasn't really in the mood today so that was kinda not good; a signal perhaps. Then when we went out I turned around to see - I HATE BEING OBSERVANT it sucks i swear! and some kind of awkward state of mind banged my head for that second.

Oh great it never went away from that time until now.

I opened a cabinet here in my mom's room which was chocfull of magazines, boxes (of random stuff) and books. I stumbled upon a box which contained my Grade 6 pictures (a.k.a. when i look skinny & malnourished & YOUNG) only to find two round shape pieces of paper that have dedix and duh, realized it was from our 1st yr project Genesis of My Life and I kept it in my Gazette. But it was kinda weird though 'cause those words written there from two people, seem so far from today. Anyhoo I went to the other room to open my Grade 6 & HS 2 boxes (I have 1st yr pics in an album, and an old Nike box lol) and saw another nostalgic item - an identical box to my bigger box, with a ribbon and some note inside which I thought I lost. Gah. The chills.

Why do some memories withstand the test of the longest time...ever?

It's hard telling this to my friends 'cause they've probably gotten sick of me saying his name over and over and over again like a 'sirang plaka' and retelling stories about those days when I felt so...i dont know but it sucks. Even I myself am sick of feeling this way, like some kind of depressant injected into my body and paralyzing my euphoric happiness. It's not that I'm saying my happiness level has reached its extremities, but really, I don't know, too, how I depict a happy face when I'm really so different at home. I usually grab a pen, get the laptop, type continuously, or study. Grrr I don't even know what else to type after this. I'm supposed to do Filipino, but look ma, more pressure. This life is not really cooperating with me.

And so I ask, WHY?

I will leave you guys hanging for this entry, for my words won't come out so easily today.
I haven't even wrote Gazette in ages!

xo.

Forever is over.

It's been what, days since I last updated? Well luckily I've decided to write a few of my thoughts tonight. It's 10, I'm not sleepy (probably 'cause of the caffeine this a.m. lol) and I'm partly studying Chinese, which I really hate 'cause I don't get it x(

Anyways, days have been pretty crazy lately, or so I always mention "crazy" but, I don't know, I see myself as a better person these days, probably 'cause I'm more liberated w/ my own free will and right now my mind is very much creatively working. But then the only word that comes to my mind when I think about art is vintage. Goodness I've been addicted.

Okay let me begin my oh-so-long entry.

August 22 was announced a no-class day 'cause, well, the very horrifying thunderstorm the night before has probably made Manila drench in flood. Well we weren't affected with that though ;D So I spent a few hours browsing over Science books and notes. And got out of the house. Wee :D Eastwood Mall for a change. Finally got some Red Mango :) But I was pretty heart-healthy 'cause I got greentea/original swirl and Muesli which is some kind of oats & trail mix. Ah well it's delicious :) And bought this Bohemian vintagey top from Bayo which is a place I rarely buy stuff. Though it's kinda expensive I will share it so, no biggie :D

So much for that. I'm supposed to be scared 'cause the next day was the USTET. NOT. well I was anxious to be late. I was in touch from the time I left home 'till I got there w/ Ghia, Nix & Joyce and they all arrived earlier! Gad. So I walked briskly w/ mom from A.H. Lacson Ave. to Benavides Building, unaware with the long line of examinees who were going to take the same test as me. Thank goodness for Ghia! Made singit singit. Okay fast forward to when we were sorta running and heading to the room. I went to room 219 and a lot of people were screaming, "ABI!" (hello - the power of joyce's voice can light up other voices lol) and I looked around only to find half of the people in the room were my batchmates :) Weeee. The test was...so-so. I just had a headache 'cause I couldn't answer when I haven't eaten in 5 hours! x( So I gorged on a Fully loaded meal right after the exam :D No kidding! But lol it was from our Reunion w/c I wasn't able to attend so they brought some for me. Yay :) Whatta test. Headache to the max. All of my studying days before hopefully paid off. I'm crossing ze fingers! *

The next day was very drowsy for me. I just remember I was really sleepy during Physics & math class that I swear to study hard for those subjects lol. Erm...oh yeah I didn't have RJ w/ me :( Someone stole it :( Haha kidding it was taken home. I missed it x)

*FYI who/what is RJ? I have no name for my random journal so I call it RJ but I kinda hate the name RJ so I plan to change it by maybe translating it to a different language lawl.
Ooh I found one. Journal in Italian is termed as "gazette" so I'll name it... Gazette :> LAWL.

Okay, I wasn't able to update my Gazette 'cause a lot of people wanted to read it! Which kinda pissed me off (unless YOU know what my life story is all about) 'cause I have a lot of private stuff in it, including photos, notes, letters, randomness which is very very confidential. So I'll not bring it to school from this day on - I have considered it PRIVATE forever. Although TYVM for the people who said it was cool :D 'cause I find it a really weird journal of a frustrated artist like me. lol.

On the bright side I'm happy to say that I might produce a public journal yay :) Just random things that I'll update per month. And! Maybe 3-4 pages per month of total randomness but I'm still thinking of a creative routine that will work out. And show off my creativity - this means I don't want it looking like artwork, more of snippits scrapbook-like w/ a bit of vintage - really addicted to vintage. Viewed lotsa Flickr stuff about Moleskine and I am soooo jealous! Those people are really cool :> I wish I was. Aw :(

Any way...I'll be doing that when time will set its standard to mine. That will be a long time lol.

Today is pretty awesome. Aside from having our fashion show this a.m. (view TwitPic for some pics or my Multi. :P ) I had fun making some noise w/ my seatmates haha. Which is cool 'cause everywhere I turn it's either I get a good laugh, a sensible talk, or both ^^ Nice. Unlike my last seat (1st Qtr) I was rather quiet and acting all "ooh secretary nerd freak" sorta thing. Hah. People are probably shocked I'm very un-kind when I am at home. I'm just not rulebreaking in school - well I do talk sometimes and usually get reprimanded for it so I just obey ze rules for my own benefit. Hahaha.

What did I ... oh, right! Skipped first Physics period to go Guidance Counseling. It was cool, 'cause all Ms. Acosta said about my Personality is so true. I AM an introvert (yeah my EQ is very low! Wah >< I can't handle my emotions well - as you all know) and I forgot the others but, I did get very high in Arts (DUH) and Business (ooh!) and my career options include Graphic Designing (weeee!!!) Managerial stuffs && marketing (it said fashion lol) so I'm really happy about that. :D

Right now my current concern is getting this Hua Wen studied and done. Wah it's 10: 48 x( I hate it! I sleep late again. But I stayed for Scratch today soooo...yeah. Grrrr. Any ways, I'm going to doze off.

Some random stuffs:

• Wed (tom) - NCAE = room buddies w/ F4L weeeeeeeeeeee :>
  
• Fri - Hua Wen test. WAH. Maybe Filipino brainstorming? (When the hell will we submit this! I have hardly enough time!)
• Sat - will hopefully watch The Time Traveler's Wife w/ D & S but I'm not sure yet, still on hold; if not, will study Li Shr
• Sun - Mon - TAGAYTAY Wee. I am so stoked for this because I will get to update my art & gazette there and hopefully fill a page of holy Moleskine-ness. I'm scared to use the God of all notebooks x)
• Tues - Li Shr test. Must study.

Speaking of notebooks I'm planning to buy another one! (I'm really addicted. GREAT) in Fully Booked! Aaaaah love that place. And I love notebooks. Ever since Grade 5! Wah. So I saw this one with Van Gogh's painting on it and it's hardcover and magnetic lock and PLAIN inside! *Squeals*

LOL. If i have the money I would purchase all the notebooks I see each time I go to a certain place. If only. Right now I only have the P1000 I got from YMCA which I will never spend. I still have to think. :D

Anyhoo so much about notebooks. Am loving BLG's Love Drunk! 'Cause I'm not love drunk anymore :P xD I'm pretty much happy living w/o something like love. It's too complicated AND I didn't really know what I've gotten myself into, you know. So I'm on a clean slate right now.

A very clean one. Like a sorta replenished soul of some sort. Hahaha. But I still get the nostalgia but, it's very rare thanks for that :D

Ohwell I gtg. Good night! Wish me luck for teh NCAE tom! Let's hope my IQ of 107 (YEZ. it's very low!) will work tomorrow morning. Must not forget to have a cup of tea. (addict!)

xo.

Do-nothing Day

I feel like doing nothing today. Woop - I gotta continue studying a few Math problems & head on to Science. An hour from now, maybe. :)

The rain last night really creeped me out. I was not happy. But I am happy now that there's no school :>

BUT.

I still have to:

• Take a bath (it's hot now)
• Update journal - Thurs & Fri events
• Research on what Penelope will say ~ lol
• Do other templates & begin doing write ups
• Study Bio & Chem, and my other homeworks :)

I am currently:

• drenched in sweat sitting, tweeting, facebooking, pet soc-ed
• listening to Taylor Swift's You Belong With Me - 'cause it always plays on Myx, MTV or [V] ah well, i love that song. and Lucas Till. ha ha ha :>
• feeling the air 'cause we rarely open the window. just today.

I cannot wait for:

• August 30 & 31 - no classes! :)
• Sept. 4-7 - hopefully we'll squeeze in a gimmick day, + Fair 100
• October - Sem Break - ABROAD!!! :D lolness.

The randomest entry everrr.
:)

xo.

/Waiting for the day you would wake up and find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time./

Brain drain

Having a crash course for 2 hours in Math is actually bloody. My mind is still adjusting. I have answered 120++ questions involving Math, will probably answer more later, refresh my mind w/ Calculus and head to sleep.

Science pa! Maybe tomorrow night. gah! The USTET is on Sunday!! Why am i cramming x( Well not really. I'm just planning to review Bio & Chem for Sci, my mind is still fresh w/ Physics and I do know a lot of Science.

Complete ditching of English huwatda :))

Anyhoo I am having some kind of break time Pet Soc-ing, chatting & stuff~

Not much of a day. 3/4 of the day I studied.

xo.